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Title: The Trial
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Author: Franz Kafka
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Translator: David Wyllie
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Release Date: May 16, 2003 [eBook #7849]
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[Most recently updated: January 8, 2023]
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Language: English
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Character set encoding: UTF-8
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*** START OF THE PROJECT GUTENBERG EBOOK THE TRIAL ***
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THE TRIAL
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Franz Kafka
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Translation Copyright © by David Wyllie
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Translator contact email: dandelion@post.cz
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Chapter One
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Arrest--Conversation with Mrs. Grubach--Then Miss Bürstner
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Someone must have been telling lies about Josef K., he knew he had done
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nothing wrong but, one morning, he was arrested. Every day at eight in
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the morning he was brought his breakfast by Mrs. Grubach's cook--Mrs.
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Grubach was his landlady--but today she didn't come. That had never
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happened before. K. waited a little while, looked from his pillow at the
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old woman who lived opposite and who was watching him with an
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inquisitiveness quite unusual for her, and finally, both hungry and
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disconcerted, rang the bell. There was immediately a knock at the door
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and a man entered. He had never seen the man in this house before. He
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was slim but firmly built, his clothes were black and close-fitting,
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with many folds and pockets, buckles and buttons and a belt, all of
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which gave the impression of being very practical but without making it
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very clear what they were actually for. "Who are you?" asked K., sitting
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half upright in his bed. The man, however, ignored the question as if
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his arrival simply had to be accepted, and merely replied, "You rang?"
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"Anna should have brought me my breakfast," said K. He tried to work
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out who the man actually was, first in silence, just through
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observation and by thinking about it, but the man didn't stay still to
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be looked at for very long. Instead he went over to the door, opened it
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slightly, and said to someone who was clearly standing immediately
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behind it, "He
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wants Anna to bring him his breakfast." There was a little laughter in
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the neighbouring room, it was not clear from the sound of it whether
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there were several people laughing. The strange man could not have
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learned anything from it that he hadn't known already, but now he said
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to K., as if making his report "It is not possible." "It would be the
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first time that's happened," said K., as he jumped out of bed and
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quickly pulled on his trousers. "I want to see who that is in the next
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room, and why it is that Mrs. Grubach has let me be disturbed in this
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way." It immediately occurred to him that he needn't have said this out
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loud, and that he must to some extent have acknowledged their authority
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by doing so, but that didn't seem important to him at the time. That, at
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least, is how the stranger took it, as he said, "Don't you think you'd
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better stay where you are?" "I want neither to stay here nor to be
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spoken to by you until you've introduced yourself." "I meant it for your
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own good," said the stranger and opened the door, this time without
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being asked. The next room, which K. entered more slowly than he had
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intended, looked at first glance exactly the same as it had the previous
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evening. It was Mrs. Grubach's living room, over-filled with furniture,
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tablecloths, porcelain and photographs. Perhaps there was a little more
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space in there than usual today, but if so it was not immediately
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obvious, especially as the main difference was the presence of a man
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sitting by the open window with a book from which he now looked up.
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"You should have stayed in your room! Didn't Franz tell you?" "And what
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is it you want, then?" said K., looking back and forth between this new
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acquaintance and the one named Franz, who had remained in the doorway.
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Through the open window he noticed the old woman again, who had come
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close to the window opposite so that she could continue to see
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everything. She was showing an inquisitiveness that really made it seem
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like she was going senile. "I want to see Mrs. Grubach ...," said K.,
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making a movement as if tearing himself away from the two men--even
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though they were standing well away from him--and wanted to go. "No,"
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said the man at the window, who threw his book down on a coffee table
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and stood up. "You can't go away when you're under arrest." "That's how
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it seems," said K. "And why am I under arrest?" he then asked. "That's
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something we're not allowed to tell you. Go into your room and wait
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there. Proceedings are underway and you'll learn about everything all in
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good time. It's not really part of my job to be friendly towards you
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like this, but I hope no-one, apart from Franz, will hear about it, and
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he's been more friendly towards you than he should have been, under the
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rules, himself. If you carry on having as much good luck as you have
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been with your arresting officers then you can reckon on things going
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well with you." K. wanted to sit down, but then he saw that, apart from
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the chair by the window, there was nowhere anywhere in the room where he
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could sit. "You'll get the chance to see for yourself how true all this
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is," said Franz and both men then walked up to K. They were
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significantly bigger than him, especially the second man, who frequently
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slapped him on the shoulder. The two of them felt K.'s nightshirt, and
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said he would now have to wear one that was of much lower quality, but
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that they would keep the nightshirt along with his other underclothes
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and return them to him if his case turned out well. "It's better for you
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if you give us the things than if you leave them in the storeroom," they
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said. "Things have a tendency to go missing in the storeroom, and after
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a certain amount of time they sell things off, whether the case involved
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has come to an end or not. And cases like this can last a long time,
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especially the ones that have been coming up lately. They'd give you the
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money they got for them, but it wouldn't be very much as it's not what
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they're offered for them when they sell them that counts, it's how much
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they get slipped on the side, and things like that lose their value
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anyway when they get passed on from hand to hand, year after year." K.
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paid hardly any attention to what they were saying, he did not place
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much value on what he may have still possessed or on who decided what
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happened to them. It was much more important to him to get a clear
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understanding of his position, but he could not think clearly while
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these people were here, the second policeman's belly--and they could
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only be policemen--looked friendly enough, sticking out towards him, but
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when K. looked up and saw his dry, bony face it did not seem to fit
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with the body. His strong nose twisted to one side as if ignoring K. and
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sharing an understanding with the other policeman. What sort of people
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were these? What were they talking about? What office did they belong
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to? K. was living in a free country, after all, everywhere was at peace,
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all laws were decent and were upheld, who was it who dared accost him in
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his own home. He was always inclined to take life as lightly as he
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could, to cross bridges when he came to them, pay no heed for the
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future, even when everything seemed under threat. But here that did not
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seem the right thing to do. He could have taken it all as a joke, a big
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joke set up by his colleagues at the bank for some unknown reason, or
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also perhaps because today was his thirtieth birthday, it was all
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possible of course, maybe all he had to do was laugh in the policemen's
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face in some way and they would laugh with him, maybe they were
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tradesmen from the corner of the street, they looked like they might
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be--but he was nonetheless determined, ever since he first caught sight
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of the one called Franz, not to lose any slight advantage he might have
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had over these people. There was a very slight risk that people would
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later say he couldn't understand a joke, but--although he wasn't
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normally in the habit of learning from experience--he might also have
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had a few unimportant occasions in mind when, unlike his more cautious
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friends, he had acted with no thought at all for what might follow and
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had been made to suffer for it. He didn't want that to happen again, not
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this time at least; if they were play-acting he would act along with
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them.
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He still had time. "Allow me," he said, and hurried between the two
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policemen through into his room. "He seems sensible enough," he heard
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them say behind him. Once in his room, he quickly pulled open the drawer
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of his writing desk, everything in it was very tidy but in his
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agitation he was unable to find the identification documents he was
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looking for straight away. He finally found his bicycle permit and was
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about to go back to the policemen with it when it seemed to him too
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petty, so he carried on searching until he found his birth certificate.
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Just as he got back in the adjoining room the door on the other side
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opened and Mrs. Grubach was about to enter. He only saw her for an
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instant, for as soon as she recognised K. she was clearly embarrassed,
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asked for forgiveness and disappeared, closing the door behind her very
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carefully. "Do come in," K. could have said just then. But now he stood
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in the middle of the room with his papers in his hand and still looking
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at the door which did not open again. He stayed like that until he was
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startled out of it by the shout of the policeman who sat at the little
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table at the open window and, as K. now saw, was eating his breakfast.
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"Why didn't she come in?" he asked. "She's not allowed to," said the
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big policeman. "You're under arrest, aren't you?" "But how can I be
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under arrest? And how come it's like this?" "Now you're starting again,"
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said the policeman, dipping a piece of buttered bread in the honeypot.
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"We don't answer questions like that." "You will have to answer them,"
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said K. "Here are my identification papers, now show me yours and I
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certainly want to see the arrest warrant." "Oh, my God!" said the
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policeman. "In a position like yours, and you think you can start giving
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orders, do you. It won't do you any good to get us on the wrong side,
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even if you think it will--we're probably more on your side that anyone
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else you know!" "That's true, you know, you'd better believe it," said
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Franz, holding a cup of coffee in his hand which he did not lift to his
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mouth but looked at K. in a way that was probably meant to be full of
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meaning but could not actually be understood. K. found himself, without
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intending it, in a mute dialogue with Franz, but then slapped his hand
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down on his papers and said, "Here are my identity documents." "And what
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do you want us to do about it?" replied the big policeman, loudly. "The
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way you're carrying on, it's worse than a child. What is it you want? Do
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you want to get this great, bloody trial of yours over with quickly by
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talking about ID and arrest warrants with us? We're just coppers, that's
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all we are. Junior officers like us hardly know one end of an ID card
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from another, all we've got to do with you is keep an eye on you for
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ten hours a day and get paid for it. That's all we are. Mind you, what
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we can do is make sure that the high officials we work for find out
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just what sort of person it is they're going to arrest, and why he
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should be arrested, before they issue the warrant. There's no mistake
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there. Our authorities as far as I know, and I only know the lowest
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grades, don't go out looking for guilt among the public; it's the guilt
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that draws them out, like it says in the law, and they have to send us
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police officers out. That's the law. Where d'you think there'd be any
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mistake there?" "I don't know this law," said K. "So much the worse for
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you, then," said the policeman. "It's probably exists only in your
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heads," said K., he wanted, in some way, to insinuate his way into the
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thoughts of the policemen, to re-shape those thoughts to his benefit or
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to make himself at home there. But the policeman just said dismissively,
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"You'll find out when it affects you." Franz joined in, and said, "Look
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at this, Willem, he admits he doesn't know the law and at the same time
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insists he's innocent." "You're quite right, but we can't get him to
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understand a thing," said the other. K. stopped talking with them; do I,
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he thought to himself, do I really have to carry on getting tangled up
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with the chattering of base functionaries like this?--and they admit
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themselves that they are of the lowest position. They're talking about
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things of which they don't have the slightest understanding, anyway.
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It's only because of their stupidity that they're able to be so sure of
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themselves. I just need few words with someone of the same social
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standing as myself and everything will be incomparably clearer, much
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clearer than a long conversation with these two can make it. He walked
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up and down the free space in the room a couple of times, across the
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street he could see the old woman who, now, had pulled an old man, much
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older than herself, up to the window and had her arms around him. K. had
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to put an end to this display, "Take me to your superior," he said. "As
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soon as he wants to see you. Not before," said the policeman, the one
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called Willem. "And now my advice to you," he added, "is to go into your
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room, stay calm, and wait and see what's to be done with you. If you
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take our advice, you won't tire yourself out thinking about things to no
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purpose, you need to pull yourself together as there's a lot that's
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going to required of you. You've not behaved towards us the way we
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deserve after being so good to you, you forget that we, whatever we are,
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we're still free men and you're not, and that's quite an advantage. But
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in spite of all that we're still willing, if you've got the money, to go
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and get you some breakfast from the café over the road."
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Without giving any answer to this offer, K. stood still for some time.
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Perhaps, if he opened the door of the next room or even the front door,
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the two of them would not dare to stand in his way, perhaps that would
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be the simplest way to settle the whole thing, by bringing it to a head.
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But maybe they would grab him, and if he were thrown down on the ground
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he would lose all the advantage he, in a certain respect, had over them.
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So he decided on the more certain solution, the way things would go in
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the natural course of events, and went back in his room without another
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word either from him or from the policemen.
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He threw himself down on his bed, and from the dressing table he took
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the nice apple that he had put there the previous evening for his
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breakfast. Now it was all the breakfast he had and anyway, as he
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confirmed as soon as he took his first, big bite of it, it was far
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better than a breakfast he could have had through the good will of the
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policemen from the dirty café. He felt well and confident, he had failed
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to go into work at the bank this morning but that could easily be
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excused because of the relatively high position he held there. Should he
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really send in his explanation? He wondered about it. If nobody believed
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him, and in this case that would be understandable, he could bring Mrs.
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Grubach in as a witness, or even the old pair from across the street,
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who probably even now were on their way over to the window opposite. It
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puzzled K., at least it puzzled him looking at it from the policemen's
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point of view, that they had made him go into the room and left him
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alone there, where he had ten different ways of killing himself. At the
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same time, though, he asked himself, this time looking at it from his
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own point of view, what reason he could have to do so. Because those two
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were sitting there in the next room and had taken his breakfast,
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perhaps. It would have been so pointless to kill himself that, even if
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he had wanted to, the pointlessness would have made him unable. Maybe,
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if the policemen had not been so obviously limited in their mental
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abilities, it could have been supposed that they had come to the same
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conclusion and saw no danger in leaving him alone because of it. They
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could watch now, if they wanted, and see how he went over to the
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cupboard in the wall where he kept a bottle of good schnapps, how he
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first emptied a glass of it in place of his breakfast and how he then
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took a second glassful in order to give himself courage, the last one
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just as a precaution for the unlikely chance it would be needed.
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Then he was so startled by a shout to him from the other room that he
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struck his teeth against the glass. "The supervisor wants to see you!" a
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voice said. It was only the shout that startled him, this curt, abrupt,
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military shout, that he would not have expected from the policeman
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called Franz. In itself, he found the order very welcome. "At last!" he
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called back, locked the cupboard and, without delay, hurried into the
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next room. The two policemen were standing there and chased him back
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into his bedroom as if that were a matter of course. "What d'you think
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you're doing?" they cried. "Think you're going to see the supervisor
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dressed in just your shirt, do you? He'd see to it you got a right
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thumping, and us and all!" "Let go of me for God's sake!" called K., who
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had already been pushed back as far as his wardrobe, "if you accost me
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when I'm still in bed you can't expect to find me in my evening dress."
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"That won't help you," said the policemen, who always became very quiet,
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almost sad, when K. began to shout, and in that way confused him or, to
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some extent, brought him to his senses. "Ridiculous formalities!" he
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grumbled, as he lifted his coat from the chair and kept it in both his
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hands for a little while, as if holding it out for the policemen's
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inspection. They shook their heads. "It's got to be a black coat,"
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they said. At that, K. threw the coat to the floor and said--without
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knowing even himself what he meant by it--"Well it's not going to be the
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main trial, after all." The policemen laughed, but continued to insist,
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"It's got to be a black coat." "Well that's alright by me if it makes
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things go any faster," said K. He opened the wardrobe himself, spent a
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long time searching through all the clothes, and chose his best black
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suit which had a short jacket that had greatly surprised those who knew
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him, then he also pulled out a fresh shirt and began, carefully, to get
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dressed. He secretly told himself that he had succeeded in speeding
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things up by letting the policemen forget to make him have a bath. He
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watched them to see if they might remember after all, but of course it
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never occurred to them, although Willem did not forget to send Franz up
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to the supervisor with the message saying that K. was getting dressed.
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Once he was properly dressed, K. had to pass by Willem as he went
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through the next room into the one beyond, the door of which was already
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wide open. K. knew very well that this room had recently been let to a
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typist called 'Miss Bürstner'. She was in the habit of going out to work
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very early and coming back home very late, and K. had never exchanged
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more than a few words of greeting with her. Now, her bedside table had
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been pulled into the middle of the room to be used as a desk for these
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proceedings, and the supervisor sat behind it. He had his legs crossed,
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and had thrown one arm over the backrest of the chair.
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In one corner of the room there were three young people looking at the
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photographs belonging to Miss Bürstner that had been put into a piece of
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fabric on the wall. Hung up on the handle of the open window was a white
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blouse. At the window across the street, there was the old pair again,
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although now their number had increased, as behind them, and far taller
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than they were, stood a man with an open shirt that showed his chest and
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a reddish goatee beard which he squeezed and twisted with his fingers.
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"Josef K.?" asked the supervisor, perhaps merely to attract K.'s
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attention as he looked round the room. K. nodded. "I daresay you were
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quite surprised by all that's been taking place this morning," said the
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supervisor as, with both hands, he pushed away the few items on the
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bedside table--the candle and box of matches, a book and a pin cushion
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which lay there as if they were things he would need for his own
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business. "Certainly," said K., and he began to feel relaxed now that,
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at last, he stood in front of someone with some sense, someone with whom
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he would be able to talk about his situation. "Certainly I'm surprised,
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but I'm not in any way very surprised." "You're not very surprised?"
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asked the supervisor, as he positioned the candle in the middle of the
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table and the other things in a group around it. "Perhaps you don't
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quite understand me," K. hurriedly pointed out. "What I mean is ..."
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here K. broke off what he was saying and looked round for somewhere to
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sit. "I may sit down, mayn't I?" he asked. "That's not usual," the
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supervisor answered. "What I mean is ...," said K. without delaying a
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second time, "that, yes, I am very surprised but when you've been in the
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world for thirty years already and had to make your own way through
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everything yourself, which has been my lot, then you become hardened to
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surprises and don't take them too hard. Especially not what's happened
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today." "Why especially not what's happened today?" "I wouldn't want to
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say that I see all of this as a joke, you seem to have gone to too much
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trouble making all these arrangements for that. Everyone in the house
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must be taking part in it as well as all of you, that would be going
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beyond what could be a joke. So I don't want to say that this is a
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joke." "Quite right," said the supervisor, looking to see how many
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matches were left in the box. "But on the other hand," K. went on,
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looking round at everyone there and even wishing he could get the
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attention of the three who were looking at the photographs, "on the
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other hand this really can't be all that important. That follows from
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the fact that I've been indicted, but can't think of the slightest
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offence for which I could be indicted. But even that is all beside the
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point, the main question is: Who is issuing the indictment? What office
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is conducting this affair? Are you officials? None of you is wearing a
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uniform, unless what you are wearing"--here he turned towards Franz--"is
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meant to be a uniform, it's actually more of a travelling suit. I
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require a clear answer to all these questions, and I'm quite sure that
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once things have been made clear we can take our leave of each other on
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the best of terms." The supervisor slammed the box of matches down on
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the table. "You're making a big mistake," he said. "These gentlemen and
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I have got nothing to do with your business, in fact we know almost
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nothing about you. We could be wearing uniforms as proper and exact as
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you like and your situation wouldn't be any the worse for it. As to
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whether you're on a charge, I can't give you any sort of clear answer to
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that, I don't even know whether you are or not. You're under arrest,
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you're quite right about that, but I don't know any more than that.
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Maybe these officers have been chit-chatting with you, well if they have
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that's all it is, chit-chat. I can't give you an answer to your
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questions, but I can give you a bit of advice: You'd better think less
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about us and what's going to happen to you, and think a bit more about
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yourself. And stop making all this fuss about your sense of innocence;
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you don't make such a bad impression, but with all this fuss you're
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damaging it. And you ought to do a bit less talking, too. Almost
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everything you've said so far has been things we could have taken from
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your behaviour, even if you'd said no more than a few words. And what
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you have said has not exactly been in your favour."
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K. stared at the supervisor. Was this man, probably younger than he was,
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lecturing him like a schoolmaster. Was he being punished for his honesty
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with a telling off. And was he to learn nothing about the reasons for
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his arrest or those who were arresting him. He became somewhat cross and
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began to walk up and down. No-one stopped him doing this and he pushed
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his sleeves back, felt his chest, straightened his hair, went over to
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the three men, said, "It makes no sense," at which these three turned
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round to face him and came towards him with serious expressions. He
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finally came again to a halt in front of the supervisor's desk. "State
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Attorney Hasterer is a good friend of mine," he said, "can I telephone
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him?" "Certainly," said the supervisor, "but I don't know what the point
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of that will be, I suppose you must have some private matter you want to
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discuss with him." "What the point is?" shouted K., more disconcerted
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that cross. "Who do you think you are? You want to see some point in it
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while you're carrying out something as pointless as it could be. It's
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enough to make you cry! These gentlemen first accost me, and now they
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sit or stand about in here and let me be hauled up in front of you.
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What point there would be, in telephoning a state attorney when I'm
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ostensibly under arrest? Very well, I won't make the telephone call."
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"You can call him if you want to," said the supervisor, stretching his
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hand out towards the outer room where the telephone was, "please, go on,
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do make your phone call." "No, I don't want to any more," said K., and
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went over to the window. Across the street, the people were still there
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at the window, and it was only now that K. had gone up to his window
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that they seemed to become uneasy about quietly watching what was going
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on. The old couple wanted to get up but the man behind them calmed them
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down. "We've got some kind of audience over there," called K. to the
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supervisor, quite loudly, as he pointed out with his forefinger. "Go
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away," he then called across to them. And the three of them did
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immediately retreat a few steps, the old pair even found themselves
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behind the man who then concealed them with the breadth of his body and
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seemed, going by the movements of his mouth, to be saying something
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incomprehensible into the distance. They did not disappear entirely,
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though, but seemed to be waiting for the moment when they could come
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back to the window without being noticed. "Intrusive, thoughtless
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people!" said K. as he turned back into the room. The supervisor may
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have agreed with him, at least K. thought that was what he saw from the
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corner of his eye. But it was just as possible that he had not even been
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listening as he had his hand pressed firmly down on the table and seemed
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to be comparing the length of his fingers. The two policemen were
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sitting on a chest covered with a coloured blanket, rubbing their knees.
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The three young people had put their hands on their hips and were
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looking round aimlessly. Everything was still, like in some office that
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has been forgotten about. "Now, gentlemen," called out K., and for a
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moment it seemed as if he was carrying all of them on his shoulders, "it
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looks like your business with me is over with. In my opinion, it's best
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now to stop wondering about whether you're proceeding correctly or
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incorrectly, and to bring the matter to a peaceful close with a mutual
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handshake. If you are of the same opinion, then please...." and he
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walked up to the supervisor's desk and held out his hand to him. The
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supervisor raised his eyes, bit his lip and looked at K.'s outstretched
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hand; K. still believed the supervisor would do as he suggested. But
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instead, he stood up, picked up a hard round hat that was laying on
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Miss Bürstner's bed and put it carefully onto his head, using both hands
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as if trying on a new hat. "Everything seems so simple to you, doesn't
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it," he said to K. as he did so, "so you think we should bring the
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matter to a peaceful close, do you? No, no, that won't do. Mind you, on
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the other hand I certainly wouldn't want you to think there's no hope
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for you. No, why should you think that? You're simply under arrest,
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nothing more than that. That's what I had to tell you, that's what I've
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done and now I've seen how you've taken it. That's enough for one day
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and we can take our leave of each other, for the time being at least. I
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expect you'll want to go in to the bank now, won't you?" "In to the
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bank?" asked K., "I thought I was under arrest." K. said this with a
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certain amount of defiance as, although his handshake had not been
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accepted, he was feeling more independent of all these people,
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especially since the supervisor had stood up. He was playing with them.
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If they left, he had decided he would run after them and offer to let
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them arrest him. That's why he even repeated, "How can I go in to the
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bank when I'm under arrest?" "I see you've misunderstood me," said the
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supervisor who was already at the door. "It's true that you're under
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arrest, but that shouldn't stop you from carrying out your job. And
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there shouldn't be anything to stop you carrying on with your usual
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life." "In that case it's not too bad, being under arrest," said K., and
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went up close to the supervisor. "I never meant it should be anything
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else," he replied. "It hardly seems to have been necessary to notify me
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of the arrest in that case," said K., and went even closer. The others
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had also come closer. All of them had gathered together into a narrow
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space by the door. "That was my duty," said the supervisor. "A silly
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duty," said K., unyielding. "Maybe so," replied the supervisor, "only
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don't let's waste our time talking on like this. I had assumed you'd be
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wanting to go to the bank. As you're paying close attention to every
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word I'll add this: I'm not forcing you to go to the bank, I'd just
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assumed you wanted to. And to make things easier for you, and to let you
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get to the bank with as little fuss as possible I've put these three
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gentlemen, colleagues of yours, at your disposal." "What's that?"
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exclaimed K., and looked at the three in astonishment. He could only
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remember seeing them in their group by the photographs, but these
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characterless, anaemic young people were indeed officials from his bank,
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not colleagues of his, that was putting it too high and it showed a gap
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in the omniscience of the supervisor, but they were nonetheless junior
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members of staff at the bank. How could K. have failed to see that? How
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occupied he must have been with the supervisor and the policemen not to
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have recognised these three! Rabensteiner, with his stiff demeanour and
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swinging hands, Kullich, with his blonde hair and deep-set eyes, and
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Kaminer, with his involuntary grin caused by chronic muscle spasms.
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"Good morning," said K. after a while, extending his hand to the
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gentlemen as they bowed correctly to him. "I didn't recognise you at
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all. So, we'll go into work now, shall we?" The gentlemen laughed and
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nodded enthusiastically, as if that was what they had been waiting for
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all the time, except that K. had left his hat in his room so they all
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dashed, one after another, into the room to fetch it, which caused a
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certain amount of embarrassment. K. stood where he was and watched them
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through the open double doorway, the last to go, of course, was the
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apathetic Rabensteiner who had broken into no more than an elegant trot.
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Kaminer got to the hat and K., as he often had to do at the bank,
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forcibly reminded himself that the grin was not deliberate, that he in
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fact wasn't able to grin deliberately. At that moment Mrs. Grubach
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opened the door from the hallway into the living room where all the
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people were. She did not seem to feel guilty about anything at all, and
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K., as often before, looked down at the belt of her apron which, for no
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reason, cut so deeply into her hefty body. Once downstairs, K., with his
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watch in his hand, decided to take a taxi--he had already been delayed
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by half an hour and there was no need to make the delay any longer.
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Kaminer ran to the corner to summon it, and the two others were making
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obvious efforts to keep K. diverted when Kullich pointed to the doorway
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of the house on the other side of the street where the large man with
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the blonde goatee beard appeared and, a little embarrassed at first at
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letting himself be seen in his full height, stepped back to the wall and
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leant against it. The old couple were probably still on the stairs. K.
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was cross with Kullich for pointing out this man whom he had already
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seen himself, in fact whom he had been expecting. "Don't look at him!"
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he snapped, without noticing how odd it was to speak to free men in this
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way. But there was no explanation needed anyway as just then the taxi
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arrived, they sat inside and set off. Inside the taxi, K. remembered
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that he had not noticed the supervisor and the policemen leaving--the
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supervisor had stopped him noticing the three bank staff and now the
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three bank staff had stopped him noticing the supervisor. This showed
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that K. was not very attentive, and he resolved to watch himself more
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carefully in this respect. Nonetheless, he gave it no thought as he
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twisted himself round and leant over onto the rear shelf of the car to
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catch sight of the supervisor and the policemen if he could. But he
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turned back round straight away and leant comfortably into the corner of
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the taxi without even having made the effort to see anyone. Although it
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did not seem like it, now was just the time when he needed some
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encouragement, but the gentlemen seemed tired just then, Rabensteiner
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looked out of the car to the right, Kullich to the left and only Kaminer
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was there with his grin at K.'s service. It would have been inhumane to
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make fun of that.
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That spring, whenever possible, K. usually spent his evenings after
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work--he usually stayed in the office until nine o'clock--with a short
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walk, either by himself or in the company of some of the bank officials,
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and then he would go into a pub where he would sit at the regulars'
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table with mostly older men until eleven. There were, however, also
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exceptions to this habit, times, for instance, when K. was invited by
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the bank's manager (whom he greatly respected for his industry and
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trustworthiness) to go with him for a ride in his car or to eat dinner
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with him at his large house. K. would also go, once a week, to see a
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girl called Elsa who worked as a waitress in a wine bar through the
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night until late in the morning. During the daytime she only received
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visitors while still in bed.
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That evening, though,--the day had passed quickly with a lot of hard
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work and many respectful and friendly birthday greetings--K. wanted to
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go straight home. Each time he had any small break from the day's work
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he considered, without knowing exactly what he had in mind, that Mrs.
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Grubach's flat seemed to have been put into great disarray by the events
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of that morning, and that it was up to him to put it back into order.
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Once order had been restored, every trace of those events would have
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been erased and everything would take its previous course once more. In
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particular, there was nothing to fear from the three bank officials,
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they had immersed themselves back into their paperwork and there was no
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alteration to be seen in them. K. had called each of them, separately or
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all together, into his office that day for no other reason than to
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observe them; he was always satisfied and had always been able to let
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them go again.
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At half past nine that evening, when he arrived back in front of the
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building where he lived, he met a young lad in the doorway who was
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standing there, his legs apart and smoking a pipe. "Who are you?"
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immediately asked K., bringing his face close to the lad's, as it was
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hard to see in the half light of the landing. "I'm the landlord's son,
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sir," answered the lad, taking the pipe from his mouth and stepping to
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one side. "The landlord's son?" asked K., and impatiently knocked on the
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ground with his stick. "Did you want anything, sir? Would you like me
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to fetch my father?" "No, no," said K., there was something forgiving
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in his voice, as if the boy had harmed him in some way and he was
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excusing him. "It's alright," he said then, and went on, but before
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going up the stairs he turned round once more.
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He could have gone directly to his room, but as he wanted to speak with
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Mrs. Grubach he went straight to her door and knocked. She was sat at
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the table with a knitted stocking and a pile of old stockings in front
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of her. K. apologised, a little embarrassed at coming so late, but Mrs.
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Grubach was very friendly and did not want to hear any apology, she was
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always ready to speak to him, he knew very well that he was her best and
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her favourite tenant. K. looked round the room, it looked exactly as it
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usually did, the breakfast dishes, which had been on the table by the
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window that morning, had already been cleared away. "A woman's hands
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will do many things when no-one's looking," he thought, he might himself
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have smashed all the dishes on the spot but certainly would not have
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been able to carry it all out. He looked at Mrs. Grubach with some
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gratitude. "Why are you working so late?" he asked. They were now both
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sitting at the table, and K. now and then sank his hands into the pile
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of stockings. "There's a lot of work to do," she said, "during the day I
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belong to the tenants; if I'm to sort out my own things there are only
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the evenings left to me." "I fear I may have caused you some exceptional
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work today." "How do you mean, Mr. K.?" she asked, becoming more
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interested and leaving her work in her lap. "I mean the men who were
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here this morning." "Oh, I see," she said, and went peacefully back to
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what she was doing, "that was no trouble, not especially." K. looked on
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in silence as she took up the knitted stocking once more. She seems
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surprised at my mentioning it, he thought, she seems to think it's
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improper for me to mention it. All the more important for me to do so.
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An old woman is the only person I can speak about it with. "But it must
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have caused some work for you," he said then, "but it won't happen
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again." "No, it can't happen again," she agreed, and smiled at K. in a
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way that was almost pained. "Do you mean that seriously?" asked K.
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"Yes," she said, more gently, "but the important thing is you mustn't
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take it too hard. There are so many awful things happening in the world!
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As you're being so honest with me, Mr. K., I can admit to you that I
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listened to a little of what was going on from behind the door, and that
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those two policemen told me one or two things as well. It's all to do
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with your happiness, and that's something that's quite close to my
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heart, perhaps more than it should be as I am, after all, only your
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landlady. Anyway, so I heard one or two things but I can't really say
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that it's about anything very serious. No. You have been arrested, but
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it's not in the same way as when they arrest a thief. If you're arrested
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in the same way as a thief, then it's bad, but an arrest like this....
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It seems to me that it's something very complicated--forgive me if I'm
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saying something stupid--something very complicated that I don't
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understand, but something that you don't really need to understand
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anyway."
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"There's nothing stupid about what you've said, Mrs. Grubach, or at
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least I partly agree with you, only, the way I judge the whole thing is
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harsher than yours, and think it's not only not something complicated
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but simply a fuss about nothing. I was just caught unawares, that's what
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happened. If I had got up as soon as I was awake without letting myself
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get confused because Anna wasn't there, if I'd got up and paid no regard
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to anyone who might have been in my way and come straight to you, if I'd
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done something like having my breakfast in the kitchen as an exception,
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asked you to bring my clothes from my room, in short, if I had behaved
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sensibly then nothing more would have happened, everything that was
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waiting to happen would have been stifled. People are so often
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unprepared. In the bank, for example, I am well prepared, nothing of
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this sort could possibly happen to me there, I have my own assistant
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there, there are telephones for internal and external calls in front of
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me on the desk, I continually receive visits from people,
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representatives, officials, but besides that, and most importantly, I'm
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always occupied with my work, that's to say I'm always alert, it would
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even be a pleasure for me to find myself faced with something of that
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sort. But now it's over with, and I didn't really even want to talk
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about it any more, only I wanted to hear what you, as a sensible woman,
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thought about it all, and I'm very glad to hear that we're in agreement.
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But now you must give me your hand, an agreement of this sort needs to
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be confirmed with a handshake."
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Will she shake hands with me? The supervisor didn't shake hands, he
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thought, and looked at the woman differently from before, examining her.
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She stood up, as he had also stood up, and was a little self-conscious,
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she hadn't been able to understand everything that K. said. As a result
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of this self-consciousness she said something that she certainly did
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not intend and certainly was not appropriate. "Don't take it so hard,
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Mr. K.," she said, with tears in her voice and also, of course,
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forgetting the handshake. "I didn't know I was taking it hard," said K.,
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feeling suddenly tired and seeing that if this woman did agree with him
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it was of very little value.
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Before going out the door he asked, "Is Miss Bürstner home?" "No," said
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Mrs. Grubach, smiling as she gave this simple piece of information,
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saying something sensible at last. "She's at the theatre. Did you want
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to see her? Should I give her a message?" "I, er, I just wanted to have
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a few words with her." "I'm afraid I don't know when she's coming in;
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she usually gets back late when she's been to the theatre." "It really
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doesn't matter," said K. his head hanging as he turned to the door to
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leave, "I just wanted to give her my apology for taking over her room
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today." "There's no need for that, Mr. K., you're too conscientious, the
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young lady doesn't know anything about it, she hasn't been home since
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early this morning and everything's been tidied up again, you can see
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for yourself." And she opened the door to Miss Bürstner's room. "Thank
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you, I'll take your word for it," said K., but went nonetheless over to
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the open door. The moon shone quietly into the unlit room. As far as
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could be seen, everything was indeed in its place, not even the blouse
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was hanging on the window handle. The pillows on the bed looked
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remarkably plump as they lay half in the moonlight. "Miss Bürstner often
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comes home late," said K., looking at Mrs. Grubach as if that were her
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responsibility. "That's how young people are!" said Mrs. Grubach to
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excuse herself. "Of course, of course," said K., "but it can be taken
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too far." "Yes, it can be," said Mrs. Grubach, "you're so right, Mr. K.
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Perhaps it is in this case. I certainly wouldn't want to say anything
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nasty about Miss Bürstner, she is a good, sweet girl, friendly, tidy,
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punctual, works hard, I appreciate all that very much, but one thing is
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true, she ought to have more pride, be a bit less forthcoming. Twice
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this month already, in the street over the way, I've seen her with a
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different gentleman. I really don't like saying this, you're the only
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one I've said this to, Mr. K., I swear to God, but I'm going to have no
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choice but to have a few words with Miss Bürstner about it myself. And
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it's not the only thing about her that I'm worried about." "Mrs.
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Grubach, you are on quite the wrong track," said K., so angry that he
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was hardly able to hide it, "and you have moreover misunderstood what I
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was saying about Miss Bürstner, that is not what I meant. In fact I warn
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you quite directly not to say anything to her, you are quite mistaken, I
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know Miss Bürstner very well and there is no truth at all in what you
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say. And what's more, perhaps I'm going to far, I don't want to get in
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your way, say to her whatever you see fit. Good night." "Mr. K.," said
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Mrs. Grubach as if asking him for something and hurrying to his door
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which he had already opened, "I don't want to speak to Miss Bürstner at
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all, not yet, of course I'll continue to keep an eye on her but you're
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the only one I've told what I know. And it is, after all something that
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everyone who lets rooms has to do if she's to keep the house decent,
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that's all I'm trying to do." "Decent!" called out K. through the crack
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in the door, "if you want to keep the house decent you'll first have to
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give me notice." Then he slammed the door shut, there was a gentle
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knocking to which he paid no more attention.
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He did not feel at all like going to bed, so he decided to stay up, and
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this would also give him the chance to find out when Miss Bürstner would
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arrive home. Perhaps it would also still be possible, even if a little
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inappropriate, to have a few words with her. As he lay there by the
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window, pressing his hands to his tired eyes, he even thought for a
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moment that he might punish Mrs. Grubach by persuading Miss Bürstner to
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give in her notice at the same time as he would. But he immediately
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realised that that would be shockingly excessive, and there would even
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be the suspicion that he was moving house because of the incidents of
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that morning. Nothing would have been more nonsensical and, above all,
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more pointless and contemptible.
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When he had become tired of looking out onto the empty street he
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slightly opened the door to the living room so that he could see anyone
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who entered the flat from where he was and lay down on the couch. He lay
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there, quietly smoking a cigar, until about eleven o'clock. He wasn't
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able to hold out longer than that, and went a little way into the
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hallway as if in that way he could make Miss Bürstner arrive sooner. He
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had no particular desire for her, he could not even remember what she
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looked like, but now he wanted to speak to her and it irritated him that
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her late arrival home meant this day would be full of unease and
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disorder right to its very end. It was also her fault that he had not
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had any dinner that evening and that he had been unable to visit Elsa
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as he had intended. He could still make up for both of those things,
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though, if he went to the wine bar where Elsa worked. He wanted to do so
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even later, after the discussion with Miss Bürstner.
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It was already gone half past eleven when someone could be heard in the
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stairway. K., who had been lost in his thoughts in the hallway, walking
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up and down loudly as if it were his own room, fled behind his door.
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Miss Bürstner had arrived. Shivering, she pulled a silk shawl over her
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slender shoulders as she locked the door. The next moment she would
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certainly go into her room, where K. ought not to intrude in the middle
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of the night; that meant he would have to speak to her now, but,
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unfortunately, he had not put the electric light on in his room so that
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when he stepped out of the dark it would give the impression of being an
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attack and would certainly, at the very least, have been quite alarming.
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There was no time to lose, and in his helplessness he whispered through
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the crack of the door, "Miss Bürstner." It sounded like he was pleading
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with her, not calling to her. "Is there someone there?" asked Miss
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Bürstner, looking round with her eyes wide open. "It's me," said K. and
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came out. "Oh, Mr. K.!" said Miss Bürstner with a smile. "Good Evening,"
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and offered him her hand. "I wanted to have a word with you, if you
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would allow me?" "Now?" asked Miss Bürstner, "does it have to be now? It
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is a little odd, isn't it?" "I've been waiting for you since nine
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o'clock." "Well, I was at the theatre, I didn't know anything about you
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waiting for me." "The reason I need to speak to you only came up
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today." "I see, well I don't see why not, I suppose, apart from being
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so tired I could drop. Come into my room for a few minutes then. We
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certainly can't talk out here, we'd wake everyone up and I think that
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would be more unpleasant for us than for them. Wait here till I've put
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the light on in my room, and then turn the light down out here." K. did
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as he was told, and then even waited until Miss Bürstner came out of her
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room and quietly invited him, once more, to come in. "Sit down," she
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said, indicating the ottoman, while she herself remained standing by
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the bedpost despite the tiredness she had spoken of; she did not even
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take off her hat, which was small but decorated with an abundance of
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flowers. "What is it you wanted, then? I'm really quite curious." She
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gently crossed her legs. "I expect you'll say," K. began, "that the
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matter really isn't all that urgent and we don't need to talk about it
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right now, but...." "I never listen to introductions," said Miss
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Bürstner. "That makes my job so much easier," said K. "This morning, to
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some extent through my fault, your room was made a little untidy, this
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happened because of people I did not know and against my will but, as I
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said, because of my fault; I wanted to apologise for it." "My room?"
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asked Miss Bürstner, and instead of looking round the room scrutinised
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K. "It is true," said K., and now, for the first time, they looked each
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other in the eyes, "there's no point in saying exactly how this came
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about." "But that's the interesting thing about it," said Miss Bürstner.
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"No," said K. "Well then," said Miss Bürstner, "I don't want to force my
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way into any secrets, if you insist that it's of no interest I won't
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insist. I'm quite happy to forgive you for it, as you ask, especially as
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I can't see anything at all that's been left untidy." With her hand laid
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flat on her lower hip, she made a tour around the room. At the mat where
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the photographs were she stopped. "Look at this!" she cried. "My
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photographs really have been put in the wrong places. Oh, that's
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horrible. Someone really has been in my room without permission." K.
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nodded, and quietly cursed Kaminer who worked at his bank and who was
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always active doing things that had neither use nor purpose. "It is
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odd," said Miss Bürstner, "that I'm forced to forbid you to do something
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that you ought to have forbidden yourself to do, namely to come into my
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room when I'm not here." "But I did explain to you," said K., and went
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over to join her by the photographs, "that it wasn't me who interfered
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with your photographs; but as you don't believe me I'll have to admit
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that the investigating committee brought along three bank employees with
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them, one of them must have touched your photographs and as soon as I
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get the chance I'll ask to have him dismissed from the bank. Yes, there
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was an investigating committee here," added K., as the young lady was
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looking at him enquiringly. "Because of you?" she asked. "Yes," answered
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K. "No!" the lady cried with a laugh. "Yes, they were," said K., "you
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believe that I'm innocent then, do you?" "Well now, innocent ..." said
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the lady, "I don't want to start making any pronouncements that might
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have serious consequences, I don't really know you after all, it means
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they're dealing with a serious criminal if they send an investigating
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committee straight out to get him. But you're not in custody now--at
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least I take it you've not escaped from prison considering that you seem
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quite calm--so you can't have committed any crime of that sort." "Yes,"
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said K., "but it might be that the investigating committee could see
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that I'm innocent, or not so guilty as had been supposed." "Yes, that's
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certainly a possibility," said Miss Bürstner, who seemed very
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interested. "Listen," said K., "you don't have much experience in legal
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matters." "No, that's true, I don't," said Miss Bürstner, "and I've
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often regretted it, as I'd like to know everything and I'm very
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interested in legal matters. There's something peculiarly attractive
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about the law, isn't there. But I'll certainly be perfecting my
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knowledge in this area, as next month I start work in a legal office."
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"That's very good," said K., "that means you'll be able to give me some
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help with my trial." "That could well be," said Miss Bürstner, "why not?
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I like to make use of what I know." "I mean it quite seriously," said
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K., "or at least, half seriously, as you do. This affair is too petty to
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call in a lawyer, but I could make good use of someone who could give me
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advice." "Yes, but if I'm to give you advice I'll have to know what it's
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all about," said Miss Bürstner. "That's exactly the problem," said K.,
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"I don't know that myself." "So you have been making fun of me, then,"
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said Miss Bürstner exceedingly disappointed, "you really ought not to
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try something like that on at this time of night." And she stepped away
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from the photographs where they had stood so long together. "Miss
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Bürstner, no," said K., "I'm not making fun of you. Please believe me!
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I've already told you everything I know. More than I know, in fact, as
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it actually wasn't even an investigating committee, that's just what I
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called them because I don't know what else to call them. There was no
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cross questioning at all, I was merely arrested, but by a committee."
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Miss Bürstner sat on the ottoman and laughed again. "What was it like
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then?" she asked. "It was terrible," said K., although his mind was no
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longer on the subject, he had become totally absorbed by Miss Bürstner's
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gaze who was supporting her chin on one hand--the elbow rested on the
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cushion of the ottoman--and slowly stroking her hip with the other.
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"That's too vague," said Miss Bürstner. "What's too vague?" asked K.
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Then he remembered himself and asked, "Would you like me to show you
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what it was like?" He wanted to move in some way but did not want to
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leave. "I'm already tired," said Miss Bürstner. "You arrived back so
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late," said K. "Now you've started telling me off. Well I suppose I
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deserve it as I shouldn't have let you in here in the first place, and
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it turns out there wasn't even any point." "Oh, there was a point,
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you'll see now how important a point it was," said K. "May I move this
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table away from your bedside and put it here?" "What do you think you're
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doing?" said Miss Bürstner. "Of course you can't!" "In that case I
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can't show you," said K., quite upset, as if Miss Bürstner had committed
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some incomprehensible offence against him. "Alright then, if you need it
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to show what you mean, just take the bedside table then," said Miss
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Bürstner, and after a short pause added in a weak voice, "I'm so tired
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I'm allowing more than I ought to." K. put the little table in the
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middle of the room and sat down behind it. "You have to get a proper
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idea of where the people were situated, it is very interesting. I'm the
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supervisor, sitting over there on the chest are two policemen, standing
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next to the photographs there are three young people. Hanging on the
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handle of the window is a white blouse--I just mention that by the way.
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And now it begins. Ah yes, I'm forgetting myself, the most important
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person of all, so I'm standing here in front of the table. The
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supervisor is sitting extremely comfortably with his legs crossed and
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his arm hanging over the backrest here like some layabout. And now it
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really does begin. The supervisor calls out as if he had to wake me up,
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in fact he shouts at me, I'm afraid, if I'm to make it clear to you,
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I'll have to shout as well, and it's nothing more than my name that he
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shouts out." Miss Bürstner, laughing as she listened to him, laid her
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forefinger on her mouth so that K. would not shout, but it was too late.
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K. was too engrossed in his role and slowly called out, "Josef K.!" It
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was not as loud as he had threatened, but nonetheless, once he had
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suddenly called it out, the cry seemed gradually to spread itself all
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round the room.
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There was a series of loud, curt and regular knocks at the door of the
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adjoining room. Miss Bürstner went pale and laid her hand on her heart.
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K. was especially startled, as for a moment he had been quite unable to
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think of anything other than the events of that morning and the girl for
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whom he was performing them. He had hardly pulled himself together when
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he jumped over to Miss Bürstner and took her hand. "Don't be afraid," he
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whispered, "I'll put everything right. But who can it be? It's only the
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living room next door, nobody sleeps in there." "Yes they do," whispered
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Miss Bürstner into K.'s ear, "a nephew of Mrs. Grubach's, a captain in
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the army, has been sleeping there since yesterday. There's no other room
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free. I'd forgotten about it too. Why did you have to shout like that?
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You've made me quite upset." "There is no reason for it," said K., and,
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now as she sank back onto the cushion, kissed her forehead. "Go away, go
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away," she said, hurriedly sitting back up, "get out of here, go, what
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is it you want, he's listening at the door, he can hear everything.
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You're causing me so much trouble!" "I won't go," said K., "until you've
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calmed down a bit. Come over into the other corner of the room, he
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won't be able to hear us there." She let him lead her there. "Don't
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forget," he said, "although this might be unpleasant for you you're not
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in any real danger. You know how much esteem Mrs. Grubach has for me,
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she's the one who will make all the decisions in this, especially as the
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captain is her nephew, but she believes everything I say without
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question. What's more, she has borrowed a large sum of money from me and
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that makes her dependent on me. I will confirm whatever you say to
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explain our being here together, however inappropriate it might be, and
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I guarantee to make sure that Mrs. Grubach will not only say she
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believes the explanation in public but will believe it truly and
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sincerely. You will have no need to consider me in any way. If you wish
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to let it be known that I have attacked you then Mrs. Grubach will be
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informed of such and she will believe it without even losing her trust
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in me, that's how much respect she has for me." Miss Bürstner looked at
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the floor in front of her, quiet and a little sunk in on herself. "Why
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would Mrs. Grubach not believe that I've attacked you?" added K. He
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looked at her hair in front of him, parted, bunched down, reddish and
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firmly held in place. He thought she would look up at him, but without
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changing her manner she said, "Forgive me, but it was the suddenness of
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the knocking that startled me so much, not so much what the consequences
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of the captain being here might be. It was all so quiet after you'd
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shouted, and then there was the knocking, that's what made me so
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shocked, and I was sitting right by the door, the knocking was right
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next to me. Thank you for your suggestions, but I won't accept them. I
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can bear the responsibility for anything that happens in my room myself,
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and I can do so with anyone. I'm surprised you don't realise just how
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insulting your suggestions are and what they imply about me, although I
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certainly acknowledge your good intentions. But now, please go, leave me
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alone, I need you to go now even more than I did earlier. The couple of
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minutes you asked for have grown into half an hour, more than half an
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hour now." K. took hold of her hand, and then of her wrist, "You're not
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cross with me, though?" he said. She pulled her hand away and answered,
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"No, no, I'm never cross with anyone." He grasped her wrist once more,
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she tolerated it now and, in that way, led him to the door. He had
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fully intended to leave. But when he reached the door he came to a halt
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as if he hadn't expected to find a door there, Miss Bürstner made use of
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that moment to get herself free, open the door, slip out into the
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hallway and gently say to K. from there, "Now, come along, please.
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Look," she pointed to the captain's door, from under which there was a
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light shining, "he's put a light on and he's laughing at us." "Alright,
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I'm coming," said K., moved forward, took hold of her, kissed her on
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the mouth and then over her whole face like a thirsty animal lapping
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with its tongue when it eventually finds water. He finally kissed her on
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her neck and her throat and left his lips pressed there for a long time.
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He did not look up until there was a noise from the captain's room.
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"I'll go now," he said, he wanted to address Miss Bürstner by her
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Christian name, but did not know it. She gave him a tired nod, offered
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him her hand to kiss as she turned away as if she did not know what she
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was doing, and went back into her room with her head bowed. A short
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while later, K. was lying in his bed. He very soon went to sleep, but
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before he did he thought a little while about his behaviour, he was
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satisfied with it but felt some surprise that he was not more satisfied;
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he was seriously worried about Miss Bürstner because of the captain.
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Chapter Two
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First Cross-examination
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K. was informed by telephone that there would be a small hearing
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concerning his case the following Sunday. He was made aware that these
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cross examinations would follow one another regularly, perhaps not every
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week but quite frequently. On the one hand it was in everyone's interest
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to bring proceedings quickly to their conclusion, but on the other hand
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every aspect of the examinations had to be carried out thoroughly
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without lasting too long because of the associated stress. For these
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reasons, it had been decided to hold a series of brief examinations
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following on one after another. Sunday had been chosen as the day for
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the hearings so that K. would not be disturbed in his professional work.
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It was assumed that he would be in agreement with this, but if he wished
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for another date then, as far as possible, he would be accommodated.
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Cross-examinations could even be held in the night, for instance, but K.
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would probably not be fresh enough at that time. Anyway, as long as K.
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made no objection, the hearing would be left on Sundays. It was a matter
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of course that he would have to appear without fail, there was probably
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no need to point this out to him. He would be given the number of the
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building where he was to present himself, which was in a street in a
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suburb well away from the city centre which K. had never been to before.
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Once he had received this notice, K. hung up the receiver without giving
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an answer; he had decided immediately to go there that Sunday, it was
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certainly necessary, proceedings had begun and he had to face up to it,
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and this first examination would probably also be the last. He was still
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standing in thought by the telephone when he heard the voice of the
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deputy director behind him--he wanted to use the telephone but K. stood
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in his way. "Bad news?" asked the deputy director casually, not in order
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to find anything out but just to get K. away from the device. "No, no,"
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said K., he stepped to one side but did not go away entirely. The deputy
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director picked up the receiver and, as he waited for his connection,
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turned away from it and said to K., "One question, Mr. K.: Would you
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like to give me the pleasure of joining me on my sailing boat on Sunday
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morning? There's quite a few people coming, you're bound to know some
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of them. One of them is Hasterer, the state attorney. Would you like to
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come along? Do come along!" K. tried to pay attention to what the
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deputy director was saying. It was of no small importance for him, as
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this invitation from the deputy director, with whom he had never got on
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very well, meant that he was trying to improve his relations with him.
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It showed how important K. had become in the bank and how its second
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most important official seemed to value his friendship, or at least his
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impartiality. He was only speaking at the side of the telephone receiver
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while he waited for his connection, but in giving this invitation the
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deputy director was humbling himself. But K. would have to humiliate him
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a second time as a result, he said, "Thank you very much, but I'm afraid
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I will have no time on Sunday, I have a previous obligation." "Pity,"
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said the deputy director, and turned to the telephone conversation that
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had just been connected. It was not a short conversation, but K.
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remained standing confused by the instrument all the time it was going
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on. It was only when the deputy director hung up that he was shocked
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into awareness and said, in order to partially excuse his standing there
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for no reason, "I've just received a telephone call, there's somewhere I
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need to go, but they forgot to tell me what time." "Ask them then," said
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the deputy director. "It's not that important," said K., although in
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that way his earlier excuse, already weak enough, was made even weaker.
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As he went, the deputy director continued to speak about other things.
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K. forced himself to answer, but his thoughts were mainly about that
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Sunday, how it would be best to get there for nine o'clock in the
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morning as that was the time that courts always start work on weekdays.
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The weather was dull on Sunday. K. was very tired, as he had stayed out
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drinking until late in the night celebrating with some of the regulars,
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and he had almost overslept. He dressed hurriedly, without the time to
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think and assemble the various plans he had worked out during the week.
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With no breakfast, he rushed to the suburb he had been told about. Oddly
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enough, although he had little time to look around him, he came across
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the three bank officials involved in his case, Rabensteiner, Kullich and
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Kaminer. The first two were travelling in a tram that went across K.'s
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route, but Kaminer sat on the terrace of a café and leant curiously
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over the wall as K. came over. All of them seemed to be looking at him,
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surprised at seeing their superior running; it was a kind of pride that
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made K. want to go on foot, this was his affair and the idea of any help
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from strangers, however slight, was repulsive to him, he also wanted to
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avoid asking for anyone's help because that would initiate them into the
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affair even if only slightly. And after all, he had no wish at all to
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humiliate himself before the committee by being too punctual. Anyway,
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now he was running so that he would get there by nine o'clock if at all
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possible, even though he had no appointment for this time.
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He had thought that he would recognise the building from a distance by
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some kind of sign, without knowing exactly what the sign would look
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like, or from some particular kind of activity outside the entrance. K.
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had been told that the building was in Juliusstrasse, but when he stood
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at the street's entrance it consisted on each side of almost nothing but
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monotonous, grey constructions, tall blocks of flats occupied by poor
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people. Now, on a Sunday morning, most of the windows were occupied, men
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in their shirtsleeves leant out smoking, or carefully and gently held
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small children on the sills. Other windows were piled up with bedding,
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above which the dishevelled head of a woman would briefly appear. People
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called out to each other across the street, one of the calls provoked a
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loud laugh about K. himself. It was a long street, and spaced evenly
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along it were small shops below street level, selling various kinds of
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foodstuffs, which you reached by going down a few steps. Women went in
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and out of them or stood chatting on the steps. A fruitmonger, taking
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his goods up to the windows, was just as inattentive as K. and nearly
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knocked him down with his cart. Just then, a gramophone, which in better
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parts of town would have been seen as worn out, began to play some
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murderous tune.
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K. went further into the street, slowly, as if he had plenty of time
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now, or as if the examining magistrate were looking at him from one of
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the windows and therefore knew that K. had found his way there. It was
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shortly after nine. The building was quite far down the street, it
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covered so much area it was almost extraordinary, and the gateway in
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particular was tall and long. It was clearly intended for delivery
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wagons belonging to the various warehouses all round the yard which were
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now locked up and carried the names of companies some of which K. knew
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from his work at the bank. In contrast with his usual habits, he
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remained standing a while at the entrance to the yard taking in all
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these external details. Near him, there was a bare-footed man sitting on
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a crate and reading a newspaper. There were two lads swinging on a hand
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cart. In front of a pump stood a weak, young girl in a bedjacket who, as
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the water flowed into her can, looked at K. There was a piece of rope
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stretched between two windows in a corner of the yard, with some washing
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hanging on it to dry. A man stood below it calling out instructions to
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direct the work being done.
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K. went over to the stairway to get to the room where the hearing was to
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take place, but then stood still again as besides these steps he could
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see three other stairway entrances, and there also seemed to be a small
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passageway at the end of the yard leading into a second yard. It
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irritated him that he had not been given more precise directions to the
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room, it meant they were either being especially neglectful with him or
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especially indifferent, and he decided to make that clear to them very
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loudly and very unambiguously. In the end he decided to climb up the
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stairs, his thoughts playing on something that he remembered the
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policeman, Willem, saying to him; that the court is attracted by the
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guilt, from which it followed that the courtroom must be on the stairway
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that K. selected by chance.
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As he went up he disturbed a large group of children playing on the
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stairs who looked at him as he stepped through their rows. "Next time I
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come here," he said to himself, "I must either bring sweets with me to
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make them like me or a stick to hit them with." Just before he reached
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the first landing he even had to wait a little while until a ball had
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finished its movement, two small lads with sly faces like grown-up
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scoundrels held him by his trouser-legs until it had; if he were to
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shake them off he would have to hurt them, and he was afraid of what
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noise they would make by shouting.
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On the first floor, his search began for real. He still felt unable to
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ask for the investigating committee, and so he invented a joiner called
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Lanz--that name occurred to him because the captain, Mrs. Grubach's
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nephew, was called Lanz--so that he could ask at every flat whether Lanz
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the joiner lived there and thus obtain a chance to look into the rooms.
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It turned out, though, that that was mostly possible without further
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ado, as almost all the doors were left open and the children ran in and
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out. Most of them were small, one-windowed rooms where they also did the
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cooking. Many women held babies in one arm and worked at the stove with
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the other. Half grown girls, who seemed to be dressed in just their
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pinafores worked hardest running to and fro. In every room, the beds
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were still in use by people who were ill, or still asleep, or people
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stretched out on them in their clothes. K. knocked at the flats where
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the doors were closed and asked whether Lanz the joiner lived there. It
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was usually a woman who opened the door, heard the enquiry and turned to
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somebody in the room who would raise himself from the bed. "The
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gentleman's asking if a joiner called Lanz, lives here." "A joiner,
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called Lanz?" he would ask from the bed." "That's right," K. would say,
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although it was clear that the investigating committee was not to be
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found there, and so his task was at an end. There were many who thought
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it must be very important for K. to find Lanz the joiner and thought
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long about it, naming a joiner who was not called Lanz or giving a name
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that had some vague similarity with Lanz, or they asked neighbours or
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accompanied K. to a door a long way away where they thought someone of
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that sort might live in the back part of the building or where someone
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would be who could advise K. better than they could themselves. K.
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eventually had to give up asking if he did not want to be led all round
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from floor to floor in this way. He regretted his initial plan, which
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had at first seemed so practical to him. As he reached the fifth floor,
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he decided to give up the search, took his leave of a friendly, young
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worker who wanted to lead him on still further and went down the stairs.
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But then the thought of how much time he was wasting made him cross, he
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went back again and knocked at the first door on the fifth floor. The
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first thing he saw in the small room was a large clock on the wall which
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already showed ten o'clock. "Is there a joiner called Lanz who lives
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here?" he asked. "Pardon?" said a young woman with black, shining eyes
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who was, at that moment, washing children's underclothes in a bucket.
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She pointed her wet hand towards the open door of the adjoining room.
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K. thought he had stepped into a meeting. A medium sized, two windowed
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room was filled with the most diverse crowd of people--nobody paid any
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attention to the person who had just entered. Close under its ceiling it
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was surrounded by a gallery which was also fully occupied and where the
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people could only stand bent down with their heads and their backs
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touching the ceiling. K., who found the air too stuffy, stepped out
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again and said to the young woman, who had probably misunderstood what
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he had said, "I asked for a joiner, someone by the name of Lanz." "Yes,"
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said the woman, "please go on in." K. would probably not have followed
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her if the woman had not gone up to him, taken hold of the door handle
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and said, "I'll have to close the door after you, no-one else will be
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allowed in." "Very sensible," said K., "but it's too full already." But
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then he went back in anyway. He passed through between two men who were
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talking beside the door--one of them held both hands far out in front of
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himself making the movements of counting out money, the other looked him
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closely in the eyes--and someone took him by the hand. It was a small,
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red-faced youth. "Come in, come in," he said. K. let himself be led by
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him, and it turned out that there was--surprisingly in a densely packed
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crowd of people moving to and fro--a narrow passage which may have been
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the division between two factions; this idea was reinforced by the fact
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that in the first few rows to the left and the right of him there was
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hardly any face looking in his direction, he saw nothing but the backs
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of people directing their speech and their movements only towards
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members of their own side. Most of them were dressed in black, in old,
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long, formal frock coats that hung down loosely around them. These
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clothes were the only thing that puzzled K., as he would otherwise have
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taken the whole assembly for a local political meeting.
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At the other end of the hall where K. had been led there was a little
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table set at an angle on a very low podium which was as overcrowded as
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everywhere else, and behind the table, near the edge of the podium, sat
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a small, fat, wheezing man who was talking with someone behind him. This
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second man was standing with his legs crossed and his elbows on the
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backrest of the chair, provoking much laughter. From time to time he
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threw his arm in the air as if doing a caricature of someone. The youth
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who was leading K. had some difficulty in reporting to the man. He had
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already tried twice to tell him something, standing on tiptoe, but
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without getting the man's attention as he sat there above him. It was
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only when one of the people up on the podium drew his attention to the
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youth that the man turned to him and leant down to hear what it was he
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quietly said. Then he pulled out his watch and quickly looked over at K.
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"You should have been here one hour and five minutes ago," he said. K.
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was going to give him a reply but had no time to do so, as hardly had
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the man spoken than a general muttering arose all over the right hand
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side of the hall. "You should have been here one hour and five minutes
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ago," the man now repeated, raising his voice this time, and quickly
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looked round the hall beneath him. The muttering also became immediately
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louder and, as the man said nothing more, died away only gradually. Now
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the hall was much quieter than when K. had entered. Only the people up
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in the gallery had not stopped passing remarks. As far as could be
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distinguished, up in the half-darkness, dust and haze, they seemed to be
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less well dressed than those below. Many of them had brought pillows
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that they had put between their heads and the ceiling so that they would
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not hurt themselves pressed against it.
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K. had decided he would do more watching than talking, so he did not
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defend himself for supposedly having come late, and simply said, "Well
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maybe I have arrived late, I'm here now." There followed loud applause,
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once more from the right hand side of the hall. Easy people to get on
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your side, thought K., and was bothered only by the quiet from the left
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hand side which was directly behind him and from which there was
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applause from only a few individuals. He wondered what he could say to
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get all of them to support him together or, if that were not possible,
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to at least get the support of the others for a while.
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"Yes," said the man, "but I'm now no longer under any obligation to hear
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your case"--there was once more a muttering, but this time it was
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misleading as the man waved the people's objections aside with his hand
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and continued--"I will, however, as an exception, continue with it
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today. But you should never arrive late like this again. And now, step
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forward!" Someone jumped down from the podium so that there would be a
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place free for K., and K. stepped up onto it. He stood pressed closely
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against the table, the press of the crowd behind him was so great that
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he had to press back against it if he did not want to push the judge's
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desk down off the podium and perhaps the judge along with it.
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The judge, however, paid no attention to that but sat very comfortably
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on his chair and, after saying a few words to close his discussion with
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the man behind him, reached for a little note book, the only item on his
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desk. It was like an old school exercise book and had become quite
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misshapen from much thumbing. "Now then," said the judge, thumbing
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through the book. He turned to K. with the tone of someone who knows his
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facts and said, "you are a house painter?" "No," said K., "I am the
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chief clerk in a large bank." This reply was followed by laughter among
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the right hand faction down in the hall, it was so hearty that K.
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couldn't stop himself joining in with it. The people supported
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themselves with their hands on their knees and shook as if suffering a
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serious attack of coughing. Even some of those in the gallery were
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laughing. The judge had become quite cross but seemed to have no power
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over those below him in the hall, he tried to reduce what harm had been
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done in the gallery and jumped up threatening them, his eyebrows, until
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then hardly remarkable, pushed themselves up and became big, black and
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bushy over his eyes.
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The left hand side of the hall was still quiet, though, the people stood
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there in rows with their faces looking towards the podium listening to
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what was being said there, they observed the noise from the other side
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of the hall with the same quietness and even allowed some individuals
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from their own ranks, here and there, to go forward into the other
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faction. The people in the left faction were not only fewer in number
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than the right but probably were no more important than them, although
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their behaviour was calmer and that made it seem like they were. When K.
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now began to speak he was convinced he was doing it in the same way as
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them.
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"Your question, My Lord, as to whether I am a house painter--in fact
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even more than that, you did not ask at all but merely imposed it on
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me--is symptomatic of the whole way these proceedings against me are
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being carried out. Perhaps you will object that there are no proceedings
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against me. You will be quite right, as there are proceedings only if I
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acknowledge that there are. But, for the moment, I do acknowledge it,
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out of pity for yourselves to a large extent. It's impossible not to
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observe all this business without feeling pity. I don't say things are
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being done without due care but I would like to make it clear that it is
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I who make the acknowledgement."
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K. stopped speaking and looked down into the hall. He had spoken
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sharply, more sharply than he had intended, but he had been quite right.
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It should have been rewarded with some applause here and there but
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everything was quiet, they were all clearly waiting for what would
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follow, perhaps the quietness was laying the ground for an outbreak of
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activity that would bring this whole affair to an end. It was somewhat
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disturbing that just then the door at the end of the hall opened, the
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young washerwoman, who seemed to have finished her work, came in and,
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despite all her caution, attracted the attention of some of the people
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there. It was only the judge who gave K. any direct pleasure, as he
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seemed to have been immediately struck by K.'s words. Until then, he had
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listened to him standing, as K.'s speech had taken him by surprise while
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he was directing his attention to the gallery. Now, in the pause, he sat
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down very slowly, as if he did not want anyone to notice. He took out
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the notebook again, probably so that he could give the impression of
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being calmer.
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"That won't help you, sir," continued K., "even your little book will
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only confirm what I say." K. was satisfied to hear nothing but his own
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quiet words in this room full of strangers, and he even dared casually
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to pick up the examining judge's notebook and, touching it only with the
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tips of his fingers as if it were something revolting, lifted it in the
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air, holding it just by one of the middle pages so that the others on
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each side of it, closely written, blotted and yellowing, flapped down.
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"Those are the official notes of the examining judge," he said, and let
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the notebook fall down onto the desk. "You can read in your book as much
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as you like, sir, I really don't have anything in this charge book to be
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afraid of, even though I don't have access to it as I wouldn't want it
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in my hand, I can only touch it with two fingers." The judge grabbed the
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notebook from where it had fallen on the desk--which could only have
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been a sign of his deep humiliation, or at least that is how it must
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have been perceived--tried to tidy it up a little, and held it once more
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in front of himself in order to read from it.
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The people in the front row looked up at him, showing such tension on
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their faces that he looked back down at them for some time. Every one of
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them was an old man, some of them with white beards. Could they perhaps
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be the crucial group who could turn the whole assembly one way or the
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other. They had sunk into a state of motionlessness while K. gave his
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oration, and it had not been possible to raise them from this passivity
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even when the judge was being humiliated. "What has happened to me,"
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continued K., with less of the vigour he had had earlier, he continually
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scanned the faces in the first row, and this gave his address a somewhat
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nervous and distracted character, "what has happened to me is not just
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an isolated case. If it were it would not be of much importance as it's
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not of much importance to me, but it is a symptom of proceedings which
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are carried out against many. It's on behalf of them that I stand here
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now, not for myself alone."
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Without having intended it, he had raised his voice. Somewhere in the
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hall, someone raised his hands and applauded him shouting, "Bravo! Why
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not then? Bravo! Again I say, Bravo!" Some of the men in the first row
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groped around in their beards, none of them looked round to see who was
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shouting. Not even K. thought him of any importance but it did raise his
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spirits; he no longer thought it at all necessary that all of those in
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the hall should applaud him, it was enough if the majority of them began
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to think about the matter and if only one of them, now and then, was
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persuaded.
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"I'm not trying to be a successful orator," said K. after this thought,
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"that's probably more than I'm capable of anyway. I'm sure the examining
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judge can speak far better than I can, it is part of his job after all.
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All that I want is a public discussion of a public wrong. Listen: ten
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days ago I was placed under arrest, the arrest itself is something I
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laugh about but that's beside the point. They came for me in the morning
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when I was still in bed. Maybe the order had been given to arrest some
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house painter--that seems possible after what the judge has
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said--someone who is as innocent as I am, but it was me they chose.
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There were two police thugs occupying the next room. They could not have
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taken better precautions if I had been a dangerous robber. And these
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policemen were unprincipled riff-raff, they talked at me till I was sick
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of it, they wanted bribes, they wanted to trick me into giving them my
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clothes, they wanted money, supposedly so that they could bring me my
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breakfast after they had blatantly eaten my own breakfast in front of my
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eyes. And even that was not enough. I was led in front of the supervisor
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in another room. This was the room of a lady who I have a lot of respect
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for, and I was forced to look on while the supervisor and the policemen
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made quite a mess of this room because of me, although not through any
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fault of mine. It was not easy to stay calm, but I managed to do so and
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was completely calm when I asked the supervisor why it was that I was
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under arrest. If he were here he would have to confirm what I say. I can
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see him now, sitting on the chair belonging to that lady I mentioned--a
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picture of dull-witted arrogance. What do you think he answered? What
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he told me, gentlemen, was basically nothing at all; perhaps he really
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did know nothing, he had placed me under arrest and was satisfied. In
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fact he had done more than that and brought three junior employees from
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the bank where I work into the lady's room; they had made themselves
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busy interfering with some photographs that belonged to the lady and
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causing a mess. There was, of course, another reason for bringing these
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employees; they, just like my landlady and her maid, were expected to
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spread the news of my arrest and damage my public reputation and in
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particular to remove me from my position at the bank. Well they didn't
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succeed in any of that, not in the slightest, even my landlady, who is
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quite a simple person--and I will give you here her name in full
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respect, her name is Mrs. Grubach--even Mrs. Grubach was understanding
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enough to see that an arrest like this has no more significance than an
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attack carried out on the street by some youths who are not kept under
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proper control. I repeat, this whole affair has caused me nothing but
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unpleasantness and temporary irritation, but could it not also have had
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some far worse consequences?"
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K. broke off here and looked at the judge, who said nothing. As he did
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so he thought he saw the judge use a movement of his eyes to give a sign
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to someone in the crowd. K. smiled and said, "And now the judge, right
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next to me, is giving a secret sign to someone among you. There seems to
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be someone among you who is taking directions from above. I don't know
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whether the sign is meant to produce booing or applause, but I'll resist
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trying to guess what its meaning is too soon. It really doesn't matter
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to me, and I give his lordship the judge my full and public permission
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to stop giving secret signs to his paid subordinate down there and give
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his orders in words instead; let him just say 'Boo now!,' and then the
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next time 'Clap now!'"
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Whether it was embarrassment or impatience, the judge rocked backwards
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and forwards on his seat. The man behind him, whom he had been talking
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with earlier, leant forward again, either to give him a few general
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words of encouragement or some specific piece of advice. Below them in
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the hall the people talked to each other quietly but animatedly. The two
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factions had earlier seemed to hold views strongly opposed to each other
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but now they began to intermingle, a few individuals pointed up at K.,
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others pointed at the judge. The air in the room was fuggy and extremely
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oppressive, those who were standing furthest away could hardly even be
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seen through it. It must have been especially troublesome for those
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visitors who were in the gallery, as they were forced to quietly ask
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the participants in the assembly what exactly was happening, albeit
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with timid glances at the judge. The replies they received were just as
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quiet, and given behind the protection of a raised hand.
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"I have nearly finished what I have to say," said K., and as there was
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no bell available he struck the desk with his fist in a way that
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startled the judge and his advisor and made them look up from each
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other. "None of this concerns me, and I am therefore able to make a calm
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assessment of it, and, assuming that this so-called court is of any real
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importance, it will be very much to your advantage to listen to what I
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have to say. If you want to discuss what I say, please don't bother to
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write it down until later on, I don't have any time to waste and I'll
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soon be leaving."
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There was immediate silence, which showed how well K. was in control of
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the crowd. There were no shouts among them as there had been at the
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start, no-one even applauded, but if they weren't already persuaded they
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seemed very close to it.
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K. was pleased at the tension among all the people there as they
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listened to him, a rustling rose from the silence which was more
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invigorating than the most ecstatic applause could have been. "There is
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no doubt," he said quietly, "that there is some enormous organisation
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determining what is said by this court. In my case this includes my
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arrest and the examination taking place here today, an organisation that
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employs policemen who can be bribed, oafish supervisors and judges of
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whom nothing better can be said than that they are not as arrogant as
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some others. This organisation even maintains a high-level judiciary
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along with its train of countless servants, scribes, policemen and all
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the other assistance that it needs, perhaps even executioners and
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torturers--I'm not afraid of using those words. And what, gentlemen, is
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the purpose of this enormous organisation. Its purpose is to arrest
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innocent people and wage pointless prosecutions against them which, as
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in my case, lead to no result. How are we to avoid those in office
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becoming deeply corrupt when everything is devoid of meaning? That is
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impossible, not even the highest judge would be able to achieve that for
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himself. That is why policemen try to steal the clothes off the back of
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those they arrest, that is why supervisors break into the homes of
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people they do not know, that is why innocent people are humiliated in
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front of crowds rather than being given a proper trial. The policemen
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only talked about the warehouses where they put the property of those
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they arrest, I would like to see these warehouses where the hard won
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possessions of people under arrest is left to decay, if, that is, it's
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not stolen by the thieving hands of the warehouse workers."
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K. was interrupted by a screeching from the far end of the hall, he
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shaded his eyes to see that far, as the dull light of day made the smoke
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whitish and hard to see through. It was the washerwoman whom K. had
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recognised as a likely source of disturbance as soon as she had entered.
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It was hard to see now whether it was her fault or not. K. could only
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see that a man had pulled her into a corner by the door and was pressing
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himself against her. But it was not her who was screaming, but the man,
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he had opened his mouth wide and looked up at the ceiling. A small
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circle had formed around the two of them, the visitors near him in the
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gallery seemed delighted that the serious tone K. had introduced into
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the gathering had been disturbed in this way. K.'s first thought was to
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run over there, and he also thought that everyone would want to bring
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things back into order there or at least to make the pair leave the
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room, but the first row of people in front of him stayed were they were,
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no-one moved and no-one let K. through. On the contrary, they stood in
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his way, old men held out their arms in front of him and a hand from
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somewhere--he did not have the time to turn round--took hold of his
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collar. K., by this time, had forgotten about the pair, it seemed to him
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that his freedom was being limited as if his arrest was being taken
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seriously, and, without any thought for what he was doing, he jumped
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down from the podium. Now he stood face to face with the crowd. Had he
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judged the people properly? Had he put too much faith in the effect of
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his speech? Had they been putting up a pretence all the time he had
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been speaking, and now that he came to the end and to what must follow,
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were they tired of pretending? What faces they were, all around him!
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Dark, little eyes flickered here and there, cheeks drooped down like on
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drunken men, their long beards were thin and stiff, if they took hold of
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them it was more like they were making their hands into claws, not as if
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they were taking hold of their own beards. But underneath those
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beards--and this was the real discovery made by K.--there were badges of
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various sizes and colours shining on the collars of their coats. As far
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as he could see, every one of them was wearing one of these badges. All
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of them belonged to the same group, even though they seemed to be
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divided to the right and the left of him, and when he suddenly turned
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round he saw the same badge on the collar of the examining judge who
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calmly looked down at him with his hands in his lap. "So," called out
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K., throwing his arms in the air as if this sudden realisation needed
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more room, "all of you are working for this organisation, I see now that
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you are all the very bunch of cheats and liars I've just been speaking
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about, you've all pressed yourselves in here in order to listen in and
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snoop on me, you gave the impression of having formed into factions, one
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of you even applauded me to test me out, and you wanted to learn how to
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trap an innocent man! Well, I hope you haven't come here for nothing, I
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hope you've either had some fun from someone who expected you to defend
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his innocence or else--let go of me or I'll hit you," shouted K. to a
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quivery old man who had pressed himself especially close to him--"or
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else that you've actually learned something. And so I wish you good luck
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in your trade." He briskly took his hat from where it lay on the edge of
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the table and, surrounded by a silence caused perhaps by the
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completeness of their surprise, pushed his way to the exit. However, the
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examining judge seems to have moved even more quickly than K., as he was
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waiting for him at the doorway. "One moment," he said. K. stood where he
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was, but looked at the door with his hand already on its handle rather
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than at the judge. "I merely wanted to draw your attention," said the
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judge, "to something you seem not yet to be aware of: today, you have
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robbed yourself of the advantages that a hearing of this sort always
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gives to someone who is under arrest." K. laughed towards the door. "You
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bunch of louts," he called, "you can keep all your hearings as a present
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from me," then opened the door and hurried down the steps. Behind him,
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the noise of the assembly rose as it became lively once more and
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probably began to discuss these events as if making a scientific study
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of them.
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Chapter Three
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In the empty Courtroom--The Student--The Offices
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Every day over the following week, K. expected another summons to
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arrive, he could not believe that his rejection of any more hearings had
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been taken literally, and when the expected summons really had not come
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by Saturday evening he took it to mean that he was expected, without
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being told, to appear at the same place at the same time. So on Sunday,
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he set out once more in the same direction, going without hesitation up
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the steps and through the corridors; some of the people remembered him
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and greeted him from their doorways, but he no longer needed to ask
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anyone the way and soon arrived at the right door. It was opened as soon
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as he knocked and, paying no attention to the woman he had seen last
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time who was standing at the doorway, he was about to go straight into
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the adjoining room when she said to him "There's no session today."
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"What do you mean; no session?" he asked, unable to believe it. But the
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woman persuaded him by opening the door to the next room. It was indeed
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empty, and looked even more dismal empty than it had the previous
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Sunday. On the podium stood the table exactly as it had been before with
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a few books laying on it. "Can I have a look at those books?" asked K.,
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not because he was especially curious but so that he would not have come
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for nothing. "No," said the woman as she re-closed the door, "that's not
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allowed. Those books belong to the examining judge." "I see," said K.,
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and nodded, "those books must be law books, and that's how this court
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does things, not only to try people who are innocent but even to try
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them without letting them know what's going on." "I expect you're
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right," said the woman, who had not understood exactly what he meant.
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"I'd better go away again, then," said K. "Should I give a message to
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the examining judge?" asked the woman. "Do you know him, then?" asked K.
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"Of course I know him," said the woman, "my husband is the court usher."
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It was only now that K. noticed that the room, which before had held
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nothing but a wash-tub, had been fitted out as a living room. The woman
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saw how surprised he was and said, "Yes, we're allowed to live here as
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we like, only we have to clear the room out when the court's in session.
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There's lots of disadvantages to my husband's job." "It's not so much
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the room that surprises me," said K., looking at her crossly, "it's your
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being married that shocks me." "Are you thinking about what happened
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last time the court was in session, when I disturbed what you were
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saying?" asked the woman. "Of course," said K., "it's in the past now
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and I've nearly forgotten about it, but at the time it made me furious.
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And now you tell me yourself that you are a married woman." "It wasn't
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any disadvantage for you to have your speech interrupted. The way they
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talked about you after you'd gone was really bad." "That could well be,"
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said K., turning away, "but it does not excuse you." "There's no-one I
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know who'd hold it against me," said the woman. "Him, who put his arms
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around me, he's been chasing after me for a long time. I might not be
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very attractive for most people, but I am for him. I've got no
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protection from him, even my husband has had to get used to it; if he
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wants to keep his job he's got to put up with it as that man's a student
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and he'll almost certainly be very powerful later on. He's always after
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me, he'd only just left when you arrived." "That fits in with everything
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else," said K., "I'm not surprised." "Do you want to make things a bit
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better here?" the woman asked slowly, watching him as if she were saying
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something that could be as dangerous for K. as for herself. "That's what
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I thought when I heard you speak, I really liked what you said. Mind
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you, I only heard part of it, I missed the beginning of it and at the
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end I was lying on the floor with the student--it's so horrible here,"
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she said after a pause, and took hold of K.'s hand. "Do you believe you
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really will be able to make things better?" K. smiled and twisted his
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hand round a little in her soft hands. "It's really not my job to make
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things better here, as you put it," he said, "and if you said that to
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the examining judge he would laugh at you or punish you for it. I really
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would not have become involved in this matter if I could have helped it,
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and I would have lost no sleep worrying about how this court needs to be
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made better. But because I'm told that I have been arrested--and I am
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under arrest--it forces me to take some action, and to do so for my own
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sake. However, if I can be of some service to you in the process I will,
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of course, be glad to do so. And I will be glad to do so not only for
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the sake of charity but also because you can be of some help to me."
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"How could I help you, then?" said the woman. "You could, for example,
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show me the books on the table there." "Yes, certainly," the woman
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cried, and pulled K. along behind her as she rushed to them. The books
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were old and well worn, the cover of one of them had nearly broken
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through in its middle, and it was held together with a few threads.
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"Everything is so dirty here," said K., shaking his head, and before he
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could pick the books up the woman wiped some of the dust off with her
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apron. K. took hold of the book that lay on top and threw it open, an
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indecent picture appeared. A man and a woman sat naked on a sofa, the
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base intent of whoever drew it was easy to see but he had been so
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grossly lacking in skill that all that anyone could really make out were
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the man and the woman who dominated the picture with their bodies,
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sitting in overly upright postures that created a false perspective and
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made it difficult for them to approach each other. K. didn't thumb
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through that book any more, but just threw open the next one at its
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title page, it was a novel with the title, What Grete Suffered from her
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Husband, Hans. "So this is the sort of law book they study here," said
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K., "this is the sort of person sitting in judgement over me." "I can
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help you," said the woman, "would you like me to?" "Could you really do
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that without placing yourself in danger? You did say earlier on that
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your husband is wholly dependent on his superiors." "I still want to
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help you," said the woman, "come over here, we've got to talk about it.
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Don't say any more about what danger I'm in, I only fear danger where I
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want to fear it. Come over here." She pointed to the podium and invited
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him to sit down on the step with her. "You've got lovely dark eyes," she
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said after they had sat down, looking up into K.'s face, "people say
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I've got nice eyes too, but yours are much nicer. It was the first thing
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I noticed when you first came here. That's even why I came in here, into
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the assembly room, afterwards, I'd never normally do that, I'm not
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really even allowed to." So that's what all this is about, thought K.,
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she's offering herself to me, she's as degenerate as everything else
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around here, she's had enough of the court officials, which is
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understandable I suppose, and so she approaches any stranger and makes
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compliments about his eyes. With that, K. stood up in silence as if he
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had spoken his thoughts out loud and thus explained his action to the
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woman. "I don't think you can be of any assistance to me," he said, "to
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be of any real assistance you would need to be in contact with high
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officials. But I'm sure you only know the lower employees, and there are
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crowds of them milling about here. I'm sure you're very familiar with
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them and could achieve a great deal through them, I've no doubt of that,
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but the most that could be done through them would have no bearing at
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all on the final outcome of the trial. You, on the other hand, would
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lose some of your friends as a result, and I have no wish of that. Carry
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on with these people in the same way as you have been, as it does seem
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to me to be something you cannot do without. I have no regrets in saying
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this as, in return for your compliment to me, I also find you rather
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attractive, especially when you look at me as sadly as you are now,
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although you really have no reason to do so. You belong to the people I
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have to combat, and you're very comfortable among them, you're even in
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love with the student, or if you don't love him you do at least prefer
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him to your husband. It's easy to see that from what you've been
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saying." "No!" she shouted, remained sitting where she was and grasped
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K.'s hand, which he failed to pull away fast enough. "You can't go away
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now, you can't go away when you've misjudged me like that! Are you
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really capable of going away now? Am I really so worthless that you
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won't even do me the favour of staying a little bit longer?" "You
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misunderstand me," said K., sitting back down, "if it's really important
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to you for me to stay here then I'll be glad to do so, I have plenty of
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time, I came here thinking there would be a trial taking place. All I
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meant with what I said just now was to ask you not to do anything on my
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behalf in the proceedings against me. But even that is nothing for you
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to worry about when you consider that there's nothing hanging on the
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outcome of this trial, and that, whatever the verdict, I will just laugh
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at it. And that's even presupposing it ever even reaches any conclusion,
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which I very much doubt. I think it's much more likely that the court
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officials will be too lazy, too forgetful, or even too fearful ever to
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continue with these proceedings and that they will soon be abandoned if
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they haven't been abandoned already. It's even possible that they will
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pretend to be carrying on with the trial in the hope of receiving a
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large bribe, although I can tell you now that that will be quite in vain
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as I pay bribes to no-one. Perhaps one favour you could do me would be
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to tell the examining judge, or anyone else who likes to spread
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important news, that I will never be induced to pay any sort of bribe
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through any stratagem of theirs--and I'm sure they have many stratagems
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at their disposal. There is no prospect of that, you can tell them that
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quite openly. And what's more, I expect they have already noticed
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themselves, or even if they haven't, this affair is really not so
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important to me as they think. Those gentlemen would only save some work
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for themselves, or at least some unpleasantness for me, which, however,
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I am glad to endure if I know that each piece of unpleasantness for me
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is a blow against them. And I will make quite sure it is a blow against
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them. Do you actually know the judge?" "Course I do," said the woman,
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"he was the first one I thought of when I offered to help you. I didn't
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know he's only a minor official, but if you say so it must be true. Mind
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you, I still think the report he gives to his superiors must have some
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influence. And he writes so many reports. You say these officials are
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lazy, but they're certainly not all lazy, especially this examining
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judge, he writes ever such a lot. Last Sunday, for instance, that
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session went on till the evening. Everyone had gone, but the examining
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judge, he stayed in the hall, I had to bring him a lamp in, all I had
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was a little kitchen lamp but he was very satisfied with it and started
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to write straight away. Meantime my husband arrived, he always has the
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day off on Sundays, we got the furniture back in and got our room sorted
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out and then a few of the neighbours came, we sat and talked for a bit
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by a candle, in short, we forgot all about the examining judge and went
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to bed. All of a sudden in the night, it must have been quite late in
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the night, I wakes up, next to the bed, there's the examining judge
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shading the lamp with his hand so that there's no light from it falls on
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my husband, he didn't need to be as careful as that, the way my husband
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sleeps the light wouldn't have woken him up anyway. I was quite shocked
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and nearly screamed, but the judge was very friendly, warned me I should
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be careful, he whispered to me he's been writing all this time, and now
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he's brought me the lamp back, and he'll never forget how I looked when
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he found me there asleep. What I mean, with all this, I just wanted to
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tell you how the examining judge really does write lots of reports,
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especially about you as questioning you was definitely one of the main
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things on the agenda that Sunday. If he writes reports as long as that
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they must be of some importance. And besides all that, you can see from
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what happened that the examining judge is after me, and it's right now,
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when he's first begun to notice me, that I can have a lot of influence
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on him. And I've got other proof I mean a lot to him, too. Yesterday, he
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sent that student to me, the one he really trusts and who he works with,
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he sent him with a present for me, silk stockings. He said it was
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because I clear up in the courtroom but that's only a pretence, that
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job's no more than what I'm supposed to do, it's what my husband gets
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paid for. Nice stockings, they are, look,"--she stretched out her leg,
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drew her skirt up to her knee and looked, herself, at the
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stocking--"they are nice stockings, but they're too good for me,
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really."
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She suddenly interrupted herself and lay her hand on K.'s as if she
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wanted to calm him down, and whispered, "Be quiet, Berthold is watching
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us." K. slowly looked up. In the doorway to the courtroom stood a young
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man, he was short, his legs were not quite straight, and he continually
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moved his finger round in a short, thin, red beard with which he hoped
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to make himself look dignified. K. looked at him with some curiosity, he
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was the first student he had ever met of the unfamiliar discipline of
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jurisprudence, face to face at least, a man who would even most likely
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attain high office one day. The student, in contrast, seemed to take no
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notice of K. at all, he merely withdrew his finger from his beard long
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enough to beckon to the woman and went over to the window, the woman
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leant over to K. and whispered, "Don't be cross with me, please don't,
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and please don't think ill of me either, I've got to go to him now, to
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this horrible man, just look at his bent legs. But I'll come straight
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back and then I'll go with you if you'll take me, I'll go wherever you
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want, you can do whatever you like with me, I'll be happy if I can be
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away from here for as long as possible, it'd be best if I could get away
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from here for good." She stroked K.'s hand once more, jumped up and ran
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over to the window. Before he realised it, K. grasped for her hand but
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failed to catch it. He really was attracted to the woman, and even after
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thinking hard about it could find no good reason why he should not give
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in to her allure. It briefly crossed his mind that the woman meant to
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entrap him on behalf of the court, but that was an objection he had no
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difficulty in fending off. In what way could she entrap him? Was he not
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still free, so free that he could crush the entire court whenever he
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wanted, at least where it concerned him? Could he not have that much
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confidence in himself? And her offer of help sounded sincere, and maybe
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it wasn't quite worthless. And maybe there was no better revenge against
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the examining judge and his cronies than to take this woman from him and
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have her for himself. Maybe then, after much hard work writing dishonest
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reports about K., the judge would go to the woman's bed late one night
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and find it empty. And it would be empty because she belonged to K.,
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because this woman at the window, this lush, supple, warm body in its
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sombre clothes of rough, heavy material belonged to him, totally to him
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and to him alone. Once he had settled his thoughts towards the woman in
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this way, he began to find the quiet conversation at the window was
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taking too long, he rapped on the podium with his knuckles, and then
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even with his fist. The student briefly looked away from the woman to
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glance at K. over his shoulder but did allow himself to be disturbed, in
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fact he even pressed himself close to the woman and put his arms around
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her. She dropped her head down low as if listening to him carefully, as
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she did so he kissed her right on the neck, hardly even interrupting
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what he was saying. K. saw this as confirmation of the tyranny the
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student held over the woman and which she had already complained about,
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he stood up and walked up and down the room. Glancing sideways at the
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student, he wondered what would be the quickest possible way to get rid
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of him, and so it was not unwelcome to him when the student, clearly
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disturbed by K.'s to-ing and fro-ing which K. had now developed into a
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stamping up and down, said to him, "You don't have to stay here, you
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know, if you're getting impatient. You could have gone earlier, no-one
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would have missed you. In fact you should have gone, you should have
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left as quickly as possible as soon as I got here." This comment could
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have caused all possible rage to break out between them, but K. also
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bore in mind that this was a prospective court official speaking to a
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disfavoured defendant, and he might well have been taking pride in
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speaking in this way. K. remained standing quite close to him and said
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with a smile, "You're quite right, I am impatient, but the easiest way
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to settle this impatience would be if you left us. On the other hand,
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if you've come here to study--you are a student, I hear--I'll be quite
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happy to leave the room to you and go away with the woman. I'm sure
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you'll still have a lot of study to do before you're made into a judge.
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It's true that I'm still not all that familiar with your branch of
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jurisprudence but I take it it involves a lot more than speaking
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roughly--and I see you have no shame in doing that extremely well." "He
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shouldn't have been allowed to move about so freely," said the student,
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as if he wanted to give the woman an explanation for K.'s insults, "that
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was a mistake. I've told the examining judge so. He should at least have
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been detained in his room between hearings. Sometimes it's impossible to
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understand what the judge thinks he's doing." "You're wasting your
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breath," said K., then he reached his hand out towards the woman and
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said, "come with me." "So that's it," said the student, "oh no, you're
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not going to get her," and with a strength you would not have expected
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from him, he glanced tenderly at her, lifted her up on one arm and, his
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back bent under the weight, ran with her to the door. In this way he
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showed, unmistakably, that he was to some extent afraid of K., but he
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nonetheless dared to provoke him still further by stroking and squeezing
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the woman's arm with his free hand. K. ran the few steps up to him, but
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when he had reached him and was about to take hold of him and, if
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necessary, throttle him, the woman said, "It's no good, it's the
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examining judge who's sent for me, I daren't go with you, this little
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bastard ..." and here she ran her hand over the student's face, "this
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little bastard won't let me." "And you don't want to be set free!"
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shouted K., laying his hand on the student's shoulder, who then snapped
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at it with his teeth. "No!" shouted the woman, pushing K. away with both
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hands, "no, no don't do that, what d'you think you're doing? That'd be
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the end of me. Let go of him, please just let go of him. He's only
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carrying out the judge's orders, he's carrying me to him." "Let him take
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you then, and I want to see nothing more of you," said K., enraged by
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his disappointment and giving the student a thump in the back so that he
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briefly stumbled and then, glad that he had not fallen, immediately
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jumped up all the higher with his burden. K. followed them slowly. He
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realised that this was the first unambiguous setback he had suffered
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from these people. It was of course nothing to worry about, he accepted
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the setback only because he was looking for a fight. If he stayed at
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home and carried on with his normal life he would be a thousand times
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superior to these people and could get any of them out of his way just
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with a kick. And he imagined the most laughable scene possible as an
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example of this, if this contemptible student, this inflated child, this
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knock-kneed redbeard, if he were kneeling at Elsa's bed wringing his
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hands and begging for forgiveness. K. so enjoyed imagining this scene
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that he decided to take the student along to Elsa with him if ever he
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should get the opportunity.
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K. was curious to see where the woman would be taken and he hurried over
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to the door, the student was not likely to carry her through the streets
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on his arm. It turned out that the journey was far shorter. Directly
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opposite the flat there was a narrow flight of wooden steps which
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probably led up to the attic, they turned as they went so that it was
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not possible to see where they ended. The student carried the woman up
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these steps, and after the exertions of running with her he was soon
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groaning and moving very slowly. The woman waved down at K. and by
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raising and lowering her shoulders she tried to show that she was an
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innocent party in this abduction, although the gesture did not show a
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lot of regret. K. watched her without expression like a stranger, he
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wanted to show neither that he was disappointed nor that he would easily
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get over his disappointment.
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The two of them had disappeared, but K. remained standing in the
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doorway. He had to accept that the woman had not only cheated him but
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that she had also lied to him when she said she was being taken to the
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examining judge. The examining judge certainly wouldn't be sitting and
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waiting in the attic. The wooden stairs would explain nothing to him
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however long he stared at them. Then K. noticed a small piece of paper
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next to them, went across to it and read, in a childish and unpractised
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hand, "Entrance to the Court Offices". Were the court offices here, in
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the attic of this tenement, then? If that was how they were
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accommodated it did not attract much respect, and it was some comfort
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for the accused to realise how little money this court had at its
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disposal if it had to locate its offices in a place where the tenants of
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the building, who were themselves among the poorest of people, would
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throw their unneeded junk. On the other hand, it was possible that the
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officials had enough money but that they squandered it on themselves
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rather than use it for the court's purposes. Going by K.'s experience of
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them so far, that even seemed probable, except that if the court were
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allowed to decay in that way it would not just humiliate the accused but
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also give him more encouragement than if the court were simply in a
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state of poverty. K. also now understood that the court was ashamed to
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summon those it accused to the attic of this building for the initial
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hearing, and why it preferred to impose upon them in their own homes.
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What a position it was that K. found himself in, compared with the judge
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sitting up in the attic! K., at the bank, had a big office with an
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ante-room, and had an enormous window through which he could look down
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at the activity in the square. It was true, though, that he had no
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secondary income from bribes and fraud, and he couldn't tell a servant
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to bring him a woman up to the office on his arm. K., however, was quite
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willing to do without such things, in this life at least. K. was still
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looking at the notice when a man came up the stairs, looked through the
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open door into the living room where it was also possible to see the
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courtroom, and finally asked K. whether he had just seen a woman there.
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"You're the court usher, aren't you?" asked K. "That's right," said the
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man, "oh, yes, you're defendant K., I recognise you now as well. Nice to
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see you here." And he offered K. his hand, which was far from what K.
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had expected. And when K. said nothing, he added, "There's no court
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session planned for today, though." "I know that," said K. as he looked
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at the usher's civilian coat which, beside its ordinary buttons,
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displayed two gilded ones as the only sign of his office and seemed to
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have been taken from an old army officer's coat. "I was speaking with
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your wife a little while ago. She is no longer here. The student has
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carried her off to the examining judge." "Listen to this," said the
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usher, "they're always carrying her away from me. It's Sunday today, and
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it's not part of my job to do any work today, but they send me off with
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some message which isn't even necessary just to get me away from here.
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What they do is they send me off not too far away so that I can still
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hope to get back on time if I really hurry. So off I go running as fast
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as I can, shout the message through the crack in the door of the office
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I've been sent to, so out of breath they'll hardly be able to understand
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it, run back here again, but the student's been even faster than I
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have--well he's got less far to go, he's only got to run down the steps.
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If I wasn't so dependent on them I'd have squashed the student against
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the wall here a long time ago. Right here, next to the sign. I'm always
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dreaming of doing that. Just here, just above the floor, that's where
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he's crushed onto the wall, his arms stretched out, his fingers spread
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apart, his crooked legs twisted round into a circle and blood squirted
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out all around him. It's only ever been a dream so far, though." "Is
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there nothing else you do?" asked K. with a smile. "Nothing that I know
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of," said the usher. "And it's going to get even worse now, up till now
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he's only been carrying her off for himself, now he's started carrying
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her off for the judge and all, just like I'd always said he would."
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"Does your wife, then, not share some of the responsibility?" asked K.
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He had to force himself as he asked this question, as he, too, felt so
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jealous now. "Course she does," said the usher, "it's more her fault
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than theirs. It was her who attached herself to him. All he did, he just
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chases after any woman. There's five flats in this block alone where
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he's been thrown out after working his way in there. And my wife is the
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best looking woman in the whole building, but it's me who's not even
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allowed to defend himself." "If that's how things are, then there's
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nothing that can be done," said K. "Well why not?" asked the usher.
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"He's a coward that student, if he wants to lay a finger on my wife all
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you'd have to do is give him such a good hiding he'd never dare do it
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again. But I'm not allowed to do that, and nobody else is going to do me
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the favour as they're all afraid of his power. The only one who could do
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it is a man like you." "What, how could I do it?" asked K. in
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astonishment. "Well you're facing a charge, aren't you," said the usher.
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"Yes, but that's all the more reason for me to be afraid. Even if he has
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no influence on the outcome of the trial he probably has some on the
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initial examination." "Yes, exactly," said the usher, as if K.'s view
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had been just as correct as his own. "Only we don't usually get any
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trials heard here with no hope at all." "I am not of the same opinion,"
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said K., "although that ought not to prevent me from dealing with the
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student if the opportunity arises." "I would be very grateful to you,"
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said the usher of the court, somewhat formally, not really seeming to
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believe that his highest wish could be fulfilled. "Perhaps," continued
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K., "perhaps there are some other officials of yours here, perhaps all
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of them, who would deserve the same." "Oh yes, yes," said the usher, as
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if this was a matter of course. Then he looked at K. trustingly which,
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despite all his friendliness, he had not done until then, and added,
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"they're always rebelling." But the conversation seemed to have become a
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little uncomfortable for him, as he broke it off by saying, "now I have
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to report to the office. Would you like to come with me?" "There's
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nothing for me to do there," said K. "You'd be able to have a look at
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it. No-one will take any notice of you." "Is it worth seeing then?"
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asked K. hesitatingly, although he felt very keen to go with him.
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"Well," said the usher, "I thought you'd be interested in it." "Alright
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then," said K. finally, "I'll come with you." And, quicker than the
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usher himself, he ran up the steps.
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At the entrance he nearly fell over, as behind the door there was
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another step. "They don't show much concern for the public," he said.
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"They don't show any concern at all," said the usher, "just look at the
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waiting room here." It consisted of a long corridor from which roughly
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made doors led out to the separate departments of the attic. There was
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no direct source of light but it was not entirely dark as many of the
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departments, instead of solid walls, had just wooden bars reaching up to
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the ceiling to separate them from the corridor. The light made its way
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in through them, and it was also possible to see individual officials
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through them as they sat writing at their desks or stood up at the
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wooden frameworks and watched the people on the corridor through the
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gaps. There were only a few people in the corridor, probably because it
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was Sunday. They were not very impressive. They sat, equally spaced, on
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two rows of long wooden benches which had been placed along both sides
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of the corridor. All of them were carelessly dressed although the
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expressions on their faces, their bearing, the style of their beards and
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many details which were hard to identify showed that they belonged to
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the upper classes. There were no coat hooks for them to use, and so they
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had placed their hats under the bench, each probably having followed the
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example of the others. When those who were sitting nearest the door saw
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K. and the usher of the court they stood up to greet them, and when the
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others saw that, they also thought they had to greet them, so that as
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the two of them went by all the people there stood up. None of them
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stood properly upright, their backs were bowed, their knees bent, they
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stood like beggars on the street. K. waited for the usher, who was
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following just behind him. "They must all be very dispirited," he said.
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"Yes," said the usher, "they are the accused, everyone you see here has
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been accused." "Really!" said K. "They're colleagues of mine then." And
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he turned to the nearest one, a tall, thin man with hair that was nearly
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grey. "What is it you are waiting for here?" asked K., politely, but the
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man was startled at being spoken to unexpectedly, which was all the more
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pitiful to see because the man clearly had some experience of the world
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and elsewhere would certainly have been able to show his superiority and
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would not have easily given up the advantage he had acquired. Here,
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though, he did not know what answer to give to such a simple question
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and looked round at the others as if they were under some obligation to
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help him, and as if no-one could expect any answer from him without this
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help. Then the usher of the court stepped forward to him and, in order
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to calm him down and raise his spirits, said, "The gentleman here's only
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asking what it is you're waiting for. You can give him an answer." The
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voice of the usher was probably familiar to him, and had a better effect
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than K.'s. "I'm ... I'm waiting...." he began, and then came to a halt.
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He had clearly chosen this beginning so that he could give a precise
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answer to the question, but now he didn't know how to continue. Some of
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the others waiting had come closer and stood round the group, the usher
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of the court said to them, "Get out the way, keep the gangway free."
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They moved back slightly, but not as far as where they had been sitting
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before. In the meantime, the man whom K. had first approached had pulled
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himself together and even answered him with a smile. "A month ago I made
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some applications for evidence to be heard in my case, and I'm waiting
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for it to be settled." "You certainly seem to be going to a lot of
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effort," said K. "Yes," said the man, "it is my affair after all." "Not
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everyone thinks the same way as you do," said K. "I've been indicted as
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well but I swear on my soul that I've neither submitted evidence nor
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done anything else of the sort. Do you really think that's necessary?"
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"I don't really know, exactly," said the man, once more totally unsure
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of himself; he clearly thought K. was joking with him and therefore
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probably thought it best to repeat his earlier answer in order to avoid
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making any new mistakes. With K. looking at him impatiently, he just
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said, "as far as I'm concerned, I've applied to have this evidence
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heard." "Perhaps you don't believe I've been indicted?" asked K. "Oh,
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please, I certainly do," said the man, stepping slightly to one side,
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but there was more anxiety in his answer than belief. "You don't believe
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me then?" asked K., and took hold of his arm, unconsciously prompted by
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the man's humble demeanour, and as if he wanted to force him to believe
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him. But he did not want to hurt the man and had only taken hold of him
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very lightly. Nonetheless, the man cried out as if K. had grasped him
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not with two fingers but with red hot tongs. Shouting in this ridiculous
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way finally made K. tired of him, if he didn't believe he was indicted
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then so much the better; maybe he even thought K. was a judge. And
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before leaving, he held him a lot harder, shoved him back onto the bench
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and walked on. "These defendants are so sensitive, most of them," said
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the usher of the court. Almost all of those who had been waiting had now
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assembled around the man who, by now, had stopped shouting and they
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seemed to be asking him lots of precise questions about the incident. K.
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was approached by a security guard, identifiable mainly by his sword, of
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which the scabbard seemed to be made of aluminium. This greatly
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surprised K., and he reached out for it with his hand. The guard had
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come because of the shouting and asked what had been happening. The
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usher of the court said a few words to try and calm him down but the
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guard explained that he had to look into it himself, saluted, and
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hurried on, walking with very short steps, probably because of gout.
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K. didn't concern himself long with the guard or these people,
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especially as he saw a turning off the corridor, about half way along
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it on the right hand side, where there was no door to stop him going
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that way. He asked the usher whether that was the right way to go, the
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usher nodded, and that is the way that K. went. The usher remained
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always one or two steps behind K., which he found irritating as in a
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place like this it could give the impression that he was being driven
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along by someone who had arrested him, so he frequently waited for the
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usher to catch up, but the usher always remained behind him. In order to
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put an end to his discomfort, K. finally said, "Now that I've seen what
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it looks like here, I'd like to go." "You haven't seen everything yet,"
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said the usher ingenuously. "I don't want to see everything," said K.,
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who was also feeling very tired, "I want to go, what is the way to the
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exit?" "You haven't got lost, have you?" asked the usher in amazement,
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"you go down this way to the corner, then right down the corridor
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straight ahead as far as the door." "Come with me," said K., "show me
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the way, I'll miss it, there are so many different ways here." "It's the
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only way there is," said the usher, who had now started to sound quite
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reproachful, "I can't go back with you again, I've got to hand in my
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report, and I've already lost a lot of time because of you as it is."
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"Come with me!" K. repeated, now somewhat sharper as if he had finally
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caught the usher out in a lie. "Don't shout like that," whispered the
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usher, "there's offices all round us here. If you don't want to go back
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by yourself come on a bit further with me or else wait here till I've
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sorted out my report, then I'll be glad to go back with you again." "No,
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no," said K., "I will not wait and you must come with me now." K. had
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still not looked round at anything at all in the room where he found
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himself, and it was only when one of the many wooden doors all around
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him opened that he noticed it. A young woman, probably summoned by the
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loudness of K.'s voice, entered and asked, "What is it the gentleman
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wants?" In the darkness behind her there was also a man approaching. K.
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looked at the usher. He had, after all, said that no-one would take any
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notice of K., and now there were two people coming, it only needed a few
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and everyone in the office would become aware of him and asking for
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explanations as to why he was there. The only understandable and
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acceptable thing to say was that he was accused of something and wanted
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to know the date of his next hearing, but this was an explanation he did
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not want to give, especially as it was not true--he had only come out of
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curiosity. Or else, an explanation even less usable, he could say that
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he wanted to ascertain that the court was as revolting on the inside as
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it was on the outside. And it did seem that he had been quite right in
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this supposition, he had no wish to intrude any deeper, he was disturbed
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enough by what he had seen already, he was not in the right frame of
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mind just then to face a high official such as might appear from behind
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any door, and he wanted to go, either with the usher of the court or, if
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needs be, alone.
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But he must have seemed very odd standing there in silence, and the
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young woman and the usher were indeed looking at him as if they thought
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he would go through some major metamorphosis any second which they
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didn't want to miss seeing. And in the doorway stood the man whom K. had
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noticed in the background earlier, he held firmly on to the beam above
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the low door swinging a little on the tips of his feet as if becoming
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impatient as he watched. But the young woman was the first to recognise
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that K.'s behaviour was caused by his feeling slightly unwell, she
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brought a chair and asked, "Would you not like to sit down?" K. sat down
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immediately and, in order to keep his place better, put his elbows on
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the armrests. "You're a little bit dizzy, aren't you?" she asked him.
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Her face was now close in front of him, it bore the severe expression
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that many young women have just when they're in the bloom of their
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youth. "It's nothing for you to worry about," she said, "that's nothing
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unusual here, almost everyone gets an attack like that the first time
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they come here. This is your first time is it. Yes, it's nothing unusual
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then. The sun burns down on the roof and the hot wood makes the air so
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thick and heavy. It makes this place rather unsuitable for offices,
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whatever other advantages it might offer. But the air is almost
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impossible to breathe on days when there's a lot of business, and that's
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almost every day. And when you think that there's a lot of washing put
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out to dry here as well--and we can't stop the tenants doing that--it's
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not surprising you started to feel unwell. But you get used to the air
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alright in the end. When you're here for the second or third time you'll
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hardly notice how oppressive the air is. Are you feeling any better
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now?" K. made no answer, he felt too embarrassed at being put at the
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mercy of these people by his sudden weakness, and learning the reason
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for feeling ill made him feel not better but a little worse. The girl
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noticed it straight away, and to make the air fresher for K., she took a
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window pole that was leaning against the wall and pushed open a small
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hatch directly above K.'s head that led to the outside. But so much soot
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fell in that the girl had to immediately close the hatch again and clean
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the soot off K.'s hands with her handkerchief, as K. was too tired to do
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that for himself. He would have liked just to sit quietly where he was
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until he had enough strength to leave, and the less fuss people made
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about him the sooner that would be. But then the girl said, "You can't
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stay here, we're in people's way here...." K. looked at her as if to ask
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whose way they were impeding. "If you like, I can take you to the sick
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room," and turning to the man in the doorway said, "please help me." The
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man immediately came over to them, but K. did not want to go to the sick
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room, that was just what he wanted to avoid, being led further from
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place to place, the further he went the more difficult it must become.
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So he said, "I am able to walk now," and stood up, shaking after
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becoming used to sitting so comfortably. But then he was unable to stay
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upright. "I can't manage it," he said shaking his head, and sat down
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again with a sigh. He remembered the usher who, despite everything,
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would have been able to lead him out of there but who seemed to have
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gone long before. K. looked out between the man and the young woman who
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were standing in front of him but was unable to find the usher. "I
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think," said the man, who was elegantly dressed and whose appearance was
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made especially impressive with a grey waistcoat that had two long,
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sharply tailored points, "the gentleman is feeling unwell because of the
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atmosphere here, so the best thing, and what he would most prefer, would
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be not to take him to the sick room but get him out of the offices
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altogether." "That's right," exclaimed K., with such joy that he nearly
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interrupted what the man was saying, "I'm sure that'll make me feel
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better straight away, I'm really not that weak, all I need is a little
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support under my arms, I won't cause you much trouble, it's not such a
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long way anyway, lead me to the door and then I'll sit on the stairs for
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a while and soon recover, as I don't suffer from attacks like this at
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all, I'm surprised at it myself. I also work in an office and I'm quite
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used to office air, but here it seems to be too strong, you've said so
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yourselves. So please, be so kind as to help me on my way a little, I'm
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feeling dizzy, you see, and it'll make me ill if I stand up by myself."
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And with that he raised his shoulders to make it easier for the two of
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them to take him by the arms.
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The man, however, didn't follow this suggestion but just stood there
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with his hands in his trouser pockets and laughed out loud. "There, you
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see," he said to the girl, "I was quite right. The gentleman is only
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unwell here, and not in general." The young woman smiled too, but
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lightly tapped the man's arm with the tips of her fingers as if he had
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allowed himself too much fun with K. "So what do you think, then?" said
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the man, still laughing, "I really do want to lead the gentleman out of
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here." "That's alright, then," said the girl, briefly inclining her
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charming head. "Don't worry too much about him laughing," said the girl
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to K., who had become unhappy once more and stared quietly in front of
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himself as if needing no further explanation. "This gentleman--may I
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introduce you?"--(the man gave his permission with a wave of the
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hand)--"so, this gentleman's job is to give out information. He gives
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all the information they need to people who are waiting, as our court
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and its offices are not very well known among the public he gets asked
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for quite a lot. He has an answer for every question, you can try him
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out if you feel like it. But that's not his only distinction, his other
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distinction is his elegance of dress. We, that's to say all of us who
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work in the offices here, we decided that the information-giver would
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have to be elegantly dressed as he continually has to deal with the
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litigants and he's the first one they meet, so he needs to give a
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dignified first impression. The rest of us I'm afraid, as you can see
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just by looking at me, dress very badly and old-fashioned; and there's
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not much point in spending much on clothes anyway, as we hardly ever
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leave the offices, we even sleep here. But, as I said, we decided that
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the information-giver would have to have nice clothes. As the management
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here is rather peculiar in this respect, and they would get them for us,
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we had a collection--some of the litigants contributed too--and bought
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him these lovely clothes and some others besides. So everything would be
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ready for him to give a good impression, except that he spoils it again
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by laughing and frightening people." "That's how it is," said the man,
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mocking her, "but I don't understand why it is that you're explaining
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all our intimate facts to the gentleman, or rather why it is that you're
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pressing them on him, as I'm sure he's not all interested. Just look at
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him sitting there, it's clear he's occupied with his own affairs." K.
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just did not feel like contradicting him. The girl's intention may have
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been good, perhaps she was under instructions to distract him or to give
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him the chance to collect himself, but the attempt had not worked. "I
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had to explain to him why you were laughing," said the girl. "I suppose
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it was insulting." "I think he would forgive even worse insults if I
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finally took him outside." K. said nothing, did not even look up, he
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tolerated the two of them negotiating over him like an object, that was
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even what suited him best. But suddenly he felt the information-giver's
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hand on one arm and the young woman's hand on the other. "Up you get
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then, weakling," said the information-giver. "Thank you both very much,"
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said K., pleasantly surprised, as he slowly rose and personally guided
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these unfamiliar hands to the places where he most needed support. As
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they approached the corridor, the girl said quietly into K.'s ear, "I
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must seem to think it's very important to show the information-giver in
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a good light, but you shouldn't doubt what I say, I just want to say the
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truth. He isn't hard-hearted. It's not really his job to help litigants
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outside if they're unwell but he's doing it anyway, as you can see. I
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don't suppose any of us is hard-hearted, perhaps we'd all like to be
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helpful, but working for the court offices it's easy for us to give the
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impression we are hard-hearted and don't want to help anyone. It makes
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me quite sad." "Would you not like to sit down here a while?" asked the
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information-giver, there were already in the corridor and just in front
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of the defendant whom K. had spoken to earlier. K. felt almost ashamed
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to be seen by him, earlier he had stood so upright in front of him and
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now he had to be supported by two others, his hat was held up by the
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information-giver balanced on outstretched fingers, his hair was
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dishevelled and hung down onto the sweat on his forehead. But the
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defendant seemed to notice nothing of what was going on and just stood
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there humbly, as if wanting to apologise to the information-giver for
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being there. The information-giver looked past him. "I know," he said,
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"that my case can't be settled today, not yet, but I've come in anyway,
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I thought, I thought I could wait here anyway, it's Sunday today, I've
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got plenty of time, and I'm not disturbing anyone here." "There's no
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need to be so apologetic," said the information-giver, "it's very
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commendable for you to be so attentive. You are taking up space here
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when you don't need to but as long as you don't get in my way I will do
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nothing to stop you following the progress of your case as closely as
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you like. When one has seen so many people who shamefully neglect their
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cases one learns to show patience with people like you. Do sit down."
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"He's very good with the litigants," whispered the girl. K. nodded, but
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started to move off again when the information-giver repeated, "Would
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you not like to sit down here a while?" "No," said K., "I don't want to
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rest." He had said that as decisively as he could, but in fact it would
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have done him a lot of good to sit down. It was as if he were suffering
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sea-sickness. He felt as if he were on a ship in a rough sea, as if the
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water were hitting against the wooden walls, a thundering from the
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depths of the corridor as if the torrent were crashing over it, as if
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the corridor were swaying and the waiting litigants on each side of it
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rising and sinking. It made the calmness of the girl and the man leading
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him all the more incomprehensible. He was at their mercy, if they let go
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of him he would fall like a board. Their little eyes glanced here and
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there, K. could feel the evenness of their steps but could not do the
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same, as from step to step he was virtually being carried. He finally
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noticed they were speaking to him but he did not understand them, all he
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heard was a noise that filled all the space and through which there
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seemed to be an unchanging higher note sounding, like a siren. "Louder,"
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he whispered with his head sunk low, ashamed at having to ask them to
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speak louder when he knew they had spoken loudly enough, even if it had
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been, for him, incomprehensible. At last, a draught of cool air blew in
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his face as if a gap had been torn out in the wall in front of him, and
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next to him he heard someone say, "First he says he wants to go, and
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then you can tell him a hundred times that this is the way out and he
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doesn't move." K. became aware that he was standing in front of the way
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out, and that the young woman had opened the door. It seemed to him that
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all his strength returned to him at once, and to get a foretaste of
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freedom he stepped straight on to one of the stairs and took his leave
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there of his companions, who bowed to him. "Thank you very much," he
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repeated, shook their hands once more and did not let go until he
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thought he saw that they found it hard to bear the comparatively fresh
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air from the stairway after being so long used to the air in the
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offices. They were hardly able to reply, and the young woman might even
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have fallen over if K. had not shut the door extremely fast. K. then
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stood still for a while, combed his hair with the help of a pocket
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mirror, picked up his hat from the next stair--the information-giver
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must have thrown it down there--and then he ran down the steps so fresh
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and in such long leaps that the contrast with his previous state nearly
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frightened him. His normally sturdy state of health had never prepared
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him for surprises such as this. Did his body want to revolt and cause
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him a new trial as he was bearing the old one with such little effort?
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He did not quite reject the idea that he should see a doctor the next
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time he had the chance, but whatever he did--and this was something on
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which he could advise himself--he wanted to spend all Sunday mornings in
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future better than he had spent this one.
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Chapter Four
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Miss Bürstner's Friend
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For some time after this, K. found it impossible to exchange even just a
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few words with Miss Bürstner. He tried to reach her in many and various
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ways but she always found a way to avoid it. He would come straight home
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from the office, remain in her room without the light on, and sit on the
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sofa with nothing more to distract him than keeping watch on the empty
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hallway. If the maid went by and closed the door of the apparently empty
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room he would get up after a while and open it again. He got up an hour
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earlier than usual in the morning so that he might perhaps find Miss
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Bürstner alone as she went to the office. But none of these efforts
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brought any success. Then he wrote her a letter, both to the office and
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the flat, attempting once more to justify his behaviour, offered to make
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whatever amends he could, promised never to cross whatever boundary she
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might set him and begged merely to have the chance to speak to her some
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time, especially as he was unable to do anything with Mrs. Grubach
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either until he had spoken with Miss Bürstner, he finally informed her
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that the following Sunday he would stay in his room all day waiting for
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a sign from her that there was some hope of his request being fulfilled,
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or at least that she would explain to him why she could not fulfil it
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even though he had promised to observe whatever stipulations she might
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make. The letters were not returned, but there was no answer either.
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However, on the following Sunday there was a sign that seemed clear
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enough. It was still early when K. noticed, through the keyhole, that
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there was an unusual level of activity in the hallway which soon abated.
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A French teacher, although she was German and called Montag, a pale and
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febrile girl with a slight limp who had previously occupied a room of
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her own, was moving into Miss Bürstner's room. She could be seen
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shuffling through the hallway for several hours, there was always
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another piece of clothing or a blanket or a book that she had forgotten
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and had to be fetched specially and brought into the new home.
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When Mrs. Grubach brought K. his breakfast--ever since the time when she
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had made K. so cross she didn't trust the maid to do the slightest
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job--he had no choice but to speak to her, for the first time in five
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days. "Why is there so much noise in the hallway today?" he asked as she
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poured his coffee out, "Can't something be done about it? Does this
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clearing out have to be done on a Sunday?" K. did not look up at Mrs.
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Grubach, but he saw nonetheless that she seemed to feel some relief as
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she breathed in. Even sharp questions like this from Mr. K. she
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perceived as forgiveness, or as the beginning of forgiveness. "We're not
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clearing anything out, Mr. K.," she said, "it's just that Miss Montag is
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moving in with Miss Bürstner and is moving her things across." She said
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nothing more, but just waited to see how K. would take it and whether he
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would allow her to carry on speaking. But K. kept her in uncertainty,
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took the spoon and pensively stirred his coffee while he remained
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silent. Then he looked up at her and said, "What about the suspicions
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you had earlier about Miss Bürstner, have you given them up?" "Mr. K.,"
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called Mrs. Grubach, who had been waiting for this very question, as she
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put her hands together and held them out towards him. "I just made a
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chance remark and you took it so badly. I didn't have the slightest
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intention of offending anyone, not you or anyone else. You've known me
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for long enough, Mr. K., I'm sure you're convinced of that. You don't
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know how I've been suffering for the past few days! That I should tell
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lies about my tenants! And you, Mr. K., you believed it! And said I
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should give you notice! Give you notice!" At this last outcry, Mrs.
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Grubach was already choking back her tears, she raised her apron to her
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face and blubbered out loud.
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"Oh, don't cry Mrs. Grubach," said K., looking out the window, he was
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thinking only of Miss Bürstner and how she was accepting an unknown girl
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into her room. "Now don't cry," he said again as he turned his look back
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into the room where Mrs. Grubach was still crying. "I meant no harm
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either when I said that. It was simply a misunderstanding between us.
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That can happen even between old friends sometimes." Mrs. Grubach pulled
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her apron down to below her eyes to see whether K. really was attempting
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a reconciliation. "Well, yes, that's how it is," said K., and as Mrs.
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Grubach's behaviour indicated that the captain had said nothing he dared
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to add, "Do you really think, then, that I'd want to make an enemy of
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you for the sake of a girl we hardly know?" "Yes, you're quite right,
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Mr. K.," said Mrs. Grubach, and then, to her misfortune, as soon as she
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felt just a little freer to speak, she added something rather inept. "I
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kept asking myself why it was that Mr. K. took such an interest in Miss
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Bürstner. Why does he quarrel with me over her when he knows that any
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cross word from him and I can't sleep that night? And I didn't say
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anything about Miss Bürstner that I hadn't seen with my own eyes." K.
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said nothing in reply, he should have chased her from the room as soon
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as she had opened her mouth, and he didn't want to do that. He contented
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himself with merely drinking his coffee and letting Mrs. Grubach feel
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that she was superfluous. Outside, the dragging steps of Miss Montag
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could still be heard as she went from one side of the hallway to the
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other. "Do you hear that?" asked K. pointing his hand at the door.
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"Yes," said Mrs. Grubach with a sigh, "I wanted to give her some help
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and I wanted the maid to help her too but she's stubborn, she wants to
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move everything in herself. I wonder at Miss Bürstner. I often feel it's
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a burden for me to have Miss Montag as a tenant but Miss Bürstner
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accepts her into her room with herself." "There's nothing there for you
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to worry about," said K., crushing the remains of a sugar lump in his
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cup. "Does she cause you any trouble?" "No," said Mrs. Grubach, "in
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itself it's very good to have her there, it makes another room free for
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me and I can let my nephew, the captain, occupy it. I began to worry he
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might be disturbing you when I had to let him live in the living room
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next to you over the last few days. He's not very considerate." "What an
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idea!" said K. standing up, "there's no question of that. You seem to
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think that because I can't stand this to-ing and fro-ing of Miss Montag
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that I'm over-sensitive--and there she goes back again." Mrs. Grubach
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appeared quite powerless. "Should I tell her to leave moving the rest of
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her things over till later, then, Mr. K.? If that's what you want I'll
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do it immediately." "But she has to move in with Miss Bürstner!" said K.
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"Yes," said Mrs. Grubach, without quite understanding what K. meant. "So
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she has to take her things over there." Mrs. Grubach just nodded. K. was
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irritated all the more by this dumb helplessness which, seen from the
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outside, could have seemed like a kind of defiance on her part. He began
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to walk up and down the room between the window and the door, thus
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depriving Mrs. Grubach of the chance to leave, which she otherwise
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probably would have done.
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Just as K. once more reached the door, someone knocked at it. It was the
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maid, to say that Miss Montag would like to have a few words with Mr.
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K., and therefore requested that he come to the dining room where she
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was waiting for him. K. heard the maid out thoughtfully, and then looked
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back at the shocked Mrs. Grubach in a way that was almost contemptuous.
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His look seemed to be saying that K. had been expecting this invitation
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for Miss Montag for a long time, and that it was confirmation of the
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suffering he had been made to endure that Sunday morning from Mrs.
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Grubach's tenants. He sent the maid back with the reply that he was on
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his way, then he went to the wardrobe to change his coat, and in answer
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to Mrs. Grubach's gentle whining about the nuisance Miss Montag was
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causing merely asked her to clear away the breakfast things. "But you've
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hardly touched it," said Mrs. Grubach. "Oh just take it away!" shouted
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K. It seemed to him that Miss Montag was mixed up in everything and made
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it repulsive to him.
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As he went through the hallway he looked at the closed door of Miss
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Bürstner's room. But it wasn't there that he was invited, but the dining
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room, to which he yanked the door open without knocking.
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The room was long but narrow with one window. There was only enough
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space available to put two cupboards at an angle in the corner by the
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door, and the rest of the room was entirely taken up with the long
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dining table which started by the door and reached all the way to the
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great window, which was thus made almost inaccessible. The table was
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already laid for a large number of people, as on Sundays almost all the
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tenants ate their dinner here at midday.
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When K. entered, Miss Montag came towards him from the window along one
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side of the table. They greeted each other in silence. Then Miss Montag,
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her head unusually erect as always, said, "I'm not sure whether you know
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me." K. looked at her with a frown. "Of course I do," he said, "you've
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been living here with Mrs. Grubach for quite some time now." "But I get
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the impression you don't pay much attention to what's going on in the
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lodging house," said Miss Montag. "No," said K. "Would you not like to
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sit down?" said Miss Montag. In silence, the two of them drew chairs out
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from the farthest end of the table and sat down facing each other. But
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Miss Montag stood straight up again as she had left her handbag on the
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window sill and went to fetch it; she shuffled down the whole length of
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the room. When she came back, the handbag lightly swinging, she said,
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"I'd like just to have a few words with you on behalf of my friend. She
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would have come herself, but she's feeling a little unwell today.
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Perhaps you'll be kind enough to forgive her and listen to me instead.
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There's anyway nothing that she could have said that I won't. On the
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contrary, in fact, I think I can say even more than her because I'm
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relatively impartial. Would you not agree?" "What is there to say,
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then?" answered K., who was tired of Miss Montag continuously watching
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his lips. In that way she took control of what he wanted to say before
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he said it. "Miss Bürstner clearly refuses to grant me the personal
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meeting that I asked her for." "That's how it is," said Miss Montag, "or
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rather, that's not at all how it is, the way you put it is remarkably
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severe. Generally speaking, meetings are neither granted nor the
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opposite. But it can be that meetings are considered unnecessary, and
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that's how it is here. Now, after your comment, I can speak openly. You
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asked my friend, verbally or in writing, for the chance to speak with
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her. Now my friend is aware of your reasons for asking for this
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meeting--or at least I suppose she is--and so, for reasons I know
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nothing about, she is quite sure that it would be of no benefit to
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anyone if this meeting actually took place. Moreover, it was only
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yesterday, and only very briefly, that she made it clear to me that such
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a meeting could be of no benefit for yourself either, she feels that it
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can only have been a matter of chance that such an idea came to you, and
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that even without any explanations from her, you will very soon come to
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realise yourself, if you have not done so already, the futility of your
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idea. My answer to that is that although it may be quite right, I
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consider it advantageous, if the matter is to be made perfectly clear,
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to give you an explicit answer. I offered my services in taking on the
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task, and after some hesitation my friend conceded. I hope, however,
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also to have acted in your interests, as even the slightest uncertainty
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in the least significant of matters will always remain a cause of
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suffering and if, as in this case, it can be removed without substantial
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effort, then it is better if that is done without delay." "I thank you,"
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said K. as soon as Miss Montag had finished. He stood slowly up, looked
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at her, then across the table, then out the window--the house opposite
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stood there in the sun--and went to the door. Miss Montag followed him a
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few paces, as if she did not quite trust him. At the door, however, both
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of them had to step back as it opened and Captain Lanz entered. This was
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the first time that K. had seen him close up. He was a large man of
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about forty with a tanned, fleshy face. He bowed slightly, intending it
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also for K., and then went over to Miss Montag and deferentially kissed
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her hand. He was very elegant in the way he moved. The courtesy he
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showed towards Miss Montag made a striking contrast with the way she had
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been treated by K. Nonetheless, Miss Montag did not seem to be cross
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with K. as it even seemed to him that she wanted to introduce the
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captain. K. however, did not want to be introduced, he would not have
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been able to show any sort of friendliness either to Miss Montag or to
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the captain, the kiss on the hand had, for K., bound them into a group
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which would keep him at a distance from Miss Bürstner whilst at the same
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time seeming to be totally harmless and unselfish. K. thought, however,
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that he saw more than that, he thought he also saw that Miss Montag had
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chosen a means of doing it that was good, but two-edged. She exaggerated
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the importance of the relationship between K. and Miss Bürstner, and
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above all she exaggerated the importance of asking to speak with her and
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she tried at the same time to make out that K. was exaggerating
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everything. She would be disappointed, K. did not want to exaggerate
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anything, he was aware that Miss Bürstner was a little typist who would
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not offer him much resistance for long. In doing so he deliberately took
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no account of what Mrs. Grubach had told him about Miss Bürstner. All
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these things were going through his mind as he left the room with hardly
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a polite word. He wanted to go straight to his room, but a little laugh
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from Miss Montag that he heard from the dining room behind him brought
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him to the idea that he might prepare a surprise for the two of them,
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the captain and Miss Montag. He looked round and listened to find out if
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there might be any disturbance from any of the surrounding rooms,
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everywhere was quiet, the only thing to be heard was the conversation
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from the dining room and Mrs. Grubach's voice from the passage leading
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to the kitchen. This seemed an opportune time, K. went to Miss
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Bürstner's room and knocked gently. There was no sound so he knocked
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again but there was still no answer in reply. Was she asleep? Or was
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she really unwell? Or was she just pretending as she realised it could
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only be K. knocking so gently? K. assumed she was pretending and
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knocked harder, eventually, when the knocking brought no result, he
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carefully opened the door with the sense of doing something that was not
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only improper but also pointless. In the room there was no-one. What's
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more, it looked hardly at all like the room K. had known before. Against
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the wall there were now two beds behind one another, there were clothes
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piled up on three chairs near the door, a wardrobe stood open. Miss
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Bürstner must have gone out while Miss Montag was speaking to him in the
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dining room. K. was not greatly bothered by this, he had hardly expected
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to be able to find Miss Bürstner so easily and had made this attempt for
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little more reason than to spite Miss Montag. But that made it all the
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more embarrassing for him when, as he was closing the door again, he saw
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Miss Montag and the captain talking in the open doorway of the dining
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room. They had probably been standing there ever since K. had opened the
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door, they avoided seeming to observe K. but chatted lightly and
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followed his movements with glances, the absent minded glances to the
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side such as you make during a conversation. But these glances were
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heavy for K., and he rushed alongside the wall back into his own room.
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Chapter Five
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The whip-man
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One evening, a few days later, K. was walking along one of the corridors
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that separated his office from the main stairway--he was nearly the last
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one to leave for home that evening, there remained only a couple of
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workers in the light of a single bulb in the dispatch department--when
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he heard a sigh from behind a door which he had himself never opened but
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which he had always thought just led into a junk room. He stood in
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amazement and listened again to establish whether he might not be
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mistaken. For a while there was silence, but then came some more sighs.
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His first thought was to fetch one of the servitors, it might well have
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been worth having a witness present, but then he was taken by an
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uncontrollable curiosity that make him simply yank the door open. It
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was, as he had thought, a junk room. Old, unusable forms, empty stone
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ink-bottles lay scattered behind the entrance. But in the cupboard-like
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room itself stood three men, crouching under the low ceiling. A candle
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fixed on a shelf gave them light. "What are you doing here?" asked K.
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quietly, but crossly and without thinking. One of the men was clearly in
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charge, and attracted attention by being dressed in a kind of dark
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leather costume which left his neck and chest and his arms exposed. He
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did not answer. But the other two called out, "Mr. K.! We're to be
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beaten because you made a complaint about us to the examining judge."
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And now, K. finally realised that it was actually the two policemen,
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Franz and Willem, and that the third man held a cane in his hand with
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which to beat them. "Well," said K., staring at them, "I didn't make any
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complaint, I only said what took place in my home. And your behaviour
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was not entirely unobjectionable, after all." "Mr. K.," said Willem,
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while Franz clearly tried to shelter behind him as protection from the
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third man, "if you knew how badly we get paid you wouldn't think so
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badly of us. I've got a family to feed, and Franz here wanted to get
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married, you just have to get more money where you can, you can't do it
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just by working hard, not however hard you try. I was sorely tempted by
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your fine clothes, policemen aren't allowed to do that sort of thing,
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course they aren't, and it wasn't right of us, but it's tradition that
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the clothes go to the officers, that's how it's always been, believe me;
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and it's understandable too, isn't it, what can things like that mean
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for anyone unlucky enough to be arrested. But if he starts talking about
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it openly then the punishment has to follow." "I didn't know about any
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of this that you've been telling me, and I made no sort of request that
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you be punished, I was simply acting on principle." "Franz," said
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Willem, turning to the other policeman, "didn't I tell you that the
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gentleman didn't say he wanted us to be punished. Now you can hear for
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yourself, he didn't even know we'd have to be punished." "Don't you let
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them persuade you, talking like that," said the third man to K., "this
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punishment is both just and unavoidable." "Don't listen to him," said
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Willem, interrupting himself only to quickly bring his hand to his mouth
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when it had received a stroke of the cane, "we're only being punished
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because you made a complaint against us. Nothing would have happened to
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us otherwise, not even if they'd found out what we'd done. Can you call
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that justice? Both of us, me especially, we'd proved our worth as good
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police officers over a long period--you've got to admit yourself that as
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far as official work was concerned we did the job well--things looked
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good for us, we had prospects, it's quite certain that we would've been
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made whip-men too, like this one, only he had the luck not to have
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anyone make a complaint about him, as you really don't get many
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complaints like that. Only that's all finished now, Mr. K., our careers
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are at an end, we're going to have to do work now that's far inferior to
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police work and besides all this we're going to get this terrible,
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painful beating." "Can the cane really cause so much pain, then?" asked
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K., testing the cane that the whip-man swang in front of him. "We're
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going to have to strip off totally naked," said Willem. "Oh, I see,"
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said K., looking straight at the whip-man, his skin was burned brown
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like a sailor's, and his face showed health and vigour. "Is there then
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no possibility of sparing these two their beating?" he asked him. "No,"
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said the whip-man, shaking his head with a laugh. "Get undressed!" he
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ordered the policemen. And to K. he said, "You shouldn't believe
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everything they tell you, it's the fear of being beaten, it's already
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made them a bit weak in the head. This one here, for instance," he
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pointed at Willem, "all that he told you about his career prospects,
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it's just ridiculous. Look at him, look how fat he is--the first strokes
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of the cane will just get lost in all that fat. Do you know what it is
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that's made him so fat. He's in the habit of, everyone that gets
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arrested by him, he eats their breakfast. Didn't he eat up your
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breakfast? Yeah, I thought as much. But a man with a belly like that
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can't be made into a whip-man and never will be, that is quite out of
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the question." "There are whip-men like that," Willem insisted, who had
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just released the belt of this trousers. "No," said the whip-man,
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striking him such a blow with the cane on his neck that it made him
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wince, "you shouldn't be listening to this, just get undressed." "I
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would make it well worth your while if you would let them go," said K.,
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and without looking at the whip-man again--as such matters are best
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carried on with both pairs of eyes turned down--he pulled out his
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wallet. "And then you'd try and put in a complaint against me, too,"
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said the whip-man, "and get me flogged. No, no!" "Now, do be
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reasonable," said K., "if I had wanted to get these two punished I would
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not now be trying to buy their freedom, would I? I could simply close
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the door here behind me, go home and see or hear nothing more of it. But
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that's not what I'm doing, it really is of much more importance to me to
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let them go free; if I had realised they would be punished, or even that
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they might be punished, I would never have named them in the first place
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as they are not the ones I hold responsible. It's the organisation
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that's to blame, the high officials are the ones to blame." "That's how
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it is!" shouted the policemen, who then immediately received another
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blow on their backs, which were by now exposed. "If you had a senior
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judge here beneath your stick," said K., pressing down the cane as he
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spoke to stop it being raised once more, "I really would do nothing to
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stop you, on the contrary, I would even pay you money to give you all
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the more strength." "Yeah, that's all very plausible, what you're saying
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there," said the whip-man, "only I'm not the sort of person you can
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bribe. It's my job to flog people, so I flog them." Franz, the
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policeman, had been fairly quiet so far, probably in expectation of a
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good result from K.'s intervention, but now he stepped forward to the
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door wearing just his trousers, knelt down hanging on to K.'s arm and
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whispered, "Even if you can't get mercy shown for both of us, at least
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try and get me set free. Willem is older than me, he's less sensitive
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than me in every way, he even got a light beating a couple of years
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ago, but my record's still clean, I only did things the way I did
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because Willem led me on to it, he's been my teacher both for good and
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bad. Down in front of the bank my poor bride is waiting for me at the
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entrance, I'm so ashamed of myself, it's pitiful." His face was flowing
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over with tears, and he wiped it dry on K.'s coat. "I'm not going to
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wait any longer," said the whip-man, taking hold of the cane in both
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hands and laying in to Franz while Willem cowered back in a corner and
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looked on secretly, not even daring to turn his head. Then, the sudden
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scream that shot out from Franz was long and irrevocable, it seemed to
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come not from a human being but from an instrument that was being
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tortured, the whole corridor rang with it, it must have been heard by
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everyone in the building. "Don't shout like that!", called out K.,
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unable to prevent himself, and, as he looked anxiously in the direction
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from which the servitor would come, he gave Franz a shove, not hard, but
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hard enough for him to fall down unconscious, clawing at the ground with
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his hands by reflex; he still did not avoid being hit; the rod still
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found him on the floor; the tip of the rod swang regularly up and down
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while he rolled to and fro under its blows. And now one of the servitors
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appeared in the distance, with another a few steps behind him. K. had
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quickly thrown the door shut, gone over to one of the windows
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overlooking the yard and opened it. The screams had completely stopped.
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So that the servitor wouldn't come in, he called out, "It's only me!"
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"Good evening, chief clerk," somebody called back. "Is there anything
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wrong?" "No, no," answered K., "it's only a dog yelping in the yard."
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There was no sound from the servitors so he added, "You can go back to
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what you were doing." He did not want to become involved with a
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conversation with them, and so he leant out of the window. A little
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while later, when he looked out in the corridor, they had already gone.
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Now, K. remained at the window, he did not dare go back into the junk
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room, and he did not want to go home either. The yard he looked down
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into was small and rectangular, all around it were offices, all the
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windows were now dark and only those at the very top caught a reflection
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of the moon. K. tried hard to see into the darkness of one corner of the
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yard, where a few handcarts had been left behind one another. He felt
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anguish at not having been able to prevent the flogging, but that was
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not his fault, if Franz had not screamed like that--clearly it must have
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caused a great deal of pain but it's important to maintain control of
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oneself at important moments--if Franz had not screamed then it was at
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least highly probable that K. would have been able to dissuade the
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whip-man. If all the junior officers were contemptible why would the
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whip-man, whose position was the most inhumane of all, be any exception,
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and K. had noticed very clearly how his eyes had lit up when he saw the
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banknotes, he had obviously only seemed serious about the flogging to
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raise the level of the bribe a little. And K. had not been ungenerous,
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he really had wanted to get the policemen freed; if he really had now
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begun to do something against the degeneracy of the court then it was a
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matter of course that he would have to do something here as well. But of
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course, it became impossible for him to do anything as soon as Franz
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started screaming. K. could not possibly have let the junior bank staff,
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and perhaps even all sorts of other people, come along and catch him by
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surprise as he haggled with those people in the junk room. Nobody could
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really expect that sort of sacrifice of him. If that had been his
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intention then it would almost have been easier, K. would have taken
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his own clothes off and offered himself to the whip-man in the
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policemen's place. The whip-man would certainly not have accepted this
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substitution anyway, as in that way he would have seriously violated his
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duty without gaining any benefit. He would most likely have violated his
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duty twice over, as court employees were probably under orders not to
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cause any harm to K. while he was facing charges, although there may
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have been special conditions in force here. However things stood, K. was
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able to do no more than throw the door shut, even though that would
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still do nothing to remove all the dangers he faced. It was regrettable
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that he had given Franz a shove, and it could only be excused by the
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heat of the moment.
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In the distance, he heard the steps of the servitors; he did not want
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them to be too aware of his presence, so he closed the window and
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walked towards the main staircase. At the door of the junk room he
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stopped and listened for a little while. All was silent. The two
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policemen were entirely at the whip-man's mercy; he could have beaten
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them to death. K. reached his hand out for the door handle but drew it
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suddenly back. He was no longer in any position to help anyone, and the
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servitors would soon be back; he did, though, promise himself that he
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would raise the matter again with somebody and see that, as far as it
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was in his power, those who really were guilty, the high officials whom
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nobody had so far dared point out to him, received their due punishment.
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As he went down the main stairway at the front of the bank, he looked
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carefully round at everyone who was passing, but there was no girl to be
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seen who might have been waiting for somebody, not even within some
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distance from the bank. Franz's claim that his bride was waiting for him
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was thus shown to be a lie, albeit one that was forgivable and intended
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only to elicit more sympathy.
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The policemen were still on K.'s mind all through the following day; he
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was unable to concentrate on his work and had to stay in his office a
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little longer than the previous day so that he could finish it. On the
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way home, as he passed by the junk room again, he opened its door as if
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that had been his habit. Instead of the darkness he expected, he saw
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everything unchanged from the previous evening, and did not know how he
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should respond. Everything was exactly the same as he had seen it when
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he had opened the door the previous evening. The forms and bottles of
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ink just inside the doorway, the whip-man with his cane, the two
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policemen, still undressed, the candle on the shelf, and the two
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policemen began to wail and call out "Mr. K.!" K. slammed the door
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immediately shut, and even thumped on it with his fists as if that
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would shut it all the firmer. Almost in tears, he ran to the servitors
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working quietly at the copying machine. "Go and get that junk room
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cleared out!" he shouted, and, in amazement, they stopped what they were
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doing. "It should have been done long ago, we're sinking in dirt!" They
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would be able to do the job the next day, K. nodded, it was too late in
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the evening to make them do it there and then as he had originally
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intended. He sat down briefly in order to keep them near him for a
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little longer, looked through a few of the copies to give the impression
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that he was checking them and then, as he saw that they would not dare
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to leave at the same time as himself, went home tired and with his mind
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numb.
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Chapter Six
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K.'s uncle--Leni
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One afternoon--K. was very busy at the time, getting the post
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ready--K.'s Uncle Karl, a small country land owner, came into the room,
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pushing his way between two of the staff who were bringing in some
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papers. K. had long expected his uncle to appear, but the sight of him
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now shocked K. far less than the prospect of it had done a long time
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before. His uncle was bound to come, K. had been sure of that for about
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a month. He already thought at the time he could see how his uncle
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would arrive, slightly bowed, his battered panama hat in his left hand,
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his right hand already stretched out over the desk long before he was
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close enough as he rushed carelessly towards K. knocking over everything
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that was in his way. K.'s uncle was always in a hurry, as he suffered
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from the unfortunate belief that he had a number of things to do while
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he was in the big city and had to settle all of them in one day--his
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visits were only ever for one day--and at the same time thought he could
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not forgo any conversation or piece of business or pleasure that might
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arise by chance. Uncle Karl was K.'s former guardian, and so K. was
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duty-bound to help him in all of this as well as to offer him a bed for
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the night. "I'm haunted by a ghost from the country," he would say.
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As soon as they had greeted each other--K. had invited him to sit in
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the armchair but Uncle Karl had no time for that--he said he wanted to
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speak briefly with K. in private. "It is necessary," he said with a
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tired gulp, "it is necessary for my peace of mind." K. immediately sent
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the junior staff from the room and told them to let no-one in. "What's
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this that I've been hearing, Josef?" cried K.'s uncle when they were
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alone, as he sat on the table shoving various papers under himself
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without looking at them to make himself more comfortable. K. said
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nothing, he knew what was coming, but, suddenly relieved from the
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effort of the work he had been doing, he gave way to a pleasant
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lassitude and looked out the window at the other side of the street.
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From where he sat, he could see just a small, triangular section of it,
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part of the empty walls of houses between two shop windows. "You're
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staring out the window!" called out his uncle, raising his arms, "For
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God's sake, Josef, give me an answer! Is it true, can it really be
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true?" "Uncle Karl," said K., wrenching himself back from his
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daydreaming, "I really don't know what it is you want of me." "Josef,"
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said his uncle in a warning tone, "as far as I know, you've always told
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the truth. Am I to take what you've just said as a bad sign?" "I think I
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know what it is you want," said K. obediently, "I expect you've heard
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about my trial." "That's right," answered his uncle with a slow nod,
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"I've heard about your trial." "Who did you hear it from, then?" asked
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K. "Erna wrote to me," said his uncle, "she doesn't have much contact
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with you, it's true, you don't pay very much attention to her, I'm
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afraid to say, but she learned about it nonetheless. I got her letter
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today and, of course, I came straight here. And for no other reason, but
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it seems to me that this is reason enough. I can read you out the part
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of the letter that concerns you." He drew the letter out from his
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wallet. "Here it is. She writes; 'I have not seen Josef for a long time,
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I was in the bank last week but Josef was so busy that they would not
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let me through; I waited there for nearly an hour but then I had to go
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home as I had my piano lesson. I would have liked to have spoken to him,
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maybe there will be a chance another time. He sent me a big box of
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chocolates for my name-day, that was very nice and attentive of him. I
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forgot to tell you about it when I wrote, and I only remember now that
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you ask me about it. Chocolate, as I am sure you are aware, disappears
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straight away in this lodging house, almost as soon as you know somebody
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has given you chocolate it is gone. But there is something else I wanted
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to tell you about Josef. Like I said, they would not let me through to
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see him at the bank because he was negotiating with some gentleman just
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then. After I had been waiting quietly for quite a long time I asked one
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of the staff whether his meeting would last much longer. He said it
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might well do, as it was probably about the legal proceedings, he said,
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that were being conducted against him. I asked what sort of legal
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proceedings it was that were being conducted against the chief clerk,
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and whether he was not making some mistake, but he said he was not
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making any mistake, there were legal proceedings underway and even that
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they were about something quite serious, but he did not know any more
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about it. He would have liked to have been of some help to the chief
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clerk himself, as the chief clerk was a gentleman, good and honest, but
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he did not know what it was he could do and merely hoped there would be
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some influential gentlemen who would take his side. I'm sure that is
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what will happen and that everything will turn out for the best in the
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end, but in the mean time things do not look at all good, and you can
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see that from the mood of the chief clerk himself. Of course, I did not
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place too much importance on this conversation, and even did my best to
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put the bank clerk's mind at rest, he was quite a simple man. I told him
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he was not to speak to anyone else about this, and I think it is all
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just a rumour, but I still think it might be good if you, Dear Father,
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if you looked into the matter the next time you visit. It will be easy
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for you to find out more detail and, if it is really necessary, to do
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something about it through the great and influential people you know.
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But if it is not necessary, and that is what seems most likely, then at
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least your daughter will soon have the chance to embrace you and I look
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forward to it.'--She's a good child," said K.'s uncle when he had
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finished reading, and wiped a few tears from his eyes. K. nodded. With
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all the different disruptions he had had recently he had completely
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forgotten about Erna, even her birthday, and the story of the chocolates
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had clearly just been invented so that he wouldn't get in trouble with
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his aunt and uncle. It was very touching, and even the theatre tickets,
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which he would regularly send her from then on, would not be enough to
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repay her, but he really did not feel, now, that it was right for him to
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visit her in her lodgings and hold conversations with a little, eighteen
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year old schoolgirl. "And what do you have to say about that?" asked his
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uncle, who had forgotten all his rush and excitement as he read the
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letter, and seemed to be about to read it again. "Yes, Uncle," said K.,
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"it is true." "True!" called out his uncle. "What is true? How can this
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be true? What sort of trial is it? Not a criminal trial, I hope?" "It's
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a criminal trial," answered K. "And you sit quietly here while you've
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got a criminal trial round your neck?" shouted his uncle, getting ever
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louder. "The more calm I am, the better it will be for the outcome,"
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said K. in a tired voice, "don't worry." "How can I help worrying?!"
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shouted his uncle, "Josef, my dear Josef, think about yourself, about
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your family, think about our good name! Up till now, you've always been
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our pride, don't now become our disgrace. I don't like the way you're
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behaving," he said, looking at K. with his head at an angle, "that's not
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how an innocent man behaves when he's accused of something, not if he's
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still got any strength in him. Just tell me what it's all about so that
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I can help you. It's something to do with the bank, I take it?" "No,"
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said K. as he stood up, "and you're speaking too loud, Uncle, I expect
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one of the staff is listening at the door and I find that rather
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unpleasant. It's best if we go somewhere else, then I can answer all
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your questions, as far as I can. And I know very well that I have to
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account to the family for what I do." "You certainly do!" his uncle
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shouted, "Quite right, you do. Now just get a move on, Josef, hurry up
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now!" "I still have a few documents I need to prepare," said K., and,
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using the intercom, he summoned his deputy who entered a few moments
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later. K.'s uncle, still angry and excited, gestured with his hand to
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show that K. had summoned him, even though there was no need whatever to
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do so. K. stood in front of the desk and explained to the young man, who
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listened calm and attentive, what would need to be done that day in his
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absence, speaking in a calm voice and making use of various documents.
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The presence of K.'s uncle while this was going on was quite disturbing;
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he did not listen to what was being said, but at first he stood there
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with eyes wide open and nervously biting his lips. Then he began to walk
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up and down the room, stopped now and then at the window, or stood in
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front of a picture always making various exclamations such as, "That is
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totally incomprehensible to me!" or "Now just tell me, what are you
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supposed to make of that?" The young man pretended to notice nothing of
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this and listened to K.'s instructions through to the end, he made a few
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notes, bowed to both K. and his uncle and then left the room. K.'s uncle
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had turned his back to him and was looking out the window, bunching up
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the curtains with his outstretched hands. The door had hardly closed
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when he called out, "At last! Now that he's stopped jumping about we can
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go too!" Once they were in the front hall of the bank, where several
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members of staff were standing about and where, just then, the deputy
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director was walking across, there was unfortunately no way of stopping
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K.'s uncle from continually asking questions about the trial. "Now
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then, Josef," he began, lightly acknowledging the bows from those around
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them as they passed, "tell me everything about this trial; what sort of
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trial is it?" K. made a few comments which conveyed little information,
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even laughed a little, and it was only when they reached the front steps
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that he explained to his uncle that he had not wanted to talk openly in
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front of those people. "Quite right," said his uncle, "but now start
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talking." With his head to one side, and smoking his cigar in short,
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impatient draughts, he listened. "First of all, Uncle," said K., "it's
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not a trial like you'd have in a normal courtroom." "So much the worse,"
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said his uncle. "How's that?" asked K., looking at him. "What I mean is,
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that's for the worse," he repeated. They were standing on the front
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steps of the bank; as the doorkeeper seemed to be listening to what they
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were saying K. drew his uncle down further, where they were absorbed
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into the bustle of the street. His uncle took K.'s arm and stopped
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asking questions with such urgency about the trial, they walked on for a
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while in silence. "But how did all this come about?" he eventually
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asked, stopping abruptly enough to startle the people walking behind,
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who had to avoid walking into him. "Things like this don't come all of a
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sudden, they start developing a long time beforehand, there must have
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been warning signs of it, why didn't you write to me? You know I'd do
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anything for you, to some extent I am still your guardian, and until
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today that's something I was proud of. I'll still help you, of course I
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will, only now, now that the trial is already underway, it makes it
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very difficult. But whatever; the best thing now is for you to take a
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short holiday staying with us in the country. You've lost weight, I can
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see that now. The country life will give you strength, that will be
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good, there's bound to be a lot of hard work ahead of you. But besides
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that it'll be a way of getting you away from the court, to some extent.
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Here they've got every means of showing the powers at their disposal
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and they're automatically bound to use them against you; in the country
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they'll either have to delegate authority to different bodies or just
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have to try and bother you by letter, telegram or telephone. And that's
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bound to weaken the effect, it won't release you from them but it'll
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give you room to breathe." "You could forbid me to leave," said K., who
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had been drawn slightly into his uncle's way of thinking by what he had
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been saying. "I didn't think you would do it," said his uncle
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thoughtfully, "you won't suffer too much loss of power by moving away."
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K. grasped his uncle under the arm to prevent him stopping still and
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said, "I thought you'd think all this is less important than I do, and
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now you're taking it so hard." "Josef," called his uncle trying to
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disentangle himself from him so that he could stop walking, but K. did
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not let go, "you've completely changed, you used to be so astute, are
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you losing it now? Do you want to lose the trial? Do you realise what
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that would mean? That would mean you would be simply destroyed. And
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that everyone you know would be pulled down with you or at the very
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least humiliated, disgraced right down to the ground. Josef, pull
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yourself together. The way you're so indifferent about it, it's driving
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me mad. Looking at you I can almost believe that old saying: 'Having a
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trial like that means losing a trial like that'." "My dear Uncle," said
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K., "it won't do any good to get excited, it's no good for you to do it
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and it'd be no good for me to do it. The case won't be won by getting
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excited, and please admit that my practical experience counts for
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something, just as I have always and still do respect your experience,
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even when it surprises me. You say that the family will also be
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affected by this trial; I really can't see how, but that's beside the
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point and I'm quite willing to follow your instructions in all of this.
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Only, I don't see any advantage in staying in the country, not even for
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you, as that would indicate flight and a sense of guilt. And besides,
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although I am more subject to persecution if I stay in the city I can
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also press the matter forward better here." "You're right," said his
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uncle in a tone that seemed to indicate they were finally coming closer
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to each other, "I just made the suggestion because, as I saw it, if you
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stay in the city the case will be put in danger by your indifference to
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it, and I thought it was better if I did the work for you. But will you
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push things forward yourself with all your strength, if so, that will
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naturally be far better." "We're agreed then," said K. "And do you have
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any suggestions for what I should do next?" "Well, naturally I'll have
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to think about it," said his uncle, "you must bear in mind that I've
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been living in the country for twenty years now, almost without a
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break, you lose your ability to deal with matters like this. But I do
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have some important connections with several people who, I expect, know
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their way around these things better than I do, and to contact them is a
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matter of course. Out there in the country I've been getting out of
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condition, I'm sure you're already aware of that. It's only at times
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like this that you notice it yourself. And this affair of yours came
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largely unexpected, although, oddly enough, I had expected something of
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the sort after I'd read Erna's letter, and today when I saw your face I
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knew it with almost total certainty. But all that is by the by, the
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important thing now is, we have no time to lose." Even while he was
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still speaking, K.'s uncle had stood on tiptoe to summon a taxi and now
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he pulled K. into the car behind himself as he called out an address to
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the driver. "We're going now to see Dr. Huld, the lawyer," he said, "we
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were at school together. I'm sure you know the name, don't you? No? Well
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that is odd. He's got a very good reputation as a defence barrister and
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for working with the poor. But I esteem him especially as someone you
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can trust." "It's alright with me, whatever you do," said K., although
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he was made uneasy by the rushed and urgent way his uncle was dealing
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with the matter. It was not very encouraging, as the accused, to be
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taken to a lawyer for poor people. "I didn't know," he said, "that you
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could take on a lawyer in matters like this." "Well of course you can,"
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said his uncle, "that goes without saying. Why wouldn't you take on a
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lawyer? And now, so that I'm properly instructed in this matter, tell me
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what's been happening so far." K. instantly began telling his uncle
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about what had been happening, holding nothing back--being completely
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open with him was the only way that K. could protest at his uncle's
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belief that the trial was a great disgrace. He mentioned Miss Bürstner's
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name just once and in passing, but that did nothing to diminish his
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openness about the trial as Miss Bürstner had no connection with it. As
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he spoke, he looked out the window and saw how, just then, they were
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getting closer to the suburb where the court offices were. He drew this
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to his uncle's attention, but he did not find the coincidence especially
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remarkable. The taxi stopped in front of a dark building. K.'s uncle
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knocked at the very first door at ground level; while they waited he
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smiled, showing his big teeth, and whispered, "Eight o'clock; not the
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usual sort of time to be visiting a lawyer, but Huld won't mind it from
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me." Two large, black eyes appeared in the spy-hatch in the door, they
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stared at the two visitors for a while and then disappeared; the door,
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however, did not open. K. and his uncle confirmed to each other the fact
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that they had seen the two eyes. "A new maid, afraid of strangers," said
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K.'s uncle, and knocked again. The eyes appeared once more. This time
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they seemed almost sad, but the open gas flame that burned with a hiss
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close above their heads gave off little light and that may have merely
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created an illusion. "Open the door," called K.'s uncle, raising his
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fist against it, "we are friends of Dr. Huld, the lawyer!" "Dr. Huld is
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ill," whispered someone behind them. In a doorway at the far end of a
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narrow passage stood a man in his dressing gown, giving them this
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information in an extremely quiet voice. K.'s uncle, who had already
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been made very angry by the long wait, turned abruptly round and
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retorted, "Ill. You say he's ill?" and strode towards the gentleman in a
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way that seemed almost threatening, as if he were the illness himself.
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"They've opened the door for you, now," said the gentleman, pointing at
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the door of the lawyer. He pulled his dressing gown together and
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disappeared. The door had indeed been opened, a young girl--K.
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recognised the dark, slightly bulging eyes--stood in the hallway in a
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long white apron, holding a candle in her hand. "Next time, open up
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sooner!" said K.'s uncle instead of a greeting, while the girl made a
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slight curtsey. "Come along, Josef," he then said to K. who was slowly
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moving over towards the girl. "Dr. Huld is unwell," said the girl as
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K.'s uncle, without stopping, rushed towards one of the doors. K.
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continued to look at the girl in amazement as she turned round to block
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the way into the living room, she had a round face like a puppy's, not
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only the pale cheeks and the chin were round but the temples and the
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hairline were too. "Josef!" called his uncle once more, and he asked the
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girl, "It's trouble with his heart, is it?" "I think it is, sir," said
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the girl, who by now had found time to go ahead with the candle and open
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the door into the room. In one corner of the room, where the light of
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the candle did not reach, a face with a long beard looked up from the
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bed. "Leni, who's this coming in?" asked the lawyer, unable to recognise
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his guests because he was dazzled by the candle. "It's your old friend,
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Albert," said K.'s uncle. "Oh, Albert," said the lawyer, falling back
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onto his pillow as if this visit meant he would not need to keep up
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appearances. "Is it really as bad as that?" asked K.'s uncle, sitting on
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the edge of the bed. "I don't believe it is. It's a recurrence of your
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heart trouble and it'll pass over like the other times." "Maybe," said
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the lawyer quietly, "but it's just as much trouble as it's ever been. I
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can hardly breathe, I can't sleep at all and I'm getting weaker by the
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day." "I see," said K.'s uncle, pressing his panama hat firmly against
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his knee with his big hand. "That is bad news. But are you getting the
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right sort of care? And it's so depressing in here, it's so dark. It's a
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long time since I was last here, but it seemed to me friendlier then.
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Even your young lady here doesn't seem to have much life in her, unless
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she's just pretending." The maid was still standing by the door with the
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candle; as far as could be made out, she was watching K. more than she
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was watching his uncle even while the latter was still speaking about
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her. K. leant against a chair that he had pushed near to the girl. "When
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you're as ill as I am," said the lawyer, "you need to have peace. I
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don't find it depressing." After a short pause he added, "and Leni looks
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after me well, she's a good girl." But that was not enough to persuade
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K.'s uncle, he had visibly taken against his friend's carer and, even
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though he did not contradict the invalid, he persecuted her with his
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scowl as she went over to the bed, put the candle on the bedside table
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and, leaning over the bed, made a fuss of him by tidying the pillows.
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K.'s uncle nearly forgot the need to show any consideration for the man
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who lay ill in bed, he stood up, walked up and down behind the carer,
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and K. would not have been surprised if he had grabbed hold of her
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skirts behind her and dragged her away from the bed. K. himself looked
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on calmly, he was not even disappointed at finding the lawyer unwell,
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he had been able to do nothing to oppose the enthusiasm his uncle had
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developed for the matter, he was glad that this enthusiasm had now been
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distracted without his having to do anything about it. His uncle,
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probably simply wishing to be offensive to the lawyer's attendant, then
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said, "Young lady, now please leave us alone for a while, I have some
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personal matters to discuss with my friend." Dr. Huld's carer was still
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leant far over the invalid's bed and smoothing out the cloth covering
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the wall next to it, she merely turned her head and then, in striking
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contrast with the anger that first stopped K.'s uncle from speaking and
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then let the words out in a gush, she said very quietly, "You can see
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that Dr. Huld is so ill that he can't discuss any matters at all." It
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was probably just for the sake of convenience that she had repeated the
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words spoken by K.'s uncle, but an onlooker might even have perceived
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it as mocking him and he, of course, jumped up as if he had just been
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stabbed. "You damned ...," in the first gurglings of his excitement his
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words could hardly be understood, K. was startled even though he had
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been expecting something of the sort and ran to his uncle with the
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intention, no doubt, of closing his mouth with both his hands.
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Fortunately, though, behind the girl, the invalid raised himself up,
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K.'s uncle made an ugly face as if swallowing something disgusting and
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then, somewhat calmer, said, "We have naturally not lost our senses,
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not yet; if what I am asking for were not possible I would not be asking
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for it. Now please, go!" The carer stood up straight by the bed
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directly facing K.'s uncle, K. thought he noticed that with one hand she
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was stroking the lawyer's hand. "You can say anything in front of
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Leni," said the invalid, in a tone that was unmistakably imploring.
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"It's not my business," said K.'s uncle, "and it's not my secrets." And
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he twisted himself round as if wanting to go into no more negotiations
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but giving himself a little more time to think. "Whose business is it
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then?" asked the lawyer in an exhausted voice as he leant back again.
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"My nephew's," said K.'s uncle, "and I've brought him along with me."
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And he introduced him, "Chief Clerk Josef K." "Oh!" said the invalid,
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now with much more life in him, and reached out his hand towards K. "Do
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forgive me, I didn't notice you there at all." Then he then said to his
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carer, "Leni, go," stretching his hand out to her as if this were a
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farewell that would have to last for a long time. This time the girl
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offered no resistance. "So you," he finally said to K.'s uncle, who had
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also calmed down and stepped closer, "you haven't come to visit me
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because I'm ill but you've come on business." The lawyer now looked so
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much stronger that it seemed the idea of being visited because he was
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ill had somehow made him weak, he remained supporting himself on one
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elbow, which must have been rather tiring, and continually pulled at a
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lock of hair in the middle of his beard. "You already look much better,"
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said K.'s uncle, "now that that witch has gone outside." He interrupted
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himself, whispered, "I bet you she's listening!" and sprang over to the
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door. But behind the door there was no-one, K.'s uncle came back not
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disappointed, as her not listening seemed to him worse than if she had
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been, but probably somewhat embittered. "You're mistaken about her,"
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said the lawyer, but did nothing more to defend her; perhaps that was
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his way of indicating that she did not need defending. But in a tone
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that was much more committed he went on, "As far as your nephew's
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affairs are concerned, this will be an extremely difficult undertaking
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and I'd count myself lucky if my strength lasted out long enough for it;
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I'm greatly afraid it won't do, but anyway I don't want to leave
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anything untried; if I don't last out you can always get somebody else.
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To be honest, this matter interests me too much, and I can't bring
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myself to give up the chance of taking some part in it. If my heart does
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totally give out then at least it will have found a worthy affair to
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fail in." K. believed he understood not a word of this entire speech, he
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looked at his uncle for an explanation but his uncle sat on the bedside
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table with the candle in his hand, a medicine bottle had rolled off the
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table onto the floor, he nodded to everything the lawyer said, agreed to
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everything, and now and then looked at K. urging him to show the same
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compliance. Maybe K.'s uncle had already told the lawyer about the
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trial. But that was impossible, everything that had happened so far
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spoke against it. So he said, "I don't understand...." "Well, maybe I've
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misunderstood what you've been saying," said the lawyer, just as
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astonished and embarrassed as K. "Perhaps I've been going too fast. What
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was it you wanted to speak to me about? I thought it was to do with your
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trial." "Of course it is," said K.'s uncle, who then asked K., "So what
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is it you want?" "Yes, but how is it that you know anything about me and
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my case?" asked K. "Oh, I see," said the lawyer with a smile. "I am a
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lawyer, I move in court circles, people talk about various different
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cases and the more interesting ones stay in your mind, especially when
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they concern the nephew of a friend. There's nothing very remarkable
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about that." "What is it you want, then?" asked K.'s uncle once more,
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"You seem so uneasy about it." "You move in this court's circles?" asked
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K. "Yes," said the lawyer. "You're asking questions like a child," said
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K.'s uncle. "What circles should I move in, then, if not with members of
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my own discipline?" the lawyer added. It sounded so indisputable that K.
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gave no answer at all. "But you work in the High Court, not that court
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in the attic," he had wanted to say but could not bring himself to
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actually utter it. "You have to realise," the lawyer continued, in a
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tone as if he were explaining something obvious, unnecessary and
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incidental, "you have to realise that I also derive great advantage for
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my clients from mixing with those people, and do so in many different
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ways, it's not something you can keep talking about all the time. I'm at
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a bit of a disadvantage now, of course, because of my illness, but I
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still get visits from some good friends of mine at the court and I learn
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one or two things. It might even be that I learn more than many of those
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who are in the best of health and spend all day in court. And I'm
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receiving a very welcome visit right now, for instance." And he pointed
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into a dark corner of the room. "Where?" asked K., almost uncouth in
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his surprise. He looked round uneasily; the little candle gave off far
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too little light to reach as far as the wall opposite. And then,
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something did indeed begin to move there in the corner. In the light of
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the candle held up by K.'s uncle an elderly gentleman could be seen
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sitting beside a small table. He had been sitting there for so long
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without being noticed that he could hardly have been breathing. Now he
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stood up with a great deal of fuss, clearly unhappy that attention had
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been drawn to him. It was as if, by flapping his hands about like short
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wings, he hoped to deflect any introductions and greetings, as if he
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wanted on no account to disturb the others by his presence and seemed to
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be exhorting them to leave him back in the dark and forget about his
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being there. That, however, was something that could no longer be
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granted him. "You took us by surprise, you see," said the lawyer in
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explanation, cheerfully indicating to the gentleman that he should come
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closer, which, slowly, hesitatingly, looking all around him, but with a
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certain dignity, he did. "The office director--oh, yes, forgive me, I
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haven't introduced you--this is my friend Albert K., this is his nephew,
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the chief clerk Josef K., and this is the office director--so, the
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office director was kind enough to pay me a visit. It's only possible
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to appreciate just how valuable a visit like this is if you've been let
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into the secret of what a pile of work the office director has heaped
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over him. Well, he came anyway, we were having a peaceful chat, as far
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as I was able when I'm so weak, and although we hadn't told Leni she
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mustn't let anyone in as we weren't expecting anyone, we still would
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rather have remained alone, but then along came you, Albert, thumping
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your fists on the door, the office director moved over into the corner
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pulling his table and chair with him, but now it turns out we might
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have, that is, if that's what you wish, we might have something to
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discuss with each other and it would be good if we can all come back
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together again.--Office director ...," he said with his head on one
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side, pointing with a humble smile to an armchair near the bed. "I'm
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afraid I'll only be able to stay a few minutes more," smiled the office
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director as he spread himself out in the armchair and looked at the
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clock. "Business calls. But I wouldn't want to miss the chance of
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meeting a friend of my friend." He inclined his head slightly toward
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K.'s uncle, who seemed very happy with his new acquaintance, but he was
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not the sort of person to express his feelings of deference and
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responded to the office director's words with embarrassed, but loud,
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laughter. A horrible sight! K. was able to quietly watch everything as
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nobody paid any attention to him, the office director took over as
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leader of the conversation as seemed to be his habit once he had been
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called forward, the lawyer listened attentively with his hand to his
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ear, his initial weakness having perhaps only had the function of
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driving away his new visitors. K.'s uncle served as
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candle-bearer--balancing the candle on his thigh while the office
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director frequently glanced nervously at it--and was soon free of his
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embarrassment and was quickly enchanted not only by the office
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director's speaking manner but also by the gentle, waving
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hand-movements with which he accompanied it. K., leaning against the
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bedpost, was totally ignored by the office director, perhaps
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deliberately, and served the old man only as audience. And besides, he
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had hardly any idea what the conversation was about and his thoughts
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soon turned to the care assistant and the ill treatment she had suffered
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from his uncle. Soon after, he began to wonder whether he had not seen
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the office director somewhere before, perhaps among the people who were
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at his first hearing. He may have been mistaken, but thought the office
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director might well have been among the old gentlemen with the thin
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beards in the first row.
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There was then a noise that everyone heard from the hallway as if
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something of porcelain were being broken. "I'll go and see what's
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happened," said K., who slowly left the room as if giving the others
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the chance to stop him. He had hardly stepped into the hallway, finding
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his bearings in the darkness with his hand still firmly holding the
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door, when another small hand, much smaller than K.'s own, placed itself
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on his and gently shut the door. It was the carer who had been waiting
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there. "Nothing has happened," she whispered to him, "I just threw a
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plate against the wall to get you out of there." "I was thinking about
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you, as well," replied K. uneasily. "So much the better," said the
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carer. "Come with me." A few steps along, they came to a frosted glass
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door which the carer opened for him. "Come in here," she said. It was
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clearly the lawyer's office, fitted out with old, heavy furniture, as
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far as could be seen in the moonlight which now illuminated just a
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small, rectangular section of the floor by each of the three big
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windows. "This way," said the carer, pointing to a dark trunk with a
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carved, wooden backrest. When he had sat down, K. continued to look
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round the room, it was a large room with a high ceiling, the clients of
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this lawyer for the poor must have felt quite lost in it. K. thought he
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could see the little steps with which visitors would approach the
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massive desk. But then he forgot about all of this and had eyes only
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for the carer who sat very close beside him, almost pressing him against
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the armrest. "I did think," she said, "you would come out here to me by
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yourself without me having to call you first. It was odd. First you
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stare at me as soon as you come in, and then you keep me waiting. And
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you ought to call me Leni, too," she added quickly and suddenly, as if
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no moment of this conversation should be lost. "Gladly," said K. "But
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as for its being odd, Leni, that's easy to explain. Firstly, I had to
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listen to what the old men were saying and couldn't leave without a
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good reason, but secondly I'm not a bold person, if anything I'm quite
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shy, and you, Leni, you didn't really look like you could be won over in
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one stroke, either." "That's not it," said Leni, laying one arm on the
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armrest and looking at K., "you didn't like me, and I don't suppose you
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like me now, either." "Liking wouldn't be very much," said K.,
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evasively. "Oh!" she exclaimed with a smile, thus making use of K.'s
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comment to gain an advantage over him. So K. remained silent for a
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while. By now, he had become used to the darkness in the room and was
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able to make out various fixtures and fittings. He was especially
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impressed by a large picture hanging to the right of the door, he leant
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forward in order to see it better. It depicted a man wearing a judge's
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robes; he was sitting on a lofty throne gilded in a way that shone
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forth from the picture. The odd thing about the picture was that this
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judge was not sitting there in dignified calm but had his left arm
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pressed against the back and armrest, his right arm, however, was
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completely free and only grasped the armrest with his hand, as if about
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to jump up any moment in vigorous outrage and make some decisive comment
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or even to pass sentence. The accused was probably meant to be imagined
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at the foot of the steps, the top one of which could be seen in the
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picture, covered with a yellow carpet. "That might be my judge," said
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K., pointing to the picture with one finger. "I know him," said Leni
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looking up at the picture, "he comes here quite often. That picture is
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from when he was young, but he can never have looked anything like it,
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as he's tiny, minute almost. But despite that, he had himself made to
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look bigger in the picture as he's madly vain, just like everyone round
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here. But even I'm vain and that makes me very unhappy that you don't
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like me." K. replied to that last comment merely by embracing Leni and
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drawing her towards him, she lay her head quietly on his shoulder. To
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the rest of it, though, he said, "What rank is he?" "He's an examining
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judge," she said, taking hold of the hand with which K. held her and
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playing with his fingers. "Just an examining judge once again," said K.
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in disappointment, "the senior officials keep themselves hidden. But
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here he is sitting on a throne." "That's all just made up," said Leni
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with her face bent over K.'s hand, "really he's sitting on a kitchen
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chair with an old horse blanket folded over it. But do you have to be
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always thinking about your trial?" she added slowly. "No, not at all,"
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said K., "I probably even think too little about it." "That's not the
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mistake you're making," said Leni, "you're too unyielding, that's what
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I've heard." "Who said that?" asked K., he felt her body against his
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chest and looked down on her rich, dark, tightly-bound hair. "I'd be
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saying too much if I told you that," answered Leni. "Please don't ask
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for names, but do stop making these mistakes of yours, stop being so
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unyielding, there's nothing you can do to defend yourself from this
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court, you have to confess. So confess to them as soon as you get the
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chance. It's only then that they give you the chance to get away, not
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till then. Only, without help from outside even that's impossible, but
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you needn't worry about getting this help as I want to help you
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myself." "You understand a lot about this court and what sort of tricks
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are needed," said K. as he lifted her, since she was pressing in much
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too close to him, onto his lap. "That's alright, then," she said, and
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made herself comfortable on his lap by smoothing out her skirt and
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adjusting her blouse. Then she hung both her arms around his neck, leant
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back and took a long look at him. "And what if I don't confess, could
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you not help me then?" asked K. to test her out. I'm accumulating women
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to help me, he thought to himself almost in amazement, first Miss
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Bürstner, then the court usher's wife, and now this little care
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assistant who seems to have some incomprehensible need for me. The way
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she sits on my lap as if it were her proper place! "No," answered Leni,
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slowly shaking her head, "I couldn't help you then. But you don't want
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my help anyway, it means nothing to you, you're too stubborn and won't
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be persuaded." Then, after a while she asked, "Do you have a lover?"
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"No," said K. "Oh, you must have," she said. "Well, I have really," said
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K. "Just think, I've even betrayed her while I'm carrying her photograph
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with me." Leni insisted he show her a photograph of Elsa, and then,
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hunched on his lap, studied the picture closely. The photograph was not
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one that had been taken while Elsa was posing for it, it showed her just
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after she had been in a wild dance such as she liked to do in wine bars,
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her skirt was still flung out as she span round, she had placed her
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hands on her firm hips and, with her neck held taut, looked to one side
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with a laugh; you could not see from the picture whom her laugh was
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intended for. "She's very tightly laced," said Leni, pointing to the
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place where she thought this could be seen. "I don't like her, she's
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clumsy and crude. But maybe she's gentle and friendly towards you,
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that's the impression you get from the picture. Big, strong girls like
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that often don't know how to be anything but gentle and friendly. Would
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she be capable of sacrificing herself for you, though?" "No," said K.,
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"she isn't gentle or friendly, and nor would she be capable of
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sacrificing herself for me. But I've never yet asked any of those things
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of her. I've never looked at this picture as closely as you." "You can't
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think much of her, then," said Leni. "She can't be your lover after
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all." "Yes she is," said K., "I'm not going to take my word back on
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that." "Well she might be your lover now, then," said Leni, "but you
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wouldn't miss her much if you lost her or if you exchanged her for
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somebody else, me for instance." "That is certainly conceivable," said
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K. with a smile, "but she does have one major advantage over you, she
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knows nothing about my trial, and even if she did she wouldn't think
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about it. She wouldn't try to persuade me to be less unyielding." "Well
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that's no advantage," said Leni. "If she's got no advantage other than
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that, I can keep on hoping. Has she got any bodily defects?" "'Bodily
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defects'?" asked K. "Yeah," said Leni, "as I do have a bodily defect,
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just a little one. Look." She spread the middle and ring fingers of her
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right hand apart from each other. Between those fingers the flap of skin
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connecting them reached up almost as far as the top joint of the little
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finger. In the darkness, K. did not see at first what it was she wanted
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to show him, so she led his hand to it so that he could feel. "What a
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freak of nature," said K., and when he had taken a look at the whole
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hand he added, "What a pretty claw!" Leni looked on with a kind of pride
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as K. repeatedly opened and closed her two fingers in amazement, until,
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finally, he briefly kissed them and let go. "Oh!" she immediately
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exclaimed, "you kissed me!" Hurriedly, and with her mouth open, she
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clambered up K.'s lap with her knees. He was almost aghast as he looked
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up at her, now that she was so close to him there was a bitter,
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irritating smell from her, like pepper, she grasped his head, leant out
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over him, and bit and kissed his neck, even biting into his hair. "I've
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taken her place!" she exclaimed from time to time. "Just look, now
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you've taken me instead of her!" Just then, her knee slipped out and,
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with a little cry, she nearly fell down onto the carpet, K. tried to
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hold her by putting his arms around her and was pulled down with her.
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"Now you're mine," she said. Her last words to him as he left were,
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"Here's the key to the door, come whenever you want," and she planted an
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undirected kiss on his back. When he stepped out the front door there
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was a light rain falling, he was about to go to the middle of the street
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to see if he could still glimpse Leni at the window when K.'s uncle
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leapt out of a car that K., thinking of other things, had not seen
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waiting outside the building. He took hold of K. by both arms and shoved
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him against the door as if he wanted to nail him to it. "Young man," he
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shouted, "how could you do a thing like that?! Things were going well
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with this business of yours, now you've caused it terrible damage. You
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slip off with some dirty, little thing who, moreover, is obviously the
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lawyer's beloved, and stay away for hours. You don't even try to find an
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excuse, don't try to hide anything, no, you're quite open about it, you
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run off with her and stay there. And meanwhile we're sitting there, your
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uncle who's going to such effort for you, the lawyer who needs to be won
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over to your side, and above all the office director, a very important
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gentleman who is in direct command of your affair in its present stage.
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We wanted to discuss how best to help you, I had to handle the lawyer
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very carefully, he had to handle the office director carefully, and you
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had most reason of all to at least give me some support. Instead of
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which you stay away. Eventually we couldn't keep up the pretence any
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longer, but these are polite and highly capable men, they didn't say
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anything about it so as to spare my feelings but in the end not even
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they could continue to force themselves and, as they couldn't speak
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about the matter in hand, they became silent. We sat there for several
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minutes, listening to see whether you wouldn't finally come back. All in
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vain. In the end the office director stood up, as he had stayed far
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longer than he had originally intended, made his farewell, looked at me
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in sympathy without being able to help, he waited at the door for a long
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time although it's more than I can understand why he was being so good,
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and then he went. I, of course, was glad he'd gone, I'd been holding my
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breath all this time. All this had even more effect on the lawyer lying
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there ill, when I took my leave of him, the good man, he was quite
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unable to speak. You have probably contributed to his total collapse
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and so brought the very man who you are dependent on closer to his
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death. And me, your own uncle, you leave me here in the rain--just feel
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this, I'm wet right through--waiting here for hours, sick with worry."
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Chapter Seven
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Lawyer--Manufacturer--Painter
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One winter morning--snow was falling in the dull light outside--K. was
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sitting in his office, already extremely tired despite the early hour.
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He had told the servitor he was engaged in a major piece of work and
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none of the junior staff should be allowed in to see him, so he would
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not be disturbed by them at least. But instead of working he turned
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round in his chair, slowly moved various items around his desk, but
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then, without being aware of it, he lay his arm stretched out on the
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desk top and sat there immobile with his head sunk down on his chest.
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He was no longer able to get the thought of the trial out of his head.
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He had often wondered whether it might not be a good idea to work out a
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written defence and hand it in to the court. It would contain a short
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description of his life and explain why he had acted the way he had at
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each event that was in any way important, whether he now considered he
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had acted well or ill, and his reasons for each. There was no doubt of
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the advantages a written defence of this sort would have over relying
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on the lawyer, who was anyway not without his shortcomings. K. had no
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idea what actions the lawyer was taking; it was certainly not a lot, it
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was more than a month since the lawyer had summoned him, and none of
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the previous discussions had given K. the impression that this man would
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be able to do much for him. Most importantly, he had asked him hardly
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any questions. And there were so many questions here to be asked.
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Asking questions was the most important thing. K. had the feeling that
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he would be able to ask all the questions needed here himself. The
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lawyer, in contrast, did not ask questions but did all the talking
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himself or sat silently facing him, leant forward slightly over the
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desk, probably because he was hard of hearing, pulled on a strand of
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hair in the middle of his beard and looked down at the carpet, perhaps
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at the very spot where K. had lain with Leni. Now and then he would give
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K. some vague warning of the sort you give to children. His speeches
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were as pointless as they were boring, and K. decided that when the
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final bill came he would pay not a penny for them. Once the lawyer
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thought he had humiliated K. sufficiently, he usually started something
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that would raise his spirits again. He had already, he would then say,
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won many such cases, partly or in whole, cases which may not really have
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been as difficult as this one but which, on the face of it, had even
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less hope of success. He had a list of these cases here in the
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drawer--here he would tap on one or other of the drawers in his
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desk--but could, unfortunately, not show them to K. as they dealt with
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official secrets. Nonetheless, the great experience he had acquired
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through all these cases would, of course, be of benefit to K. He had, of
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course, begun work straight away and was nearly ready to submit the
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first documents. They would be very important because the first
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impression made by the defence will often determine the whole course of
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the proceedings. Unfortunately, though, he would still have to make it
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clear to K. that the first documents submitted are sometimes not even
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read by the court. They simply put them with the other documents and
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point out that, for the time being, questioning and observing the
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accused are much more important than anything written. If the applicant
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becomes insistent, then they add that before they come to any decision,
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as soon as all the material has been brought together, with due regard,
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of course, to all the documents, then these first documents to have been
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submitted will also be checked over. But unfortunately, even this is not
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usually true, the first documents submitted are usually mislaid or lost
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completely, and even if they do keep them right to the end they are
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hardly read, although the lawyer only knew about this from rumour. This
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is all very regrettable, but not entirely without its justifications.
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But K. should not forget that the trial would not be public, if the
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court deems it necessary it can be made public but there is no law that
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says it has to be. As a result, the accused and his defence don't have
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access even to the court records, and especially not to the indictment,
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and that means we generally don't know--or at least not precisely--what
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the first documents need to be about, which means that if they do
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contain anything of relevance to the case it's only by a lucky
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coincidence. If anything about the individual charges and the reasons
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for them comes out clearly or can be guessed at while the accused is
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being questioned, then it's possible to work out and submit documents
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that really direct the issue and present proof, but not before.
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Conditions like this, of course, place the defence in a very
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unfavourable and difficult position. But that is what they intend. In
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fact, defence is not really allowed under the law, it's only tolerated,
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and there is even some dispute about whether the relevant parts of the
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law imply even that. So strictly speaking, there is no such thing as a
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counsel acknowledged by the court, and anyone who comes before this
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court as counsel is basically no more than a barrack room lawyer. The
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effect of all this, of course, is to remove the dignity of the whole
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procedure, the next time K. is in the court offices he might like to
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have a look in at the lawyers' room, just so that he's seen it. He might
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well be quite shocked by the people he sees assembled there. The room
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they've been allocated, with its narrow space and low ceiling, will be
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enough to show what contempt the court has for these people. The only
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light in the room comes through a little window that is so high up that,
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if you want to look out of it, you first have to get one of your
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colleagues to support you on his back, and even then the smoke from the
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chimney just in front of it will go up your nose and make your face
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black. In the floor of this room--to give yet another example of the
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conditions there--there is a hole that's been there for more than a
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year, it's not so big that a man could fall through, but it is big
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enough for your foot to disappear through it. The lawyers' room is on
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the second floor of the attic; if your foot does go through it will hang
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down into the first floor of the attic underneath it, and right in the
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corridor where the litigants are waiting. It's no exaggeration when
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lawyers say that conditions like that are a disgrace. Complaints to the
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management don't have the slightest effect, but the lawyers are strictly
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forbidden to alter anything in the room at their own expense. But even
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treating the lawyers in this way has its reasons. They want, as far as
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possible, to prevent any kind of defence, everything should be made the
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responsibility of the accused. Not a bad point of view, basically, but
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nothing could be more mistaken than to think from that that lawyers are
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not necessary for the accused in this court. On the contrary, there is
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no court where they are less needed than here. This is because
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proceedings are generally kept secret not only from the public but also
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from the accused. Only as far as that is possible, of course, but it is
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possible to a very large extent. And the accused doesn't get to see the
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court records either, and it's very difficult to infer what's in the
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court records from what's been said during questioning based on them,
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especially for the accused who is in a difficult situation and is faced
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with every possible worry to distract him. This is when the defence
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begins. Counsel for the defence are not normally allowed to be present
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while the accused is being questioned, so afterwards, and if possible
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still at the door of the interview room, he has to learn what he can
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about it from him and extract whatever he can that might be of use, even
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though what the accused has to report is often very confused. But that
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is not the most important thing, as there's really not a lot that can be
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learned in this way, although in this, as with anything else, a
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competent man will learn more than another. Nonetheless, the most
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important thing is the lawyer's personal connections, that's where the
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real value of taking counsel lies. Now K. will most likely have already
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learned from his own experience that, among its very lowest orders, the
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court organisation does have its imperfections, the court is strictly
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closed to the public, but staff who forget their duty or who take bribes
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do, to some extent, show where the gaps are. This is where most lawyers
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will push their way in, this is where bribes are paid and information
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extracted, there have even, in earlier times at least, been incidents
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where documents have been stolen. There's no denying that some
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surprisingly favourable results have been attained for the accused in
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this way, for a limited time, and these petty advocates then strut to
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and fro on the basis of them and attract new clients, but for the
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further course of the proceedings it signifies either nothing or nothing
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good. The only things of real value are honest personal contacts,
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contacts with higher officials, albeit higher officials of the lower
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grades, you understand. That is the only way the progress of the trial
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can be influenced, hardly noticeable at first, it's true, but from then
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on it becomes more and more visible. There are, of course, not many
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lawyers who can do this, and K. has made a very good choice in this
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matter. There were probably no more than one or two who had as many
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contacts as Dr. Huld, but they don't bother with the company of the
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lawyers' room and have nothing to do with it. This means they have all
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the less contact with the court officials. It is not at all necessary
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for Dr. Huld to go to the court, wait in the ante-rooms for the
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examining judges to turn up, if they turn up, and try to achieve
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something which, according to the judges' mood is usually more apparent
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than real and most often not even that. No, K. has seen for himself that
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the court officials, including some who are quite high up, come forward
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without being asked, are glad to give information which is fully open or
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at least easy to understand, they discuss the next stages in the
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proceedings, in fact in some cases they can be won over and are quite
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willing to adopt the other person's point of view. However, when this
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happens, you should never trust them too far, as however firmly they may
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have declared this new point of view in favour of the defendant they
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might well go straight back to their offices and write a report for the
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court that says just the opposite, and might well be even harder on the
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defendant than the original view, the one they insist they've been fully
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dissuaded from. And, of course, there's no way of defending yourself
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from this, something said in private is indeed in private and cannot
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then be used in public, it's not something that makes it easy for the
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defence to keep those gentlemen's favour. On the other hand, it's also
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true that the gentlemen don't become involved with the defence--which
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will of course be done with great expertise--just for philanthropic
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reasons or in order to be friendly, in some respects it would be truer
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to say that they, too, have it allocated to them. This is where the
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disadvantages of a court structure that, right from the start,
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stipulates that all proceedings take place in private, come into force.
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In normal, mediocre trials its officials have contact with the public,
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and they're very well equipped for it, but here they don't; normal
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trials run their course all by themselves, almost, and just need a nudge
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here and there; but when they're faced with cases that are especially
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difficult they're as lost as they often are with ones that are very
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simple; they're forced to spend all their time, day and night, with
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their laws, and so they don't have the right feel for human
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relationships, and that's a serious shortcoming in cases like this.
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That's when they come for advice to the lawyer, with a servant behind
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them carrying the documents which normally are kept so secret. You could
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have seen many gentlemen at this window, gentlemen of whom you would
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least expect it, staring out this window in despair on the street below
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while the lawyer is at his desk studying the documents so that he can
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give them good advice. And at times like that it's also possible to see
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how exceptionally seriously these gentlemen take their professions and
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how they are thrown into great confusion by difficulties which it's just
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not in their natures to overcome. But they're not in an easy position,
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to regard their positions as easy would be to do them an injustice. The
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different ranks and hierarchies of the court are endless, and even
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someone who knows his way around them cannot always tell what's going to
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happen. But even for the junior officials, the proceedings in the
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courtrooms are usually kept secret, so they are hardly able to see how
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the cases they work with proceed, court affairs appear in their range of
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vision often without their knowing where they come from and they move on
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further without their learning where they go. So civil servants like
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this are not able to learn the things you can learn from studying the
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successive stages that individual trials go through, the final verdict
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or the reasons for it. They're only allowed to deal with that part of
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the trial which the law allocates them, and they usually know less about
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the results of their work after it's left them than the defence does,
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even though the defence will usually stay in contact with the accused
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until the trial is nearly at its end, so that the court officials can
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learn many useful things from the defence. Bearing all this in mind,
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does it still surprise K. that the officials are irritated and often
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express themselves about the litigants in unflattering ways--which is an
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experience shared by everyone. All the officials are irritated, even
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when they appear calm. This causes many difficulties for the junior
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advocates, of course. There is a story, for instance, that has very much
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the ring of truth about it. It goes like this: One of the older
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officials, a good and peaceful man, was dealing with a difficult matter
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for the court which had become very confused, especially thanks to the
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contributions from the lawyers. He had been studying it for a day and a
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night without a break--as these officials are indeed hard working,
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no-one works as hard as they do. When it was nearly morning, and he had
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been working for twenty-four hours with probably very little result, he
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went to the front entrance, waited there in ambush, and every time a
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lawyer tried to enter the building he would throw him down the steps.
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The lawyers gathered together down in front of the steps and discussed
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with each other what they should do; on the one hand they had actually
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no right to be allowed into the building so that there was hardly
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anything that they could legally do to the official and, as I've already
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mentioned, they would have to be careful not to set all the officials
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against them. On the other hand, any day not spent in court is a day
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lost for them and it was a matter of some importance to force their way
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inside. In the end, they agreed that they would try to tire the old man
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out. One lawyer after another was sent out to run up the steps and let
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himself be thrown down again, offering what resistance he could as long
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as it was passive resistance, and his colleagues would catch him at the
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bottom of the steps. That went on for about an hour until the old
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gentleman, who was already exhausted from working all night, was very
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tired and went back to his office. Those who were at the bottom of the
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steps could not believe it at first, so they sent somebody out to go and
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look behind the door to see if there really was no-one there, and only
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then did they all gather together and probably didn't even dare to
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complain, as it's far from being the lawyers' job to introduce any
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improvements in the court system, or even to want to. Even the most
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junior lawyer can understand the relationship there to some extent, but
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one significant point is that almost every defendant, even very simple
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people, begins to think of suggestions for improving the court as soon
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as his proceedings have begun, many of them often even spend time and
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energy on the matter that could be spent far better elsewhere. The only
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right thing to do is to learn how to deal with the situation as it is.
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Even if it were possible to improve any detail of it--which is anyway no
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more than superstitious nonsense--the best that they could achieve,
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although doing themselves incalculable harm in the process, is that they
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will have attracted the special attention of the officials for any case
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that comes up in the future, and the officials are always ready to seek
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revenge. Never attract attention to yourself! Stay calm, however much it
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goes against your character! Try to gain some insight into the size of
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the court organism and how, to some extent, it remains in a state of
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suspension, and that even if you alter something in one place you'll
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draw the ground out from under your feet and might fall, whereas if an
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enormous organism like the court is disrupted in any one place it finds
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it easy to provide a substitute for itself somewhere else. Everything is
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connected with everything else and will continue without any change or
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else, which is quite probable, even more closed, more attentive, more
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strict, more malevolent. So it's best to leave the work to the lawyers
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and not to keep disturbing them. It doesn't do much good to make
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accusations, especially if you can't make it clear what they're based on
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and their full significance, but it must be said that K. caused a great
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deal of harm to his own case by his behaviour towards the office
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director, he was a very influential man but now he might as well be
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struck off the list of those who might do anything for K. If the trial
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is mentioned, even just in passing, it's quite obvious that he's
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ignoring it. These officials are in many ways just like children. Often,
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something quite harmless--although K.'s behaviour could unfortunately
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not be called harmless--will leave them feeling so offended that they
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will even stop talking with good friends of theirs, they turn away when
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they see them and do everything they can to oppose them. But then, with
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no particular reason, surprisingly enough, some little joke that was
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only ever attempted because everything seemed so hopeless will make them
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laugh and they'll be reconciled. It's both difficult and hard at the
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same time to deal with them, and there's hardly any reason for it. It's
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sometimes quite astonishing that a single, average life is enough to
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encompass so much that it's at all possible ever to have any success in
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one's work here. On the other hand, there are also dark moments, such as
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everyone has, when you think you've achieved nothing at all, when it
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seems that the only trials to come to a good end are those that were
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determined to have a good end from the start and would do so without any
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help, while all the others are lost despite all the running to and fro,
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all the effort, all the little, apparent successes that gave such joy.
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Then you no longer feel very sure of anything and, if asked about a
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trial that was doing well by its own nature but which was turned for the
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worse because you assisted in it, would not even dare deny that. And
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even that is a kind of self-confidence, but then it's the only one
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that's left. Lawyers are especially vulnerable to fits of depression of
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that sort--and they are no more than fits of depression of course--when
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a case is suddenly taken out of their hands after they've been
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conducting it satisfactorily for some time. That's probably the worst
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that can happen to a lawyer. It's not that the accused takes the case
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away from him, that hardly ever happens, once a defendant has taken on
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a certain lawyer he has to stay with him whatever happens. How could he
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ever carry on by himself after he's taken on help from a lawyer? No,
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that just doesn't happen, but what does sometimes happen is that the
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trial takes on a course where the lawyer may not go along with it.
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Client and trial are both simply taken away from the lawyer; and then
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even contact with the court officials won't help, however good they are,
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as they don't know anything themselves. The trial will have entered a
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stage where no more help can be given, where it's being processed in
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courts to which no-one has any access, where the defendant cannot even
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be contacted by his lawyer. You come home one day and find all the
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documents you've submitted, which you've worked hard to create and which
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you had the best hopes for, lying on the desk, they've been sent back as
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they can't be carried through to the next stage in the trial, they're
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just worthless scraps of paper. It doesn't mean that the case has been
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lost, not at all, or at least there is no decisive reason for supposing
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so, it's just that you don't know anything more about the case and won't
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be told anything of what's happening. Well, cases like that are the
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exceptions, I'm glad to say, and even if K.'s trial is one of them, it's
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still, for the time being, a long way off. But there was still plenty of
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opportunity for lawyers to get to work, and K. could be sure they would
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be made use of. As he had said, the time for submitting documents was
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still in the future and there was no rush to prepare them, it was much
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more important to start the initial discussions with the appropriate
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officials, and they had already taken place. With varying degrees of
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success, it must be said. It was much better not to give away any
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details before their time, as in that way K. could only be influenced
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unfavourably and his hopes might be raised or he might be made too
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anxious, better just to say that some individuals have spoken very
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favourably and shown themselves very willing to help, although others
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have spoken less favourably, but even they have not in any way refused
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to help. So all in all, the results are very encouraging, only you
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should certainly not draw any particular conclusions as all preliminary
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proceedings begin in the same way and it was only the way they developed
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further that would show what the value of these preliminary proceedings
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has been. Anyway, nothing has been lost yet, and if we can succeed in
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getting the office director, despite everything, on our side--and
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several actions have been undertaken to this end--then everything is a
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clean wound, as a surgeon would say, and we can wait for the results
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with some comfort.
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When he started talking on in this way the lawyer was quite tireless.
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He went through it all again every time K. went to see him. There was
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always some progress, but he could never be told what sort of progress
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it was. The first set of documents to be submitted were being worked on
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but still not ready, which usually turned out to be a great advantage
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the next time K. went to see him as the earlier occasion would have
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been a very bad time to put them in, which they could not then have
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known. If K., stupefied from all this talking, ever pointed out that
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even considering all these difficulties progress was very slow, the
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lawyer would object that progress was not slow at all, but that they
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might have progressed far further if K. had come to him at the right
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time. But he had come to him late and that lateness would bring still
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further difficulties, and not only where time was concerned. The only
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welcome interruption during these visits was always when Leni contrived
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to bring the lawyer his tea while K. was there. Then she would stand
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behind K.--pretending to watch the lawyer as he bent greedily over his
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cup, poured the tea in and drank--and secretly let K. hold her hand.
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There was always complete silence. The lawyer drank. K. squeezed Leni's
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hand and Leni would sometimes dare to gently stroke K.'s hair. "Still
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here, are you?" the lawyer would ask when he was ready. "I wanted to
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take the dishes away," said Leni, they would give each other's hands a
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final squeeze, the lawyer would wipe his mouth and then start talking at
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K. again with renewed energy.
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Was the lawyer trying to comfort K. or to confuse him? K. could not
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tell, but it seemed clear to him that his defence was not in good
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hands. Maybe everything the lawyer said was quite right, even though he
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obviously wanted to make himself as conspicuous as possible and
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probably had never even taken on a case as important as he said K.'s
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was. But it was still suspicious how he continually mentioned his
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personal contacts with the civil servants. Were they to be exploited
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solely for K.'s benefit. The lawyer never forgot to mention that they
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were dealing only with junior officials, which meant officials who were
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dependent on others, and the direction taken in each trial could be
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important for their own furtherment. Could it be that they were making
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use of the lawyer to turn trials in a certain direction, which would,
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of course, always be at the cost of the defendant. It certainly did not
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mean that they would do that in every trial, that was not likely at all,
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and there were probably also trials where they gave the lawyer
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advantages and all the room he needed to turn it in the direction he
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wanted, as it would also be to their advantage to keep his reputation
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intact. If that really was their relationship, how would they direct
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K.'s trial which, as the lawyer had explained, was especially difficult
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and therefore important enough to attract great attention from the very
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first time it came to court? There could not be much doubt about what
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they would do. The first signs of it could already be seen in the fact
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that the first documents still had not been submitted even though the
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trial had already lasted several months, and that, according to the
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lawyer, everything was still in its initial stages, which was very
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effective, of course, in making the defendant passive and keeping him
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helpless. Then he could be suddenly surprised with the verdict, or at
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least with a notification that the hearing had not decided in his favour
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and the matter would be passed on to a higher office.
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It was essential that K. take a hand in it himself. On winter's
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mornings such as this, when he was very tired and everything dragged
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itself lethargically through his head, this belief of his seemed
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irrefutable. He no longer felt the contempt for the trial that he had
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had earlier. If he had been alone in the world it would have been easy
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for him to ignore it, although it was also certain that, in that case,
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the trial would never have arisen in the first place. But now, his uncle
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had already dragged him to see the lawyer, he had to take account of his
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family; his job was no longer totally separate from the progress of the
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trial, he himself had carelessly--with a certain, inexplicable
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complacency--mentioned it to acquaintances and others had learned about
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it in ways he did not know, his relationship with Miss Bürstner seemed
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to be in trouble because of it. In short, he no longer had any choice
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whether he would accept the trial or turn it down, he was in the middle
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of it and had to defend himself. If he was tired, then that was bad.
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But there was no reason to worry too much before he needed to. He had
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been capable of working himself up to his high position in the bank in
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a relatively short time and to retain it with respect from everyone,
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now he simply had to apply some of the talents that had made that
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possible for him to the trial, and there was no doubt that it had to
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turn out well. The most important thing, if something was to be
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achieved, was to reject in advance any idea that he might be in any way
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guilty. There was no guilt. The trial was nothing but a big piece of
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business, just like he had already concluded to the benefit of the bank
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many times, a piece of business that concealed many lurking dangers
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waiting in ambush for him, as they usually did, and these dangers would
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need to be defended against. If that was to be achieved then he must not
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entertain any idea of guilt, whatever he did, he would need to look
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after his own interests as closely as he could. Seen in this way, there
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was no choice but to take his representation away from the lawyer very
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soon, at best that very evening. The lawyer had told him, as he talked
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to him, that that was something unheard of and would probably do him a
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great deal of harm, but K. could not tolerate any impediment to his
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efforts where his trial was concerned, and these impediments were
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probably caused by the lawyer himself. But once he had shaken off the
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lawyer the documents would need to be submitted straight away and, if
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possible, he would need to see to it that they were being dealt with
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every day. It would of course not be enough, if that was to be done, for
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K. to sit in the corridor with his hat under the bench like the others.
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Day after day, he himself, or one of the women or somebody else on his
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behalf, would have to run after the officials and force them to sit at
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their desks and study K.'s documents instead of looking out on the
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corridor through the grating. There could be no let-up in these efforts,
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everything would need to be organised and supervised, it was about time
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that the court came up against a defendant who knew how to defend and
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make use of his rights.
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But when K. had the confidence to try and do all this the difficulty of
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composing the documents was too much for him. Earlier, just a week or
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so before, he could only have felt shame at the thought of being made
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to write out such documents himself; it had never entered his head that
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the task could also be difficult. He remembered one morning when,
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already piled up with work, he suddenly shoved everything to one side
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and took a pad of paper on which he sketched out some of his thoughts on
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how documents of this sort should proceed. Perhaps he would offer them
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to that slow-witted lawyer, but just then the door of the manager's
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office opened and the deputy director entered the room with a loud
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laugh. K. was very embarrassed, although the deputy director, of
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course, was not laughing at K.'s documents, which he knew nothing about,
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but at a joke he had just heard about the stock-exchange, a joke which
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needed an illustration if it was to be understood, and now the
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deputy director leant over K.'s desk, took his pencil from his hand,
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and drew the illustration on the writing pad that K. had intended for
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his ideas about his case.
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K. now had no more thoughts of shame, the documents had to be prepared
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and submitted. If, as was very likely, he could find no time to do it
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in the office he would have to do it at home at night. If the nights
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weren't enough he would have to take a holiday. Above all, he could not
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stop half way, that was nonsense not only in business but always and
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everywhere. Needless to say, the documents would mean an almost endless
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amount of work. It was easy to come to the belief, not only for those
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of an anxious disposition, that it was impossible ever to finish it.
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This was not because of laziness or deceit, which were the only things
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that might have hindered the lawyer in preparing it, but because he did
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not know what the charge was or even what consequences it might bring,
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so that he had to remember every tiny action and event from the whole
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of his life, looking at them from all sides and checking and
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reconsidering them. It was also a very disheartening job. It would have
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been more suitable as a way of passing the long days after he had
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retired and become senile. But now, just when K. needed to apply all his
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thoughts to his work, when he was still rising and already posed a
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threat to the deputy director, when every hour passed so quickly and he
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wanted to enjoy the brief evenings and nights as a young man, this was
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the time he had to start working out these documents. Once more, he
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began to feel resentment. Almost involuntarily, only to put an end to
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it, his finger felt for the button of the electric bell in the
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ante-room. As he pressed it he glanced up to the clock. It was eleven
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o'clock, two hours, he had spent a great deal of his costly time just
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dreaming and his wits were, of course, even more dulled than they had
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been before. But the time had, nonetheless, not been wasted, he had come
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to some decisions that could be of value. As well as various pieces of
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mail, the servitors brought two visiting cards from gentlemen who had
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already been waiting for K. for some time. They were actually very
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important clients of the bank who should not really have been kept
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waiting under any circumstances. Why had they come at such an awkward
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time, and why, the gentlemen on the other side of the closed door seemed
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to be asking, was the industrious K. using up the best business time for
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his private affairs? Tired from what had gone before, and tired in
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anticipation of what was to follow, K. stood up to receive the first of
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them.
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He was a short, jolly man, a manufacturer who K. knew well. He
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apologised for disturbing K. at some important work, and K., for his
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part, apologised for having kept the manufacturer waiting for so long.
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But even this apology was spoken in such a mechanical way and with such
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false intonation that the manufacturer would certainly have noticed if
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he had not been fully preoccupied with his business affairs. Instead,
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he hurriedly pulled calculations and tables out from all his pockets,
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spread them out in front of K., explained several items, corrected a
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little mistake in the arithmetic that he noticed as he quickly glanced
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over it all, and reminded K. of a similar piece of business he'd
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concluded with him about a year before, mentioning in passing that this
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time there was another bank spending great effort to get his business,
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and finally stopped speaking in order to learn K.'s opinion on the
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matter. And K. had indeed, at first, been closely following what the
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manufacturer was saying, he too was aware of how important the deal
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was, but unfortunately it did not last, he soon stopped listening,
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nodded at each of the manufacturer's louder exclamations for a short
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while, but eventually he stopped doing even that and did no more than
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stare at the bald head bent over the papers, asking himself when the
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manufacturer would finally realise that everything he was saying was
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useless. When he did stop talking, K. really thought at first that this
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was so that he would have the chance to confess that he was incapable of
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listening. Instead, seeing the anticipation on the manufacturer's face,
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obviously ready to counter any objections made, he was sorry to realise
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that the business discussion had to be continued. So he bent his head as
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if he'd been given an order and began slowly to move his pencil over the
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papers, now and then he would stop and stare at one of the figures. The
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manufacturer thought there must be some objection, perhaps his figures
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weren't really sound, perhaps they weren't the decisive issue, whatever
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he thought, the manufacturer covered the papers with his hand and began
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once again, moving very close to K., to explain what the deal was all
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about. "It is difficult," said K., pursing his lips. The only thing
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that could offer him any guidance were the papers, and the manufacturer
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had covered them from his view, so he just sank back against the arm of
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the chair. Even when the door of the manager's office opened and
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revealed not very clearly, as if through a veil, the deputy director, he
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did no more than look up weakly. K. thought no more about the matter, he
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merely watched the immediate effect of the deputy director's appearance
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and, for him, the effect was very pleasing; the manufacturer
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immediately jumped up from his seat and hurried over to meet the deputy
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director, although K. would have liked to make him ten times livelier as
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he feared the deputy director might disappear again. He need not have
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worried, the two gentlemen met each other, shook each other's hand and
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went together over to K.'s desk. The manufacturer said he was sorry to
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find the chief clerk so little inclined to do business, pointing to K.
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who, under the view of the deputy director, had bent back down over the
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papers. As the two men leant over the desk and the manufacturer made
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some effort to gain and keep the deputy director's attention, K. felt as
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if they were much bigger than they really were and that their
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negotiations were about him. Carefully and slowly turning his eyes
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upwards, he tried to learn what was taking place above him, took one of
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the papers from his desk without looking to see what it was, lay it on
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the flat of his hand and raised it slowly up as he rose up to the level
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of the two men himself. He had no particular plan in mind as he did
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this, but merely felt this was how he would act if only he had finished
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preparing that great document that was to remove his burden entirely.
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The deputy director had been paying all his attention to the
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conversation and did no more than glance at the paper, he did not read
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what was written on it at all as what was important for the chief clerk
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was not important for him, he took it from K.'s hand saying, "Thank you,
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I'm already familiar with everything," and laid it calmly back on the
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desk. K. gave him a bitter, sideways look. But the deputy director did
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not notice this at all, or if he did notice it it only raised his
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spirits, he frequently laughed out loud, one time he clearly embarrassed
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the manufacturer when he raised an objection in a witty way but drew him
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immediately back out of his embarrassment by commenting adversely on
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himself, and finally invited him into his office where they could bring
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the matter to its conclusion. "It's a very important matter," said the
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manufacturer. "I understand that completely. And I'm sure the chief
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clerk ..."--even as he said this he was actually speaking only to the
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manufacturer--"will be very glad to have us take it off his hands. This
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is something that needs calm consideration. But he seems to be
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over-burdened today, there are even some people in the room outside
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who've been waiting there for hours for him." K. still had enough
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control of himself to turn away from the deputy director and direct his
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friendly, albeit stiff, smile only at the manufacturer, he made no other
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retaliation, bent down slightly and supported himself with both hands on
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his desk like a clerk, and watched as the two gentlemen, still talking,
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took the papers from his desk and disappeared into the manager's office.
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In the doorway, the manufacturer turned and said he wouldn't make his
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farewell with K. just yet, he would of course let the chief clerk know
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about the success of his discussions but he also had a little something
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to tell him about.
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At last, K. was by himself. It did not enter his head to show anyone
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else into his office and only became vaguely aware of how nice it was
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that the people outside thought he was still negotiating with the
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manufacturer and, for this reason, he could not let anyone in to see
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him, not even the servitor. He went over to the window, sat down on the
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ledge beside it, held firmly on to the handle and looked down onto the
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square outside. The snow was still falling, the weather still had not
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brightened up at all.
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He remained a long time sitting in this way, not knowing what it
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actually was that made him so anxious, only occasionally did he glance,
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slightly startled, over his shoulder at the door to the outer room
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where, mistakenly, he thought he'd heard some noise. No-one came, and
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that made him feel calmer, he went over to the wash stand, rinsed his
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face with cold water and, his head somewhat clearer, went back to his
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place by the window. The decision to take his defence into his own
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hands now seemed more of a burden than he had originally assumed. All
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the while he had left his defence up to the lawyer his trial had had
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little basic affect on him, he had observed it from afar as something
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that was scarcely able to reach him directly, when it suited him he
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looked to see how things stood but he was also able to draw his head
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back again whenever he wanted. Now, in contrast, if he was to conduct
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his defence himself, he would have to devote himself entirely to the
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court--for the time being, at least--success would mean, later on, his
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complete and conclusive liberation, but if he was to achieve this he
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would have to place himself, to start with, in far greater danger than
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he had been in so far. If he ever felt tempted to doubt this, then his
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experience with the deputy director and the manufacturer that day would
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be quite enough to convince him of it. How could he have sat there
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totally convinced of the need to do his own defence? How would it be
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later? What would his life be like in the days ahead? Would he find the
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way through it all to a happy conclusion? Did a carefully worked out
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defence--and any other sort would have made no sense--did a carefully
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worked out defence not also mean he would need to shut himself off from
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everything else as much as he could? Would he survive that? And how was
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he to succeed in conducting all this at the bank? It involved much more
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than just submitting some documents that he could probably prepare in a
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few days' leave, although it would have been great temerity to ask for
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time off from the bank just at that time, it was a whole trial and there
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was no way of seeing how long it might last. This was an enormous
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difficulty that had suddenly been thrown into K.'s life!
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And was he supposed to be doing the bank's work at a time like this? He
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looked down at his desk. Was he supposed to let people in to see him
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and go into negotiations with them at a time like this? While his trial
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trundled on, while the court officials upstairs in the attic room sat
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looking at the papers for this trial, should he be worrying about the
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business of the bank? Did this not seem like a kind of torture,
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acknowledged by the court, connected with the trial and which followed
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him around? And is it likely that anyone in the bank, when judging his
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work, would take any account of his peculiar situation? No-one and
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never. There were those who knew about his trial, although it was not
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quite clear who knew about it or how much. But he hoped rumours had not
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reached as far as the deputy director, otherwise he would obviously
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soon find a way of making use of it to harm K., he would show neither
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comradeship nor humaneness. And what about the director? It was true
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that he was well disposed towards K., and as soon as he heard about the
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trial he would probably try to do everything he could to make it easier
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for him, but he would certainly not devote himself to it. K. at one
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time had provided the counter-balance to what the deputy director said
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but the director was now coming more and more under his influence, and
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the deputy director would also exploit the weakened condition of the
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director to strengthen his own power. So what could K. hope for? Maybe
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considerations of this sort weakened his power of resistance, but it
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was still necessary not to deceive oneself and to see everything as
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clearly as it could be seen at that moment.
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For no particular reason, just to avoiding returning to his desk for a
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while, he opened the window. It was difficult to open and he had to
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turn the handle with both his hands. Then, through the whole height and
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breadth of the window, the mixture of fog and smoke was drawn into the
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room, filling it with a slight smell of burning. A few flakes of snow
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were blown in with it. "It's a horrible autumn," said the manufacturer,
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who had come into the room unnoticed after seeing the deputy director
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and now stood behind K. K. nodded and looked uneasily at the
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manufacturer's briefcase, from which he would now probably take the
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papers and inform K. of the result of his negotiations with the deputy
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director. However, the manufacturer saw where K. was looking, knocked
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on his briefcase and without opening it said, "You'll be wanting to
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hear how things turned out. I've already got the contract in my pocket,
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almost. He's a charming man, your deputy director--he's got his
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dangers, though." He laughed as he shook K.'s hand and wanted to make
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him laugh with him. But to K., it once more seemed suspicious that the
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manufacturer did not want to show him the papers and saw nothing about
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his comments to laugh at. "Chief clerk," said the manufacturer, "I
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expect the weather's been affecting your mood, has it? You're looking
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so worried today." "Yes," said K., raising his hand and holding the
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temple of his head, "headaches, worries in the family." "Quite right,"
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said the manufacturer, who was always in a hurry and could never listen
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to anyone for very long, "everyone has his cross to bear." K. had
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unconsciously made a step towards the door as if wanting to show the
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manufacturer out, but the manufacturer said, "Chief clerk, there's
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something else I'd like to mention to you. I'm very sorry if it's
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something that'll be a burden to you today of all days but I've been to
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see you twice already, lately, and each time I forgot all about it. If I
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delay it any longer it might well lose its point altogether. That would
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be a pity, as I think what I've got to say does have some value." Before
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K. had had the time to answer, the manufacturer came up close to him,
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tapped his knuckle lightly on his chest and said quietly, "You've got a
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trial going on, haven't you?" K. stepped back and immediately exclaimed,
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"That's what the deputy director's been telling you!" "No, no," said
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the manufacturer, "how would the deputy director know about it?" "And
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what about you?" asked K., already more in control of himself. "I hear
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things about the court here and there," said the manufacturer, "and that
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even applies to what it is that I wanted to tell you about." "There are
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so many people who have connections with the court!" said K. with
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lowered head, and he led the manufacturer over to his desk. They sat
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down where they had been before, and the manufacturer said, "I'm afraid
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it's not very much that I've got to tell you about. Only, in matters
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like this, it's best not to overlook the tiniest details. Besides, I
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really want to help you in some way, however modest my help might be.
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We've been good business partners up till now, haven't we? Well then."
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K. wanted to apologise for his behaviour in the conversation earlier
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that day, but the manufacturer would tolerate no interruption, shoved
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his briefcase up high in his armpit to show that he was in a hurry, and
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carried on. "I know about your case through a certain Titorelli. He's a
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painter, Titorelli's just his artistic name, I don't even know what his
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real name is. He's been coming to me in my office for years from time to
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time, and brings little pictures with him which I buy more or less just
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for the sake of charity as he's hardly more than a beggar. And they're
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nice pictures, too, moorland landscapes and that sort of thing. We'd
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both got used to doing business in this way and it always went smoothly.
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Only, one time these visits became a bit too frequent, I began to tell
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him off for it, we started talking and I became interested how it was
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that he could earn a living just by painting, and then I learned to my
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amazement that his main source of income was painting portraits. 'I work
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for the court,' he said, 'what court?' said I. And that's when he told
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me about the court. I'm sure you can imagine how amazed I was at being
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told all this. Ever since then I learn something new about the court
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every time he comes to visit, and so little by little I get to
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understand something of how it works. Anyway, Titorelli talks a lot and
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I often have to push him away, not only because he's bound to be lying
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but also, most of all, because a businessman like me who's already close
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to breaking point under the weight of his own business worries can't pay
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too much attention to other people's. But all that's just by the by.
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Perhaps--this is what I've been thinking--perhaps Titorelli might be
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able to help you in some small way, he knows lots of judges and even if
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he can't have much influence himself he can give you some advice about
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how to get some influential people on your side. And even if this
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advice doesn't turn out to make all the difference I still think it'll
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be very important once you've got it. You're nearly a lawyer yourself.
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That's what I always say, Mr. K. the chief clerk is nearly a lawyer. Oh
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I'm sure this trial of yours will turn out all right. So do you want to
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go and see Titorelli, then. If I ask him to he'll certainly do
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everything he possibly can. I really do think you ought to go. It
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needn't be today, of course, just some time, when you get the chance.
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And anyway--I want to tell you this too--you don't actually have to go
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and see Titorelli, this advice from me doesn't place you under any
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obligation at all. No, if you think you can get by without Titorelli
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it'll certainly be better to leave him completely out of it. Maybe
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you've already got a clear idea of what you're doing and Titorelli could
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upset your plans. No, if that's the case then of course you shouldn't go
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there under any circumstances! And it certainly won't be easy to take
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advice from a lad like that. Still, it's up to you. Here's the letter of
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recommendation and here's the address."
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Disappointed, K. took the letter and put it in his pocket. Even at
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best, the advantage he might derive from this recommendation was
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incomparably smaller than the damage that lay in the fact of the
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manufacturer knowing about his trial, and that the painter was spreading
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the news about. It was all he could manage to give the manufacturer, who
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was already on his way to the door, a few words of thanks. "I'll go
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there," he said as he took his leave of the manufacturer at the door,
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"or, as I'm very busy at present, I'll write to him, perhaps he would
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like to come to me in my office some time." "I was sure you'd find the
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best solution," said the manufacturer. "Although I had thought you'd
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prefer to avoid inviting people like this Titorelli to the bank and
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talking about the trial here. And it's not always a good idea to send
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letters to people like Titorelli, you don't know what might happen to
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them. But you're bound to have thought everything through and you know
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what you can and can't do." K. nodded and accompanied the manufacturer
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on through the ante-room. But despite seeming calm on the outside he was
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actually very shocked; he had told the manufacturer he would write to
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Titorelli only to show him in some way that he valued his
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recommendations and would consider the opportunity to speak with
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Titorelli without delay, but if he had thought Titorelli could offer any
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worthwhile assistance he would not have delayed. But it was only the
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manufacturer's comment that made K. realise what dangers that could lead
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to. Was he really able to rely on his own understanding so little? If it
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was possible that he might invite a questionable character into the bank
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with a clear letter, and ask advice from him about his trial, separated
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from the deputy director by no more than a door, was it not possible or
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even very likely that there were also other dangers he had failed to see
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or that he was even running towards? There was not always someone
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beside him to warn him. And just now, just when he would have to act
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with all the strength he could muster, now a number of doubts of a sort
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he had never before known had presented themselves and affected his own
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vigilance! The difficulties he had been feeling in carrying out his
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office work; were they now going to affect the trial too? Now, at least,
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he found himself quite unable to understand how he could have intended
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to write to Titorelli and invite him into the bank.
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He shook his head at the thought of it once more as the servitor came
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up beside him and drew his attention to the three gentlemen who were
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waiting on a bench in the ante-room. They had already been waiting to
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see K. for a long time. Now that the servitor was speaking with K. they
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had stood up and each of them wanted to make use of the opportunity to
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see K. before the others. It had been negligent of the bank to let them
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waste their time here in the waiting room, but none of them wanted to
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draw attention to this. "Mr. K., ..." one of them was saying, but K.
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had told the servitor to fetch his winter coat and said to the three of
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them, as the servitor helped him to put it on, "Please forgive me,
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gentlemen, I'm afraid I have no time to see you at present. Please do
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forgive me but I have some urgent business to settle and have to leave
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straight away. You've already seen yourselves how long I've been
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delayed. Would you be so kind as to come back tomorrow or some time? Or
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perhaps we could settle your affairs by telephone. Or perhaps you would
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like to tell me now, briefly, what it's about and I can then give you a
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full answer in writing. Whatever, the best thing will be for you to
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come here again." The gentlemen now saw that their wait had been
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totally pointless, and these suggestions of K.'s left them so astounded
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that they looked at each other without a word. "That's agreed then, is
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it?" asked K., who had turned toward the servitor bringing him his hat.
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Through the open door of K.'s office they could see that the snowfall
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outside had become much heavier. So K. turned the collar of his coat up
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and buttoned it up high under his chin. Just then the deputy director
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came out of the adjoining room, smiled as he saw K. negotiating with
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the gentlemen in his winter coat, and asked, "Are you about to go out?"
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"Yes," said K., standing more upright, "I have to go out on some
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business." But the deputy director had already turned towards the
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gentlemen. "And what about these gentlemen?" he asked. "I think they've
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already been waiting quite a long time." "We've already come to an
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understanding," said K. But now the gentlemen could be held back no
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longer, they surrounded K. and explained that they would not have been
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waiting for hours if it had not been about something important that had
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to be discussed now, at length and in private. The deputy director
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listened to them for a short while, he also looked at K. as he held his
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hat in his hand cleaning the dust off it here and there, and then he
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said, "Gentlemen, there is a very simple way to solve this. If you
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would prefer it, I'll be very glad to take over these negotiations
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instead of the chief clerk. Your business does, of course, need to be
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discussed without delay. We are businessmen like yourselves and know the
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value of a businessman's time. Would you like to come this way?" And he
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opened the door leading to the ante-room of his own office.
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The deputy director seemed very good at appropriating everything that
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K. was now forced to give up! But was K. not giving up more than he
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absolutely had to? By running off to some unknown painter, with, as he
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had to admit, very little hope of any vague benefit, his renown was
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suffering damage that could not be repaired. It would probably be much
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better to take off his winter coat again and, at the very least, try to
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win back the two gentlemen who were certainly still waiting in the next
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room. If K. had not then glimpsed the deputy director in his office,
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looking for something from his bookshelves as if they were his own, he
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would probably even have made the attempt. As K., somewhat agitated,
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approached the door the deputy director called out, "Oh, you've still
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not left!" He turned his face toward him--its many deep folds seemed to
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show strength rather than age--and immediately began once more to
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search. "I'm looking for a copy of a contract," he said, "which this
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gentleman insists you must have. Could you help me look for it, do you
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think?" K. made a step forward, but the deputy director said, "thank
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you, I've already found it," and with a big package of papers, which
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certainly must have included many more documents than just the copy of
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the contract, he turned and went back into his own office.
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"I can't deal with him right now," K. said to himself, "but once my
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personal difficulties have been settled, then he'll certainly be the
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first to get the effect of it, and he certainly won't like it."
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Slightly calmed by these thoughts, K. gave the servitor, who had already
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long been holding the door to the corridor open for him, the task of
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telling the director, when he was able, that K. was going out of the
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bank on a business matter. As he left the bank he felt almost happy at
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the thought of being able to devote more of himself to his own business
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for a while.
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He went straight to the painter, who lived in an outlying part of town
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which was very near to the court offices, although this area was even
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poorer, the houses were darker, the streets were full of dirt that
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slowly blew about over the half-melted snow. In the great gateway to
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the building where the painter lived only one of the two doors was open,
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a hole had been broken open in the wall by the other door, and as K.
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approached it a repulsive, yellow, steaming liquid shot out causing
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some rats to scurry away into the nearby canal. Down by the staircase
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there was a small child lying on its belly crying, but it could hardly
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be heard because of the noise from a metal-workshop on the other side
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of the entrance hall, drowning out any other sound. The door to the
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workshop was open, three workers stood in a circle around some piece of
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work that they were beating with hammers. A large tin plate hung on the
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wall, casting a pale light that pushed its way in between two of the
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workers, lighting up their faces and their work-aprons. K. did no more
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than glance at any of these things, he wanted to get things over with
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here as soon as possible, to exchange just a few words to find out how
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things stood with the painter and go straight back to the bank. Even if
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he had just some tiny success here it would still have a good effect on
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his work at the bank for that day. On the third floor he had to slow
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down his pace, he was quite out of breath--the steps, just like the
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height of each floor, were much higher than they needed to be and he'd
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been told that the painter lived right up in the attic. The air was
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also quite oppressive, there was no proper stairwell and the narrow
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steps were closed in by walls on both sides with no more than a small,
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high window here and there. Just as K. paused for a while some young
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girls ran out of one of the flats and rushed higher up the stairs,
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laughing. K. followed them slowly, caught up with one of the girls who
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had stumbled and been left behind by the others, and asked her as they
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went up side by side, "Is there a painter, Titorelli, who lives here?"
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The girl, hardly thirteen years old and somewhat hunchbacked, jabbed
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him with her elbow and looked at him sideways. Her youth and her bodily
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defects had done nothing to stop her being already quite depraved. She
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did not smile once, but looked at K. earnestly, with sharp, acquisitive
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eyes. K. pretended not to notice her behaviour and asked, "Do you know
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Titorelli, the painter?" She nodded and asked in reply, "What d'you
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want to see him for?" K. thought it would be to his advantage quickly to
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find out something more about Titorelli. "I want to have him paint my
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portrait," he said. "Paint your portrait?" she asked, opening her mouth
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too wide and lightly hitting K. with her hand as if he had said
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something extraordinarily surprising or clumsy, with both hands she
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lifted her skirt, which was already very short, and, as fast as she
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could, she ran off after the other girls whose indistinct shouts lost
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themselves in the heights. At the next turn of the stairs, however, K.
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encountered all the girls once more. The hunchbacked girl had clearly
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told them about K.'s intentions and they were waiting for him. They
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stood on both sides of the stairs, pressing themselves against the wall
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so that K. could get through between them, and smoothed their aprons
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down with their hands. All their faces, even in this guard of honour,
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showed a mixture of childishness and depravity. Up at the head of the
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line of girls, who now, laughing, began to close in around K., was the
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hunchback who had taken on the role of leader. It was thanks to her
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that K. found the right direction without delay--he would have continued
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up the stairs straight in front of him, but she showed him that to
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reach Titorelli he would need to turn off to one side. The steps that
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led up to the painter were especially narrow, very long without any
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turning, the whole length could be seen in one glance and, at the top,
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at Titorelli's closed door, it came to its end. This door was much
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better illuminated than the rest of the stairway by the light from a
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small skylight set obliquely above it, it had been put together from
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unpainted planks of wood and the name 'Titorelli' was painted on it in
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broad, red brushstrokes. K. was no more than half way up the steps,
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accompanied by his retinue of girls, when, clearly the result of the
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noise of all those footsteps, the door opened slightly and in the crack
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a man who seemed to be dressed in just his nightshirt appeared. "Oh!" he
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cried, when he saw the approaching crowd, and vanished. The hunchbacked
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girl clapped her hands in glee and the other girls crowded in behind K.
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to push him faster forward.
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They still had not arrived at the top, however, when the painter up
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above them suddenly pulled the door wide open and, with a deep bow,
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invited K. to enter. The girls, on the other hand, he tried to keep
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away, he did not want to let any of them in however much they begged
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him and however much they tried to get in--if they could not get in with
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his permission they would try to force their way in against his will.
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The only one to succeed was the hunchback when she slipped through under
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his outstretched arm, but the painter chased after her, grabbed her by
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the skirt, span her once round and set her down again by the door with
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the other girls who, unlike the first, had not dared to cross the
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doorstep while the painter had left his post. K. did not know what he
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was to make of all this, as they all seemed to be having fun. One behind
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the other, the girls by the door stretched their necks up high and
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called out various words to the painter which were meant in jest but
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which K. did not understand, and even the painter laughed as the
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hunchback whirled round in his hand. Then he shut the door, bowed once
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more to K., offered him his hand and introduced himself, saying,
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"Titorelli, painter." K. pointed to the door, behind which the girls
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were whispering, and said, "You seem to be very popular in this
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building." "Ach, those brats!" said the painter, trying in vain to
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fasten his nightshirt at the neck. He was also bare-footed and, apart
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from that, was wearing nothing more than a loose pair of yellowish linen
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trousers held up with a belt whose free end whipped to and fro. "Those
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kids are a real burden for me," he continued. The top button of his
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nightshirt came off and he gave up trying to fasten it, fetched a chair
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for K. and made him sit down on it. "I painted one of them once--she's
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not here today--and ever since then they've been following me about. If
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I'm here they only come in when I allow it, but as soon as I've gone out
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there's always at least one of them in here. They had a key made to my
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door and lend it round to each other. It's hard to imagine what a pain
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that is. Suppose I come back home with a lady I'm going to paint, I open
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the door with my own key and find the hunchback there or something, by
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the table painting her lips red with my paintbrush, and meanwhile her
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little sisters will be keeping guard for her, moving about and causing
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chaos in every corner of the room. Or else, like happened yesterday, I
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might come back home late in the evening--please forgive my appearance
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and the room being in a mess, it is to do with them--so, I might come
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home late in the evening and want to go to bed, then I feel something
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pinching my leg, look under the bed and pull another of them out from
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under it. I don't know why it is they bother me like this, I expect
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you've just seen that I do nothing to encourage them to come near me.
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And they make it hard for me to do my work too, of course. If I didn't
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get this studio for nothing I'd have moved out a long time ago." Just
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then, a little voice, tender and anxious, called out from under the
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door, "Titorelli, can we come in now?" "No," answered the painter. "Not
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even just me, by myself?" the voice asked again. "Not even just you,"
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said the painter, as he went to the door and locked it.
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Meanwhile, K. had been looking round the room, if it had not been
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pointed out it would never have occurred to him that this wretched
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little room could be called a studio. It was hardly long enough or
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broad enough to make two steps. Everything, floor, walls and ceiling,
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was made of wood, between the planks narrow gaps could be seen. Across
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from where K. was, the bed stood against the wall under a covering of
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many different colours. In the middle of the room a picture stood on an
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easel, covered over with a shirt whose arms dangled down to the ground.
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Behind K. was the window through which the fog made it impossible to
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see further than the snow covered roof of the neighbouring building.
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The turning of the key in the lock reminded K. that he had not wanted
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to stay too long. So he drew the manufacturer's letter out from his
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pocket, held it out to the painter and said, "I learned about you from
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this gentleman, an acquaintance of yours, and it's on his advice that
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I've come here." The painter glanced through the letter and threw it
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down onto the bed. If the manufacturer had not said very clearly that
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Titorelli was an acquaintance of his, a poor man who was dependent on
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his charity, then it would really have been quite possible to believe
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that Titorelli did not know him or at least that he could not remember
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him. This impression was augmented by the painter's asking, "Were you
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wanting to buy some pictures or did you want to have yourself painted?"
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K. looked at the painter in astonishment. What did the letter actually
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say? K. had taken it as a matter of course that the manufacturer had
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explained to the painter in his letter that K. wanted nothing more with
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him than to find out more about his trial. He had been far too rash in
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coming here! But now he had to give the painter some sort of answer
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and, glancing at the easel, said, "Are you working on a picture
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currently?" "Yes," said the painter, and he took the shirt hanging over
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the easel and threw it onto the bed after the letter. "It's a portrait.
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Quite a good piece of work, although it's not quite finished yet." This
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was a convenient coincidence for K., it gave him a good opportunity to
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talk about the court as the picture showed, very clearly, a judge.
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What's more, it was remarkably similar to the picture in the lawyer's
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office, although this one showed a quite different judge, a heavy man
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with a full beard which was black and bushy and extended to the sides
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far up the man's cheeks. The lawyer's picture was also an oil painting,
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whereas this one had been made with pastel colours and was pale and
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unclear. But everything else about the picture was similar, as this
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judge, too, was holding tightly to the arm of his throne and seemed
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ominously about to rise from it. At first K. was about to say, "He
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certainly is a judge," but he held himself back for the time being and
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went closer to the picture as if he wanted to study it in detail. There
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was a large figure shown in the middle of the throne's back rest which
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K. could not understand and asked the painter about it. That'll need
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some more work done on it, the painter told him, and taking a pastel
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crayon from a small table he added a few strokes to the edges of the
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figure but without making it any clearer as far as K. could make out.
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"That's the figure of justice," said the painter, finally. "Now I see,"
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said K., "here's the blindfold and here are the scales. But aren't those
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wings on her heels, and isn't she moving?" "Yes," said the painter, "I
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had to paint it like that according to the contract. It's actually the
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figure of justice and the goddess of victory all in one." "That is not a
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good combination," said K. with a smile. "Justice needs to remain
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still, otherwise the scales will move about and it won't be possible to
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make a just verdict." "I'm just doing what the client wanted," said the
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painter. "Yes, certainly," said K., who had not meant to criticise
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anyone by that comment. "You've painted the figure as it actually
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appears on the throne." "No," said the painter, "I've never seen that
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figure or that throne, it's all just invention, but they told me what
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it was I had to paint." "How's that?" asked K. pretending not fully to
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understand what the painter said. "That is a judge sitting on the
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judge's chair, isn't it?" "Yes," said the painter, "but that judge
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isn't very high up and he's never sat on any throne like that." "And he
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has himself painted in such a grand pose. He's sitting there just like
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the president of the court." "Yeah, gentlemen like this are very vain,"
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said the painter. "But they have permission from higher up to get
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themselves painted like this. It's laid down quite strictly just what
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sort of portrait each of them can get for himself. Only it's a pity that
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you can't make out the details of his costume and pose in this picture,
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pastel colours aren't really suitable for showing people like this."
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"Yes," said K., "it does seem odd that it's in pastel colours." "That's
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what the judge wanted," said the painter, "it's meant to be for a
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woman." The sight of the picture seemed to make him feel like working,
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he rolled up his shirtsleeves, picked up a few of the crayons, and K.
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watched as a reddish shadow built up around the head of the judge under
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their quivering tips and radiated out the to edges of the picture. This
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shadow play slowly surrounded the head like a decoration or lofty
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distinction. But around the figure of Justice, apart from some
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coloration that was barely noticeable, it remained light, and in this
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brightness the figure seemed to shine forward so that it now looked
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like neither the God of Justice nor the God of Victory, it seemed now,
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rather, to be a perfect depiction of the God of the Hunt. K. found the
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painter's work more engrossing than he had wanted; but finally he
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reproached himself for staying so long without having done anything
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relevant to his own affair. "What's the name of this judge?" he asked
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suddenly. "I'm not allowed to tell you that," the painter answered. He
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was bent deeply over the picture and clearly neglecting his guest who,
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at first, he had received with such care. K. took this to be just a
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foible of the painter's, and it irritated him as it made him lose time.
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"I take it you must be a trustee of the court," he said. The painter
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immediately put his crayons down, stood upright, rubbed his hands
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together and looked at K. with a smile. "Always straight out with the
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truth," he said. "You want to learn something about the court, like it
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says in your letter of recommendation, but then you start talking about
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my pictures to get me on your side. Still, I won't hold it against you,
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you weren't to know that that was entirely the wrong thing to try with
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me. Oh, please!" he said sharply, repelling K.'s attempt to make some
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objection. He then continued, "And besides, you're quite right in your
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comment that I'm a trustee of the court." He made a pause, as if
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wanting to give K. the time to come to terms with this fact. The girls
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could once more be heard from behind the door. They were probably
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pressed around the keyhole, perhaps they could even see into the room
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through the gaps in the planks. K. forewent the opportunity to excuse
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himself in some way as he did not wish to distract the painter from what
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he was saying, or else perhaps he didn't want him to get too far above
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himself and in this way make himself to some extent unattainable, so he
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asked, "Is that a publicly acknowledged position?" "No," was the
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painter's curt reply, as if the question prevented him saying any more.
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But K. wanted him to continue speaking and said, "Well, positions like
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that, that aren't officially acknowledged, can often have more influence
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than those that are." "And that's how it is with me," said the painter,
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and nodded with a frown. "I was talking about your case with the
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manufacturer yesterday, and he asked me if I wouldn't like to help you,
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and I answered: 'He can come and see me if he likes,' and now I'm
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pleased to see you here so soon. This business seems to be quite
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important to you, and, of course, I'm not surprised at that. Would you
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not like to take your coat off now?" K. had intended to stay for only a
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very short time, but the painter's invitation was nonetheless very
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welcome. The air in the room had slowly become quite oppressive for him,
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he had several times looked in amazement at a small, iron stove in the
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corner that certainly could not have been lit, the heat of the room was
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inexplicable. As he took off his winter overcoat and also unbuttoned
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his frock coat the painter said to him in apology, "I must have warmth.
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And it is very cosy here, isn't it. This room's very good in that
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respect." K. made no reply, but it was actually not the heat that made
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him uncomfortable but, much more, the stuffiness, the air that almost
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made it more difficult to breathe, the room had probably not been
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ventilated for a long time. The unpleasantness of this was made all the
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stronger for K. when the painter invited him to sit on the bed while he
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himself sat down on the only chair in the room in front of the easel.
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The painter even seemed to misunderstand why K. remained at the edge of
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the bed and urged K. to make himself comfortable, and as he hesitated
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he went over to the bed himself and pressed K. deep down into the
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bedclothes and pillows. Then he went back to his seat and at last he
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asked his first objective question, which made K. forget everything
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else. "You're innocent, are you?" he asked. "Yes," said K. He felt a
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simple joy at answering this question, especially as the answer was
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given to a private individual and therefore would have no consequences.
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Up till then no-one had asked him this question so openly. To make the
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most of his pleasure he added, "I am totally innocent." "So," said the
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painter, and he lowered his head and seemed to be thinking. Suddenly he
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raised his head again and said, "Well if you're innocent it's all very
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simple." K. began to scowl, this supposed trustee of the court was
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talking like an ignorant child. "My being innocent does not make things
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simple," said K. Despite everything, he couldn't help smiling and
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slowly shook his head. "There are many fine details in which the court
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gets lost, but in the end it reaches into some place where originally
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there was nothing and pulls enormous guilt out of it." "Yeah, yeah,
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sure," said the painter, as if K. had been disturbing his train of
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thought for no reason. "But you are innocent, aren't you?" "Well of
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course I am," said K. "That's the main thing," said the painter. There
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was no counter-argument that could influence him, but although he had
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made up his mind it was not clear whether he was talking this way
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because of conviction or indifference. K., then, wanted to find out and
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said therefore, "I'm sure you're more familiar with the court than I am,
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I know hardly more about it than what I've heard, and that's been from
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many very different people. But they were all agreed on one thing, and
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that was that when ill thought-out accusations are made they are not
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ignored, and that once the court has made an accusation it is convinced
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of the guilt of the defendant and it's very hard to make it think
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otherwise." "Very hard?" the painter asked, throwing one hand up in the
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air. "It's impossible to make it think otherwise. If I painted all the
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judges next to each other here on canvas, and you were trying to defend
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yourself in front of it, you'd have more success with them than you'd
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ever have with the real court." "Yes," said K. to himself, forgetting
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that he had only gone there to investigate the painter.
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One of the girls behind the door started up again, and asked,
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"Titorelli, is he going to go soon?" "Quiet!" shouted the painter at
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the door, "Can't you see I'm talking with the gentleman?" But this was
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not enough to satisfy the girl and she asked, "You going to paint his
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picture?" And when the painter didn't answer she added, "Please don't
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paint him, he's an 'orrible bloke." There followed an incomprehensible,
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interwoven babble of shouts and replies and calls of agreement. The
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painter leapt over to the door, opened it very slightly--the girls'
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clasped hands could be seen stretching through the crack as if they
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wanted something--and said, "If you're not quiet I'll throw you all
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down the stairs. Sit down here on the steps and be quiet." They probably
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did not obey him immediately, so that he had to command, "Down on the
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steps!" Only then it became quiet.
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"I'm sorry about that," said the painter as he returned to K. K. had
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hardly turned towards the door, he had left it completely up to the
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painter whether and how he would place him under his protection if he
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wanted to. Even now, he made hardly any movement as the painter bent
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over him and, whispering into his ear in order not to be heard outside,
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said, "These girls belong to the court as well." "How's that?" asked
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K., as he leant his head to one side and looked at the painter. But the
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painter sat back down on his chair and, half in jest, half in
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explanation, "Well, everything belongs to the court." "That is
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something I had never noticed until now," said K. curtly, this general
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comment of the painter's made his comment about the girls far less
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disturbing. Nonetheless, K. looked for a while at the door, behind which
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the girls were now sitting quietly on the steps. Except, that one of
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them had pushed a drinking straw through a crack between the planks and
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was moving it slowly up and down. "You still don't seem to have much
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general idea of what the court's about," said the painter, who had
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stretched his legs wide apart and was tapping loudly on the floor with
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the tip of his foot. "But as you're innocent you won't need it anyway.
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I'll get you out of this by myself." "How do you intend to do that?"
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asked K. "You did say yourself not long ago that it's quite impossible
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to go to the court with reasons and proofs." "Only impossible for
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reasons and proofs you take to the court yourself," said the painter,
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raising his forefinger as if K. had failed to notice a fine distinction.
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"It goes differently if you try to do something behind the public court,
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that's to say in the consultation rooms, in the corridors or here, for
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instance, in my studio." K. now began to find it far easier to believe
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what the painter was saying, or rather it was largely in agreement with
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what he had also been told by others. In fact it was even quite
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promising. If it really was so easy to influence the judges through
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personal contacts as the lawyer had said then the painter's contacts
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with these vain judges was especially important, and at the very least
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should not be undervalued. And the painter would fit in very well in the
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circle of assistants that K. was slowly gathering around himself. He had
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been noted at the bank for his talent in organising, here, where he was
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placed entirely on his own resources, would be a good opportunity to
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test that talent to its limits. The painter observed the effect his
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explanation had had on K. and then, with a certain unease, said, "Does
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it not occur to you that the way I'm speaking is almost like a lawyer?
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It's the incessant contact with the gentlemen of the court has that
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influence on me. I gain a lot by it, of course, but I lose a lot,
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artistically speaking." "How did you first come into contact with the
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judges, then?" asked K., he wanted first to gain the painter's trust
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before he took him into his service. "That was very easy," said the
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painter, "I inherited these contacts. My father was court painter before
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me. It's a position that's always inherited. They can't use new people
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for it, the rules governing how the various grades of officials are
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painted are so many and varied, and, above all, so secret that no-one
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outside of certain families even knows them. In the drawer there, for
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instance, I've got my father's notes, which I don't show to anyone. But
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you're only able to paint judges if you know what they say. Although,
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even if I lost them no-one could ever dispute my position because of all
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the rules I just carry round in my head. All the judges want to be
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painted like the old, great judges were, and I'm the only one who can do
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that." "You are to be envied," said K., thinking of his position at the
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bank. "Your position is quite unassailable, then?" "Yes, quite
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unassailable," said the painter, and he raised his shoulders in pride.
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"That's how I can even afford to help some poor man facing trial now and
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then." "And how do you do that?" asked K., as if the painter had not
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just described him as a poor man. The painter did not let himself be
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distracted, but said, "In your case, for instance, as you're totally
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innocent, this is what I'll do." The repeated mention of K.'s innocence
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was becoming irksome to him. It sometimes seemed to him as if the
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painter was using these comments to make a favourable outcome to the
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trial a precondition for his help, which of course would make the help
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itself unnecessary. But despite these doubts K. forced himself not to
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interrupt the painter. He did not want to do without the painter's help,
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that was what he had decided, and this help did not seem in any way less
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questionable than that of the lawyer. K. valued the painter's help far
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more highly because it was offered in a way that was more harmless and
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open.
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The painter had pulled his seat closer to the bed and continued in a
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subdued voice: "I forgot to ask you: what sort of acquittal is it you
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want. There are three possibilities: absolute acquittal, apparent
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acquittal and deferment. Absolute acquittal is the best, of course,
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only there's nothing I could do to get that sort of outcome. I don't
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think there's anyone at all who could do anything to get an absolute
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acquittal. Probably the only thing that could do that is if the accused
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is innocent. As you are innocent it could actually be possible and you
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could depend on your innocence alone. In that case you won't need me or
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any other kind of help."
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At first, K. was astonished at this orderly explanation, but then, just
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as quietly as the painter, he said, "I think you're contradicting
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yourself." "How's that?" asked the painter patiently, leaning back with
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a smile. This smile made K. feel as if he were examining not the words
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of the painter but seeking out inconsistencies in the procedures of the
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court itself. Nonetheless, he continued unabashed and said, "You
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remarked earlier that the court cannot be approached with reasoned
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proofs, you later restricted this to the open court, and now you go so
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far as to say that an innocent man needs no assistance in court. That
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entails a contradiction. Moreover, you said earlier that the judges can
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be influenced personally but now you insist that an absolute acquittal,
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as you call it, can never be attained through personal influence. That
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entails a second contradiction." "It's quite easy to clear up these
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contradictions," said the painter. "We're talking about two different
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things here, there's what it says in the law and there's what I know
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from my own experience, you shouldn't get the two confused. I've never
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seen it in writing, but the law does, of course, say on the one hand
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that the innocent will be set free, but on the other hand it doesn't
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say that the judges can be influenced. But in my experience it's the
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other way round. I don't know of any absolute acquittals but I do know
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of many times when a judge has been influenced. It's possible, of
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course, that there was no innocence in any of the cases I know about.
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But is that likely? Not a single innocent defendant in so many cases?
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When I was a boy I used to listen closely to my father when he told us
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about court cases at home, and the judges that came to his studio talked
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about the court, in our circles nobody talks about anything else; I
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hardly ever got the chance to go to court myself but always made use of
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it when I could, I've listened to countless trials at important stages
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in their development, I've followed them closely as far as they could
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be followed, and I have to say that I've never seen a single
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acquittal." "So. Not a single acquittal," said K., as if talking to
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himself and his hopes. "That confirms the impression I already have of
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the court. So there's no point in it from this side either. They could
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replace the whole court with a single hangman." "You shouldn't
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generalise," said the painter, dissatisfied, "I've only been talking
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about my own experience." "Well that's enough," said K., "or have you
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heard of any acquittals that happened earlier?" "They say there have
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been some acquittals earlier," the painter answered, "but it's very hard
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to be sure about it. The courts don't make their final conclusions
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public, not even the judges are allowed to know about them, so that all
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we know about these earlier cases are just legends. But most of them did
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involve absolute acquittals, you can believe that, but they can't be
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proved. On the other hand, you shouldn't forget all about them either,
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I'm sure there is some truth to them, and they are very beautiful, I've
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painted a few pictures myself depicting these legends." "My assessment
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will not be altered by mere legends," said K. "I don't suppose it's
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possible to cite these legends in court, is it?" The painter laughed.
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"No, you can't cite them in court," he said. "Then there's no point in
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talking about them," said K., he wanted, for the time being, to accept
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anything the painter told him, even if he thought it unlikely or
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contradicted what he had been told by others. He did not now have the
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time to examine the truth of everything the painter said or even to
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disprove it, he would have achieved as much as he could if the painter
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would help him in any way even if his help would not be decisive. As a
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result, he said, "So let's pay no more attention to absolute acquittal,
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but you mentioned two other possibilities." "Apparent acquittal and
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deferment. They're the only possibilities," said the painter. "But
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before we talk about them, would you not like to take your coat off? You
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must be hot." "Yes," said K., who until then had paid attention to
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nothing but the painter's explanations, but now that he had had the heat
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pointed out to him his brow began to sweat heavily. "It's almost
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unbearable." The painter nodded as if he understood K.'s discomfort very
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well. "Could we not open the window?" asked K. "No," said the painter.
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"It's only a fixed pane of glass, it can't be opened." K. now realised
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that all this time he had been hoping the painter would suddenly go over
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to the window and pull it open. He had prepared himself even for the fog
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that he would breathe in through his open mouth. The thought that here
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he was entirely cut off from the air made him feel dizzy. He tapped
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lightly on the bedspread beside him and, with a weak voice, said, "That
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is very inconvenient and unhealthy." "Oh no," said the painter in
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defence of his window, "as it can't be opened this room retains the heat
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better than if the window were double glazed, even though it's only a
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single pane. There's not much need to air the room as there's so much
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ventilation through the gaps in the wood, but when I do want to I can
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open one of my doors, or even both of them." K. was slightly consoled
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by this explanation and looked around to see where the second door was.
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The painter saw him do so and said, "It's behind you, I had to hide it
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behind the bed." Only then was K. able to see the little door in the
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wall. "It's really much too small for a studio here," said the painter,
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as if he wanted to anticipate an objection K. would make. "I had to
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arrange things as well as I could. That's obviously a very bad place for
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the bed, in front of the door. For instance when the judge I'm painting
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at present comes he always comes through the door by the bed, and I've
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even given him a key to this door so that he can wait for me here in the
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studio when I'm not home. Although nowadays he usually comes early in
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the morning when I'm still asleep. And of course, it always wakes me up
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when I hear the door opened beside the bed, however fast asleep I am. If
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you could hear the way I curse him as he climbs over my bed in the
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morning you'd lose all respect for judges. I suppose I could take the
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key away from him but that'd only make things worse. It only takes a
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tiny effort to break any of the doors here off their hinges." All the
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time the painter was speaking, K. was considering whether he should take
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off his coat, but he finally realised that, if he didn't do so, he would
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be quite unable to stay here any longer, so he took off his frock coat
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and lay it on his knee so that he could put it back on again as soon as
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the conversation was over. He had hardly done this when one of the girls
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called out, "Now he's taken his coat off!" and they could all be heard
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pressing around the gaps in the planks to see the spectacle for
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themselves. "The girls think I'm going to paint your portrait," said the
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painter, "and that's why you're taking your coat off." "I see," said K.,
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only slightly amused by this, as he felt little better than he had
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before even though he now sat in his shirtsleeves. With some irritation
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he asked, "What did you say the two other possibilities were?" He had
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already forgotten the terms used. "Apparent acquittal and deferment,"
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said the painter. "It's up to you which one you choose. You can get
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either of them if I help you, but it'll take some effort of course, the
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difference between them is that apparent acquittal needs concentrated
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effort for a while and that deferment takes much less effort but it has
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to be sustained. Now then, apparent acquittal. If that's what you want
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I'll write down an assertion of your innocence on a piece of paper. The
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text for an assertion of this sort was passed down to me from my father
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and it's quite unassailable. I take this assertion round to the judges I
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know. So I'll start off with the one I'm currently painting, and put
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the assertion to him when he comes for his sitting this evening. I'll
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lay the assertion in front of him, explain that you're innocent and give
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him my personal guarantee of it. And that's not just a superficial
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guarantee, it's a real one and it's binding." The painter's eyes seemed
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to show some reproach of K. for wanting to impose that sort of
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responsibility on him. "That would be very kind of you," said K. "And
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would the judge then believe you and nonetheless not pass an absolute
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acquittal?" "It's like I just said," answered the painter. "And anyway,
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it's not entirely sure that all the judges would believe me, many of
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them, for instance, might want me to bring you to see them personally.
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So then you'd have to come along too. But at least then, if that
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happens, the matter is half way won, especially as I'd teach you in
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advance exactly how you'd need to act with the judge concerned, of
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course. What also happens, though, is that there are some judges who'll
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turn me down in advance, and that's worse. I'll certainly make several
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attempts, but still, we'll have to forget about them, but at least we
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can afford to do that as no one judge can pass the decisive verdict.
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Then when I've got enough judges' signatures on this document I take it
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to the judge who's concerned with your case. I might even have his
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signature already, in which case things develop a bit quicker than they
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would do otherwise. But there aren't usually many hold ups from then
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on, and that's the time that the defendant can feel most confident.
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It's odd, but true, that people feel more confidence in this time than
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they do after they've been acquitted. There's no particular exertion
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needed now. When he has the document asserting the defendant's
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innocence, guaranteed by a number of other judges, the judge can acquit
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you without any worries, and although there are still several
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formalities to be gone through there's no doubt that that's what he'll
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do as a favour to me and several other acquaintances. You, however, walk
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out the court and you're free." "So, then I'll be free," said K.,
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hesitantly. "That's right," said the painter, "but only apparently free
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or, to put it a better way, temporarily free, as the most junior judges,
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the ones I know, they don't have the right to give the final acquittal.
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Only the highest judge can do that, in the court that's quite out of
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reach for you, for me and for all of us. We don't know how things look
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there and, incidentally, we don't want to know. The right to acquit
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people is a major privilege and our judges don't have it, but they do
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have the right to free people from the indictment. That's to say, if
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they're freed in this way then for the time being the charge is
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withdrawn but it's still hanging over their heads and it only takes an
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order from higher up to bring it back into force. And as I'm in such
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good contact with the court I can also tell you how the difference
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between absolute and apparent acquittal is described, just in a
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superficial way, in the directives to the court offices. If there's an
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absolute acquittal all proceedings should stop, everything disappears
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from the process, not just the indictment but the trial and even the
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acquittal disappears, everything just disappears. With an apparent
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acquittal it's different. When that happens, nothing has changed except
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that the case for your innocence, for your acquittal and the grounds for
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the acquittal have been made stronger. Apart from that, proceedings go
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on as before, the court offices continue their business and the case
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gets passed to higher courts, gets passed back down to the lower courts
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and so on, backwards and forwards, sometimes faster, sometimes slower,
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to and fro. It's impossible to know exactly what's happening while this
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is going on. Seen from outside it can sometimes seem that everything has
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been long since forgotten, the documents have been lost and the
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acquittal is complete. No-one familiar with the court would believe it.
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No documents ever get lost, the court forgets nothing. One day--no-one
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expects it--some judge or other picks up the documents and looks more
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closely at them, he notices that this particular case is still active,
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and orders the defendant's immediate arrest. I've been talking here as
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if there's a long delay between apparent acquittal and re-arrest, that
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is quite possible and I do know of cases like that, but it's just as
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likely that the defendant goes home after he's been acquitted and finds
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somebody there waiting to re-arrest him. Then, of course, his life as a
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free man is at an end." "And does the trial start over again?" asked K.,
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finding it hard to believe. "The trial will always start over again,"
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said the painter, "but there is, once again as before, the possibility
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of getting an apparent acquittal. Once again, the accused has to muster
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all his strength and mustn't give up." The painter said that last phrase
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possibly as a result of the impression that K., whose shoulders had
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dropped somewhat, gave on him. "But to get a second acquittal," asked
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K., as if in anticipation of further revelations by the painter, "is
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that not harder to get than the first time?" "As far as that's
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concerned," answered the painter, "there's nothing you can say for
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certain. You mean, do you, that the second arrest would have an adverse
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influence on the judge and the verdict he passes on the defendant.
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That's not how it happens. When the acquittal is passed the judges are
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already aware that re-arrest is likely. So when it happens it has hardly
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any effect. But there are countless other reasons why the judges' mood
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and their legal acumen in the case can be altered, and efforts to obtain
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the second acquittal must therefore be suited to the new conditions, and
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generally just as vigorous as the first." "But this second acquittal
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will once again not be final," said K., shaking his head. "Of course
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not," said the painter, "the second acquittal is followed by the third
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arrest, the third acquittal by the fourth arrest and so on. That's what
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is meant by the term apparent acquittal." K. was silent. "You clearly
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don't think an apparent acquittal offers much advantage," said the
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painter, "perhaps deferment would suit you better. Would you like me to
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explain what deferment is about?" K. nodded. The painter had leant back
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and spread himself out in his chair, his nightshirt was wide open, he
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had pushed his hand inside and was stroking his breast and his sides.
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"Deferment," said the painter, looking vaguely in front of himself for a
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while as if trying to find a perfectly appropriate explanation,
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"deferment consists of keeping proceedings permanently in their earliest
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stages. To do that, the accused and those helping him need to keep in
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continuous personal contact with the court, especially those helping
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him. I repeat, this doesn't require so much effort as getting an
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apparent acquittal, but it probably requires a lot more attention. You
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must never let the trial out of your sight, you have to go and see the
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appropriate judge at regular intervals as well as when something in
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particular comes up and, whatever you do, you have to try and remain
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friendly with him; if you don't know the judge personally you have to
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influence him through the judges you do know, and you have to do it
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without giving up on the direct discussions. As long as you don't fail
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to do any of these things you can be reasonably sure the trial won't get
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past its first stages. The trial doesn't stop, but the defendant is
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almost as certain of avoiding conviction as if he'd been acquitted.
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Compared with an apparent acquittal, deferment has the advantage that
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the defendant's future is less uncertain, he's safe from the shock of
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being suddenly re-arrested and doesn't need to fear the exertions and
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stress involved in getting an apparent acquittal just when everything
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else in his life would make it most difficult. Deferment does have
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certain disadvantages of its own though, too, and they shouldn't be
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under-estimated. I don't mean by this that the defendant is never free,
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he's never free in the proper sense of the word with an apparent
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acquittal either. There's another disadvantage. Proceedings can't be
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prevented from moving forward unless there are some at least ostensible
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reasons given. So something needs to seem to be happening when looked at
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from the outside. This means that from time to time various injunctions
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have to be obeyed, the accused has to be questioned, investigations have
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to take place and so on. The trial's been artificially constrained
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inside a tiny circle, and it has to be continuously spun round within
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it. And that, of course, brings with it certain unpleasantnesses for the
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accused, although you shouldn't imagine they're all that bad. All of
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this is just for show, the interrogations, for instance, they're only
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very short, if you ever don't have the time or don't feel like going to
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them you can offer an excuse, with some judges you can even arrange the
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injunctions together a long time in advance, in essence all it means is
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that, as the accused, you have to report to the judge from time to
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time." Even while the painter was speaking those last words K. had laid
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his coat over his arm and had stood up. Immediately, from outside the
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door, there was a cry of "He's standing up now!" "Are you leaving
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already?" asked the painter, who had also stood up. "It must be the air
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that's driving you out. I'm very sorry about that. There's still a lot I
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need to tell you. I had to put everything very briefly but I hope at
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least it was all clear." "Oh yes," said K., whose head was aching from
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the effort of listening. Despite this affirmation the painter summed it
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all up once more, as if he wanted to give K. something to console him on
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his way home. "Both have in common that they prevent the defendant being
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convicted," he said. "But they also prevent his being properly
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acquitted," said K. quietly, as if ashamed to acknowledge it. "You've
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got it, in essence," said the painter quickly. K. placed his hand on his
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winter overcoat but could not bring himself to put it on. Most of all he
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would have liked to pack everything together and run out to the fresh
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air. Not even the girls could induce him to put his coat on, even though
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they were already loudly telling each other that he was doing so. The
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painter still had to interpret K.'s mood in some way, so he said, "I
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expect you've deliberately avoided deciding between my suggestions yet.
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That's good. I would even have advised against making a decision
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straight away. There's no more than a hair's breadth of difference
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between the advantages and disadvantages. Everything has to be carefully
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weighed up. But the most important thing is you shouldn't lose too much
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time." "I'll come back here again soon," said K., who had suddenly
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decided to put his frock coat on, threw his overcoat over his shoulder
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and hurried over to the door behind which the girls now began to scream.
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K. thought he could even see the screaming girls through the door.
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"Well, you'll have to keep your word," said the painter, who had not
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followed him, "otherwise I'll come to the bank to ask about it myself."
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"Will you open this door for me," said K. pulling at the handle which,
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as he noticed from the resistance, was being held tightly by the girls
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on the other side. "Do you want to be bothered by the girls?" asked the
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painter. "It's better if you use the other way out," he said, pointing
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to the door behind the bed. K. agreed to this and jumped back to the
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bed. But instead of opening that door the painter crawled under the bed
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and from underneath it asked K., "Just a moment more, would you not like
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to see a picture I could sell to you?" K. did not want to be impolite,
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the painter really had taken his side and promised to help him more in
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the future, and because of K.'s forgetfulness there had been no mention
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of any payment for the painter's help, so K. could not turn him down now
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and allowed him to show him the picture, even though he was quivering
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with impatience to get out of the studio. From under the bed, the
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painter withdrew a pile of unframed paintings. They were so covered in
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dust that when the painter tried to blow it off the one on top the dust
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swirled around in front of K.'s eyes, robbing him of breath for some
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time. "Moorland landscape," said the painter passing the picture to K.
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It showed two sickly trees, well separated from each other in dark
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grass. In the background there was a multi-coloured sunset. "That's
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nice," said K. "I'll buy it." K. expressed himself in this curt way
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without any thought, so he was glad when the painter did not take this
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amiss and picked up a second painting from the floor. "This is a
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counterpart to the first picture," said the painter. Perhaps it had been
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intended as a counterpart, but there was not the slightest difference to
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be seen between it and the first picture, there were the trees, there
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the grass and there the sunset. But this was of little importance to K.
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"They are beautiful landscapes," he said, "I'll buy them both and hang
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them in my office." "You seem to like this subject," said the painter,
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picking up a third painting, "good job I've still got another, similar
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picture here." The picture though, was not similar, rather it was
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exactly the same moorland landscape. The painter was fully exploiting
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this opportunity to sell off his old pictures. "I'll take this one too,"
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said K. "How much do the three paintings cost?" "We can talk about that
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next time," said the painter. "You're in a hurry now, and we'll still be
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in contact. And besides, I'm glad you like the paintings, I'll give you
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all the paintings I've got down here. They're all moorland landscapes,
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I've painted a lot of moorland landscapes. A lot of people don't like
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that sort of picture because they're too gloomy, but there are others,
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and you're one of them, who love gloomy themes." But K. was not in the
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mood to hear about the professional experiences of this painter cum
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beggar. "Wrap them all up!" he called out, interrupting the painter as
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he was speaking, "my servant will come to fetch them in the morning."
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"There's no need for that," said the painter. "I expect I can find a
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porter for you who can go with you now." And, at last, he leant over the
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bed and unlocked the door. "Just step on the bed, don't worry about
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that," said the painter, "that's what everyone does who comes in here."
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Even without this invitation, K. had shown no compunction in already
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placing his foot in the middle of the bed covers, then he looked out
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through the open door and drew his foot back again. "What is that?" he
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asked the painter. "What are you so surprised at?" he asked, surprised
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in his turn. "Those are court offices. Didn't you know there are court
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offices here. There are court offices in almost every attic, why should
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this building be any different? Even my studio is actually one of the
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court offices but the court put it at my disposal." It was not so much
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finding court offices even here that shocked K., he was mainly shocked
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at himself, at his own naïvety in court matters. It seemed to him that
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one of the most basic rules governing how a defendant should behave was
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always to be prepared, never allow surprises, never to look,
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unsuspecting, to the right when the judge stood beside him to his
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left--and this was the very basic rule that he was continually
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violating. A long corridor extended in front of him, air blew in from it
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which, compared with the air in the studio, was refreshing. There were
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benches set along each side of the corridor just as in the waiting area
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for the office he went to himself. There seemed to be precise rules
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governing how offices should be equipped. There did not seem to be many
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people visiting the offices that day. There was a man there, half
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sitting, half laying, his face was buried in his arm on the bench and he
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seemed to be sleeping; another man was standing in the half-dark at the
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end of the corridor. K. now climbed over the bed, the painter followed
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him with the pictures. They soon came across a servant of the court--K.
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was now able to recognise all the servants of the court from the gold
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buttons they wore on their civilian clothes below the normal
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buttons--and the painter instructed him to go with K. carrying the
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pictures. K. staggered more than he walked, his handkerchief pressed
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over his mouth. They had nearly reached the exit when the girls stormed
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in on them, so K. had not been able to avoid them. They had clearly seen
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that the second door of the studio had been opened and had gone around
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to impose themselves on him from this side. "I can't come with you any
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further!" called out the painter with a laugh as the girls pressed in.
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"Goodbye, and don't hesitate too long!" K. did not even look round at
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him. Once on the street he took the first cab he came across. He now had
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to get rid of the servant, whose gold button continually caught his eye
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even if it caught no-one else's. As a servant, the servant of the court
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was going to sit on the coach-box. But K. chased him down from there. It
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was already well into the afternoon when K. arrived in front of the
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bank. He would have liked to leave the pictures in the cab but feared
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there might be some occasion when he would have to let the painter see
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he still had them. So he had the pictures taken to his office and locked
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them in the lowest drawer of his desk so that he could at least keep
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them safe from the deputy director's view for the next few days.
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Chapter Eight
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Block, the businessman--Dismissing the lawyer
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K. had at last made the decision to withdraw his defence from the
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lawyer. It was impossible to remove his doubts as to whether this was
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the right decision, but this was outweighed by his belief in its
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necessity. This decision, on the day he intended to go to see the
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lawyer, took a lot of the strength he needed for his work, he worked
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exceptionally slowly, he had to remain in his office a long time, and
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it was already past ten o'clock when he finally stood in front of the
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lawyer's front door. Even before he rang he considered whether it might
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not be better to give the lawyer notice by letter or telephone, a
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personal conversation would certainly be very difficult. Nonetheless,
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K. did not actually want to do without it, if he gave notice by any
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other means it would be received in silence or with a few formulated
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words, and unless Leni could discover anything K. would never learn how
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the lawyer had taken his dismissal and what its consequences might be,
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in the lawyer's not unimportant opinion. But sitting in front of him
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and taken by surprise by his dismissal, K. would be able easily to
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infer everything he wanted from the lawyer's face and behaviour, even if
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he could not be induced to say very much. It was not even out of the
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question that K. might, after all, be persuaded that it would be best
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to leave his defence to the lawyer and withdraw his dismissal.
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As usual, there was at first no response to K.'s ring at the door.
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"Leni could be a bit quicker," thought K. But he could at least be glad
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there was nobody else interfering as usually happened, be it the man in
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his nightshirt or anyone else who might bother him. As K. pressed on
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the button for the second time he looked back at the other door, but
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this time it, too, remained closed. At last, two eyes appeared at the
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spy-hatch in the lawyer's door, although they weren't Leni's eyes.
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Someone unlocked the door, but kept himself pressed against it as he
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called back inside, "It's him!", and only then did he open the door
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properly. K. pushed against the door, as behind him he could already
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hear the key being hurriedly turned in the lock of the door to the
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other flat. When the door in front of him finally opened, he stormed
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straight into the hallway. Through the corridor which led between the
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rooms he saw Leni, to whom the warning cry of the door opener had been
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directed, still running away in her nightshirt. He looked at her for a
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moment and then looked round at the person who had opened the door. It
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was a small, wizened man with a full beard, he held a candle in his
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hand. "Do you work here?" asked K. "No," answered the man, "I don't
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belong here at all, the lawyer is only representing me, I'm here on
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legal business." "Without your coat?" asked K., indicating the man's
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deficiency of dress with a gesture of his hand. "Oh, do forgive me!"
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said the man, and he looked at himself in the light of the candle he was
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holding as if he had not known about his appearance until then. "Is Leni
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your lover?" asked K. curtly. He had set his legs slightly apart, his
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hands, in which he held his hat, were behind his back. Merely by being
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in possession of a thick overcoat he felt his advantage over this thin
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little man. "Oh God," he said and, shocked, raised one hand in front of
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his face as if in defence, "no, no, what can you be thinking?" "You look
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honest enough," said K. with a smile, "but come along anyway." K.
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indicated with his hat which way the man was to go and let him go ahead
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of him. "What is your name then?" asked K. on the way. "Block. I'm a
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businessman," said the small man, twisting himself round as he thus
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introduced himself, although K. did not allow him to stop moving. "Is
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that your real name?" asked K. "Of course it is," was the man's reply,
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"why do you doubt it?" "I thought you might have some reason to keep
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your name secret," said K. He felt himself as much at liberty as is
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normally only felt in foreign parts when speaking with people of lower
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standing, keeping everything about himself to himself, speaking only
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casually about the interests of the other, able to raise him to a level
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above one's own, but also able, at will, to let him drop again. K.
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stopped at the door of the lawyer's office, opened it and, to the
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businessman who had obediently gone ahead, called, "Not so fast! Bring
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some light here!" K. thought Leni might have hidden in here, he let the
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businessman search in every corner, but the room was empty. In front of
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the picture of the judge K. took hold of the businessman's braces to
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stop him moving on. "Do you know him?" he asked, pointing upwards with
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his finger. The businessman lifted the candle, blinked as he looked up
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and said, "It's a judge." "An important judge?" asked K., and stood to
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the side and in front of the businessman so that he could observe what
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impression the picture had on him. The businessman was looking up in
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admiration. "He's an important judge." "You don't have much insight,"
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said K. "He is the lowest of the lowest examining judges." "I remember
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now," said the businessman as he lowered the candle, "that's what I've
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already been told." "Well of course you have," called out K., "I'd
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forgotten about it, of course you would already have been told." "But
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why, why?" asked the businessman as he moved forwards towards the door,
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propelled by the hands of K. Outside in the corridor K. said, "You know
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where Leni's hidden, do you?" "Hidden?" said the businessman, "No, but
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she might be in the kitchen cooking soup for the lawyer." "Why didn't
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you say that immediately?" asked K. "I was going to take you there, but
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you called me back again," answered the businessman, as if confused by
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the contradictory commands. "You think you're very clever, don't you,"
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said K., "now take me there!" K. had never been in the kitchen, it was
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surprisingly big and very well equipped. The stove alone was three
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times bigger than normal stoves, but it was not possible to see any
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detail beyond this as the kitchen was at the time illuminated by no more
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than a small lamp hanging by the entrance. At the stove stood Leni, in a
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white apron as always, breaking eggs into a pot standing on a spirit
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lamp. "Good evening, Josef," she said with a glance sideways. "Good
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evening," said K., pointing with one hand to a chair in a corner which
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the businessman was to sit on, and he did indeed sit down on it. K.
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however went very close behind Leni's back, leant over her shoulder and
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asked, "Who is this man?" Leni put one hand around K. as she stirred the
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soup with the other, she drew him forward toward herself and said, "He's
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a pitiful character, a poor businessman by the name of Block. Just look
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at him." The two of them looked back over their shoulders. The
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businessman was sitting on the chair that K. had directed him to, he
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had extinguished the candle whose light was no longer needed and pressed
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on the wick with his fingers to stop the smoke. "You were in your
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nightshirt," said K., putting his hand on her head and turning it back
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towards the stove. She was silent. "Is he your lover?" asked K. She was
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about to take hold of the pot of soup, but K. took both her hands and
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said, "Answer me!" She said, "Come into the office, I'll explain
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everything to you." "No," said K., "I want you to explain it here." She
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put her arms around him and wanted to kiss him. K., though, pushed her
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away and said, "I don't want you to kiss me now." "Josef," said Leni,
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looking at K. imploringly but frankly in the eyes, "you're not going to
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be jealous of Mr. Block now, are you. Rudi," she then said, turning to
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the businessman, "help me out will you, I'm being suspected of
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something, you can see that, leave the candle alone." It had looked as
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though Mr. Block had not been paying attention but he had been
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following closely. "I don't even know why you might be jealous," he
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said ingenuously. "Nor do I, actually," said K., looking at the
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businessman with a smile. Leni laughed out loud and while K. was not
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paying attention took the opportunity of embracing him and whispering,
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"Leave him alone, now, you can see what sort of person he is. I've been
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helping him a little bit because he's an important client of the
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lawyer's, and no other reason. And what about you? Do you want to speak
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to the lawyer at this time of day? He's very unwell today, but if you
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want I'll tell him you're here. But you can certainly spend the night
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with me. It's so long since you were last here, even the lawyer has been
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asking about you. Don't neglect your case! And I've got some things to
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tell you that I've learned about. But now, before anything else, take
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your coat off!" She helped him off with his coat, took the hat off his
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head, ran with the things into the hallway to hang them up, then she ran
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back and saw to the soup. "Do you want me to tell him you're here
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straight away or take him his soup first?" "Tell him I'm here first,"
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said K. He was in a bad mood, he had originally intended a detailed
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discussion of his business with Leni, especially the question of his
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giving the lawyer notice, but now he no longer wanted to because of the
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presence of the businessman. Now he considered his affair too important
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to let this little businessman take part in it and perhaps change some
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of his decisions, and so he called Leni back even though she was already
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on her way to the lawyer. "Bring him his soup first," he said, "I want
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him to get his strength up for the discussion with me, he'll need it."
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"You're a client of the lawyer's too, aren't you," said the businessman
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quietly from his corner as if he were trying to find this out. It was
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not, however, taken well. "What business is that of yours?" said K., and
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Leni said, "Will you be quiet.--I'll take him his soup first then, shall
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I?" And she poured the soup into a dish. "The only worry then is that
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he might go to sleep soon after he's eaten." "What I've got to say to
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him will keep him awake," said K., who still wanted to intimate that he
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intended some important negotiations with the lawyer, he wanted Leni to
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ask him what it was and only then to ask her advice. But instead, she
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just promptly carried out the order he had given her. When she went
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over to him with the dish she deliberately brushed against him and
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whispered, "I'll tell him you're here as soon as he's eaten the soup so
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that I can get you back as soon as possible." "Just go," said K., "just
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go." "Be a bit more friendly," she said and, still holding the dish,
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turned completely round once more in the doorway.
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K. watched her as she went; the decision had finally been made that the
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lawyer was to be dismissed, it was probably better that he had not been
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able to discuss the matter any more with Leni beforehand; she hardly
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understood the complexity of the matter, she would certainly have
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advised him against it and perhaps would even have prevented him from
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dismissing the lawyer this time, he would have remained in doubt and
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unease and eventually have carried out his decision after a while
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anyway as this decision was something he could not avoid. The sooner it
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was carried out the more harm would be avoided. And moreover, perhaps
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the businessman had something to say on the matter.
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K. turned round, the businessman hardly noticed it as he was about to
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stand up. "Stay where you are," said K. and pulled up a chair beside
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him. "Have you been a client of the lawyer's for a long time?" asked K.
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"Yes," said the businessman, "a very long time." "How many years has he
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been representing you so far, then?" asked K. "I don't know how you
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mean," said the businessman, "he's been my business lawyer--I buy and
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sell cereals--he's been my business lawyer since I took the business
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over, and that's about twenty years now, but perhaps you mean my own
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trial and he's been representing me in that since it started, and
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that's been more than five years. Yes, well over five years," he then
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added, pulling out an old briefcase, "I've got everything written down;
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I can tell you the exact dates if you like. It's so hard to remember
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everything. Probably, my trial's been going on much longer than that,
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it started soon after the death of my wife, and that's been more than
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five and a half years now." K. moved in closer to him. "So the lawyer
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takes on ordinary legal business, does he?" he asked. This combination
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of criminal and commercial business seemed surprisingly reassuring for
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K. "Oh yes," said the businessman, and then he whispered, "They even
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say he's more efficient in jurisprudence than he is in other matters."
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But then he seemed to regret saying this, and he laid a hand on K.'s
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shoulder and said, "Please don't betray me to him, will you." K. patted
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his thigh to reassure him and said, "No, I don't betray people." "He
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can be so vindictive, you see," said the businessman. "I'm sure he won't
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do anything against such a faithful client as you," said K. "Oh, he
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might do," said the businessman, "when he gets cross it doesn't matter
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who it is, and anyway, I'm not really faithful to him." "How's that
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then?" asked K. "I'm not sure I should tell you about it," said the
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businessman hesitantly. "I think it'll be alright," said K. "Well then,"
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said the businessman, "I'll tell you about some of it, but you'll have
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to tell me a secret too, then we can support each other with the
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lawyer." "You are very careful," said K., "but I'll tell you a secret
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that will set your mind completely at ease. Now tell me, in what way
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have you been unfaithful to the lawyer?" "I've ..." said the businessman
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hesitantly, and in a tone as if he were confessing something
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dishonourable, "I've taken on other lawyers besides him." "That's not so
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serious," said K., a little disappointed. "It is, here," said the
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businessman, who had had some difficulty breathing since making his
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confession but who now, after hearing K.'s comment, began to feel more
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trust for him. "That's not allowed. And it's allowed least of all to
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take on petty lawyers when you've already got a proper one. And that's
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just what I have done, besides him I've got five petty lawyers." "Five!"
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exclaimed K., astonished at this number, "Five lawyers besides this
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one?" The businessman nodded. "I'm even negotiating with a sixth one."
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"But why do you need so many lawyers?" asked K. "I need all of them,"
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said the businessman. "Would you mind explaining that to me?" asked K.
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"I'd be glad to," said the businessman. "Most of all, I don't want to
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lose my case, well that's obvious. So that means I mustn't neglect
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anything that might be of use to me; even if there's very little hope of
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a particular thing being of any use I can't just throw it away. So
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everything I have I've put to use in my case. I've taken all the money
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out of my business, for example, the offices for my business used to
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occupy nearly a whole floor, but now all I need is a little room at the
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back where I work with one apprentice. It wasn't just using up the money
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that caused the difficulty, of course, it was much more to do with me
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not working at the business as much as I used to. If you want to do
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something about your trial you don't have much time for anything else."
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"So you're also working at the court yourself?" asked K. "That's just
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what I want to learn more about." "I can't tell you very much about
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that," said the businessman, "at first I tried to do that too but I soon
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had to give it up again. It wears you out too much, and it's really not
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much use. And it turned out to be quite impossible to work there
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yourself and to negotiate, at least for me it was. It's a heavy strain
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there just sitting and waiting. You know yourself what the air is like
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in those offices." "How do you know I've been there, then?" asked K. "I
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was in the waiting room myself when you went through." "What a
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coincidence that is!" exclaimed K., totally engrossed and forgetting how
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ridiculous the businessman had seemed to him earlier. "So you saw me!
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You were in the waiting room when I went through. Yes, I did go through
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it one time." "It isn't such a big coincidence," said the businessman,
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"I'm there nearly every day." "I expect I'll have to go there quite
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often myself now," said K., "although I can hardly expect to be shown
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the same respect as I was then. They all stood up for me. They must have
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thought I was a judge." "No," said the businessman, "we were greeting
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the servant of the court. We knew you were a defendant. That sort of
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news spreads very quickly." "So you already knew about that," said K.,
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"the way I behaved must have seemed very arrogant to you. Did you
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criticise me for it afterwards?" "No," said the businessman, "quite the
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opposite. That was just stupidity." "What do you mean, 'stupidity'?"
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asked K. "Why are you asking about it?" said the businessman in some
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irritation. "You still don't seem to know the people there and you might
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take it wrong. Don't forget in proceedings like this there are always
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lots of different things coming up to talk about, things that you just
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can't understand with reason alone, you just get too tired and
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distracted for most things and so, instead, people rely on superstition.
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I'm talking about the others, but I'm no better myself. One of these
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superstitions, for example, is that you can learn a lot about the
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outcome of a defendant's case by looking at his face, especially the
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shape of his lips. There are lots who believe that, and they said they
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could see from the shape of your lips that you'd definitely be found
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guilty very soon. I repeat that all this is just a ridiculous
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superstition, and in most cases it's completely disproved by the facts,
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but when you live in that society it's hard to hold yourself back from
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beliefs like that. Just think how much effect that superstition can
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have. You spoke to one of them there, didn't you? He was hardly able to
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give you an answer. There are lots of things there that can make you
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confused, of course, but one of them, for him, was the appearance of
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your lips. He told us all later he thought he could see something in
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your lips that meant he'd be convicted himself." "On my lips?" asked K.,
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pulling out a pocket mirror and examining himself. "I can see nothing
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special about my lips. Can you?" "Nor can I," said the businessman,
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"nothing at all." "These people are so superstitious!" exclaimed K.
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"Isn't that what I just told you?" asked the businessman. "Do you then
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have that much contact with each other, exchanging each other's
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opinions?" said K. "I've kept myself completely apart so far." "They
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don't normally have much contact with each other," said the businessman,
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"that would be impossible, there are so many of them. And they don't
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have much in common either. If a group of them ever thinks they have
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found something in common it soon turns out they were mistaken. There's
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nothing you can do as a group where the court's concerned. Each case is
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examined separately, the court is very painstaking. So there's nothing
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to be achieved by forming into a group, only sometimes an individual
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will achieve something in secret; and it's only when that's been done
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the others learn about it; nobody knows how it was done. So there's no
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sense of togetherness, you meet people now and then in the waiting
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rooms, but we don't talk much there. The superstitious beliefs were
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established a long time ago and they spread all by themselves." "I saw
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those gentlemen in the waiting room," said K., "it seemed so pointless
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for them to be waiting in that way." "Waiting is not pointless," said
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the businessman, "it's only pointless if you try and interfere yourself.
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I told you just now I've got five lawyers besides this one. You might
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think--I thought it myself at first--you might think I could leave the
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whole thing entirely up to them now. That would be entirely wrong. I can
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leave it up to them less than when I had just the one. Maybe you don't
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understand that, do you?" "No," said K., and to slow the businessman
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down, who had been speaking too fast, he laid his hand on the
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businessman's to reassure him, "but I'd like just to ask you to speak a
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little more slowly, these are many very important things for me, and I
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can't follow exactly what you're saying." "You're quite right to remind
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me of that," said the businessman, "you're new to all this, a junior.
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Your trial is six months old, isn't it. Yes, I've heard about it. Such a
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new case! But I've already thought all these things through countless
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times, to me they're the most obvious things in the world." "You must be
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glad your trial has already progressed so far, are you?" asked K., he
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did not wish to ask directly how the businessman's affairs stood, but
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received no clear answer anyway. "Yes, I've been working at my trial for
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five years now," said the businessman as his head sank, "that's no small
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achievement." Then he was silent for a while. K. listened to hear
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whether Leni was on her way back. On the one hand he did not want her to
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come back too soon as he still had many questions to ask and did not
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want her to find him in this intimate discussion with the businessman,
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but on the other hand it irritated him that she stayed so long with the
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lawyer when K. was there, much longer than she needed to give him his
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soup. "I still remember it exactly," the businessman began again, and K.
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immediately gave him his full attention, "when my case was as old as
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yours is now. I only had this one lawyer at that time but I wasn't very
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satisfied with him." Now I'll find out everything, thought K., nodding
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vigorously as if he could thereby encourage the businessman to say
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everything worth knowing. "My case," the businessman continued, "didn't
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move on at all, there were some hearings that took place and I went to
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every one of them, collected materials, handed all my business books to
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the court--which I later found was entirely unnecessary--I ran back and
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forth to the lawyer, and he submitted various documents to the court
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too...." "Various documents?" asked K. "Yes, that's right," said the
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businessman. "That's very important for me," said K., "in my case he's
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still working on the first set of documents. He still hasn't done
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anything. I see now that he's been neglecting me quite disgracefully."
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"There can be lots of good reasons why the first documents still aren't
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ready," said the businessman, "and anyway, it turned out later on that
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the ones he submitted for me were entirely worthless. I even read one of
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them myself, one of the officials at the court was very helpful. It was
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very learned, but it didn't actually say anything. Most of all, there
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was lots of Latin, which I can't understand, then pages and pages of
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general appeals to the court, then lots of flattery for particular
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officials, they weren't named, these officials, but anyone familiar with
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the court must have been able to guess who they were, then there was
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self-praise by the lawyer where he humiliated himself to the court in a
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way that was downright dog-like, and then endless investigations of
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cases from the past which were supposed to be similar to mine. Although,
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as far as I was able to follow them, these investigations had been
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carried out very carefully. Now, I don't mean to criticise the lawyer's
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work with all of this, and the document I read was only one of many, but
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even so, and this is something I will say, at that time I couldn't see
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any progress in my trial at all." "And what sort of progress had you
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been hoping for?" asked K. "That's a very sensible question," said the
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businessman with a smile, "it's only very rare that you see any progress
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in these proceedings at all. But I didn't know that then. I'm a
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businessman, much more in those days than now, I wanted to see some
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tangible progress, it should have all been moving to some conclusion or
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at least should have been moving on in some way according to the rules.
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Instead of which there were just more hearings, and most of them went
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through the same things anyway; I had all the answers off pat like in a
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church service; there were messengers from the court coming to me at
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work several times a week, or they came to me at home or anywhere else
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they could find me; and that was very disturbing of course (but at least
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now things are better in that respect, it's much less disturbing when
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they contact you by telephone), and rumours about my trial even started
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to spread among some of the people I do business with, and especially my
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relations, so I was being made to suffer in many different ways but
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there was still not the slightest sign that even the first hearing would
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take place soon. So I went to the lawyer and complained about it. He
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explained it all to me at length, but refused to do anything I asked
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for, no-one has any influence on the way the trial proceeds, he said, to
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try and insist on it in any of the documents submitted--like I was
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asking--was simply unheard of and would do harm to both him and me. I
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thought to myself: What this lawyer can't or won't do another lawyer
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will. So I looked round for other lawyers. And before you say anything:
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none of them asked for a definite date for the main trial and none of
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them got one, and anyway, apart from one exception which I'll talk about
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in a minute, it really is impossible, that's one thing this lawyer
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didn't mislead me about; but besides, I had no reason to regret turning
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to other lawyers. Perhaps you've already heard how Dr. Huld talks about
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the petty lawyers, he probably made them sound very contemptible to you,
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and he's right, they are contemptible. But when he talks about them and
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compares them with himself and his colleagues there's a small error
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running through what he says, and, just for your interest, I'll tell you
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about it. When he talks about the lawyers he mixes with he sets them
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apart by calling them the 'great lawyers'. That's wrong, anyone can call
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himself 'great' if he wants to, of course, but in this case only the
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usage of the court can make that distinction. You see, the court says
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that besides the petty lawyers there are also minor lawyers and great
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lawyers. This one and his colleagues are only minor lawyers, and the
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difference in rank between them and the great lawyers, who I've only
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ever heard about and never seen, is incomparably greater than between
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the minor lawyers and the despised petty lawyers." "The great lawyers?"
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asked K. "Who are they then? How do you contact them?" "You've never
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heard about them, then?" said the businessman. "There's hardly anyone
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who's been accused who doesn't spend a lot of time dreaming about the
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great lawyers once he's heard about them. It's best if you don't let
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yourself be misled in that way. I don't know who the great lawyers are,
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and there's probably no way of contacting them. I don't know of any case
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I can talk about with certainty where they've taken any part. They do
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defend a lot of people, but you can't get hold of them by your own
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efforts, they only defend those who they want to defend. And I don't
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suppose they ever take on cases that haven't already got past the lower
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courts. Anyway, it's best not to think about them, as if you do it makes
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the discussions with the other lawyers, all their advice and all that
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they do manage to achieve, seem so unpleasant and useless, I had that
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experience myself, just wanted to throw everything away and lay at home
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in bed and hear nothing more about it. But that, of course, would be the
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stupidest thing you could do, and you wouldn't be left in peace in bed
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for very long either." "So you weren't thinking about the great lawyers
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at that time?" asked K. "Not for very long," said the businessman, and
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smiled again, "you can't forget about them entirely, I'm afraid,
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especially in the night when these thoughts come so easily. But I wanted
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immediate results in those days, so I went to the petty lawyers."
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"Well look at you two sat huddled together!" called Leni as she came
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back with the dish and stood in the doorway. They were indeed sat close
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together, if either of them turned his head even slightly it would have
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knocked against the other's, the businessman was not only very small
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but also sat hunched down, so that K. was also forced to bend down low
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if he wanted to hear everything. "Not quite yet!" called out K., to turn
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Leni away, his hand, still resting on the businessman's hand, twitching
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with impatience. "He wanted me to tell him about my trial," said the
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businessman to Leni. "Carry on, then, carry on," she said. She spoke to
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the businessman with affection but, at the same time, with
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condescension. K. did not like that, he had begun to learn that the man
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was of some value after all, he had experience at least, and he was
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willing to share it. Leni was probably wrong about him. He watched her
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in irritation as Leni now took the candle from the businessman's
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hand--which he had been holding on to all this time--wiped his hand
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with her apron and then knelt beside him to scratch off some wax that
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had dripped from the candle onto his trousers. "You were about to tell
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me about the petty lawyers," said K., shoving Leni's hand away with no
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further comment. "What's wrong with you today?" asked Leni, tapped him
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gently and carried on with what she had been doing. "Yes, the petty
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lawyers," said the businessman, putting his hand to his brow as if
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thinking hard. K. wanted to help him and said, "You wanted immediate
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results and so went to the petty lawyers." "Yes, that's right," said
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the businessman, but did not continue with what he'd been saying. "Maybe
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he doesn't want to speak about it in front of Leni," thought K.,
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suppressing his impatience to hear the rest straight away, and stopped
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trying to press him.
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"Have you told him I'm here?" he asked Leni. "Course I have," she said,
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"he's waiting for you. Leave Block alone now, you can talk to Block
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later, he'll still be here." K. still hesitated. "You'll still be
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here?" he asked the businessman, wanting to hear the answer from him and
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not wanting Leni to speak about the businessman as if he weren't there,
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he was full of secret resentment towards Leni today. And once more it
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was only Leni who answered. "He often sleeps here." "He sleeps here?"
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exclaimed K., he had thought the businessman would just wait there for
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him while he quickly settled his business with the lawyer, and then
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they would leave together to discuss everything thoroughly and
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undisturbed. "Yes," said Leni, "not everyone's like you, Josef, allowed
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to see the lawyer at any time you like. Don't even seem surprised that
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the lawyer, despite being ill, still receives you at eleven o'clock at
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night. You take it far too much for granted, what your friends do for
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you. Well, your friends, or at least I do, we like to do things for you.
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I don't want or need any more thanks than that you're fond of me." "Fond
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of you?" thought K. at first, and only then it occurred to him, "Well,
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yes, I am fond of her." Nonetheless, what he said, forgetting all the
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rest, was, "He receives me because I am his client. If I needed anyone
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else's help I'd have to beg and show gratitude whenever I do anything."
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"He's really nasty today, isn't he?" Leni asked the businessman. "Now
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it's me who's not here," thought K., and nearly lost his temper with
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the businessman when, with the same rudeness as Leni, he said, "The
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lawyer also has other reasons to receive him. His case is much more
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interesting than mine. And it's only in its early stages too, it
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probably hasn't progressed very far so the lawyer still likes to deal
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with him. That'll all change later on." "Yeah, yeah," said Leni, looking
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at the businessman and laughing. "He doesn't half talk!" she said,
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turning to face K. "You can't believe a word he says. He's as talkative
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as he is sweet. Maybe that's why the lawyer can't stand him. At least,
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he only sees him when he's in the right mood. I've already tried hard to
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change that but it's impossible. Just think, there are times when I tell
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him Block's here and he doesn't receive him until three days later. And
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if Block isn't on the spot when he's called then everything's lost and
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it all has to start all over again. That's why I let Block sleep here,
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it wouldn't be the first time Dr. Huld has wanted to see him in the
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night. So now Block is ready for that. Sometimes, when he knows Block is
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still here, he'll even change his mind about letting him in to see him."
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K. looked questioningly at the businessman. The latter nodded and,
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although he had spoken quite openly with K. earlier, seemed to be
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confused with shame as he said, "Yes, later on you become very dependent
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on your lawyer." "He's only pretending to mind," said Leni. "He likes to
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sleep here really, he's often said so." She went over to a little door
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and shoved it open. "Do you want to see his bedroom?" she asked. K.
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went over to the low, windowless room and looked in from the doorway.
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The room contained a narrow bed which filled it completely, so that to
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get into the bed you would need to climb over the bedpost. At the head
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of the bed there was a niche in the wall where, fastidiously tidy, stood
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a candle, a bottle of ink, and a pen with a bundle of papers which were
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probably to do with the trial. "You sleep in the maid's room?" asked
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K., as he went back to the businessman. "Leni's let me have it,"
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answered the businessman, "it has many advantages." K. looked long at
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him; his first impression of the businessman had perhaps not been right;
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he had experience as his trial had already lasted a long time, but he
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had paid a heavy price for this experience. K. was suddenly unable to
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bear the sight of the businessman any longer. "Bring him to bed, then!"
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he called out to Leni, who seemed to understand him. For himself, he
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wanted to go to the lawyer and, by dismissing him, free himself from not
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only the lawyer but also from Leni and the businessman. But before he
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had reached the door the businessman spoke to him gently. "Excuse me,
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sir," he said, and K. looked round crossly. "You've forgotten your
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promise," said the businessman, stretching his hand out to K.
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imploringly from where he sat. "You were going to tell me a secret."
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"That is true," said K., as he glanced at Leni, who was watching him
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carefully, to check on her. "So listen; it's hardly a secret now anyway.
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I'm going to see the lawyer now to sack him." "He's sacking him!" yelled
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the businessman, and he jumped up from his chair and ran around the
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kitchen with his arms in the air. He kept on shouting, "He's sacking his
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lawyer!" Leni tried to rush at K. but the businessman got in her way so
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that she shoved him away with her fists. Then, still with her hands
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balled into fists, she ran after K. who, however, had been given a long
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start. He was already inside the lawyer's room by the time Leni caught
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up with him. He had almost closed the door behind himself, but Leni held
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the door open with her foot, grabbed his arm and tried to pull him back.
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But he put such pressure on her wrist that, with a sigh, she was forced
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to release him. She did not dare go into the room straight away, and K.
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locked the door with the key.
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"I've been waiting for you a very long time," said the lawyer from his
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bed. He had been reading something by the light of a candle but now he
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laid it onto the bedside table and put his glasses on, looking at K.
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sharply through them. Instead of apologising K. said, "I'll be leaving
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again soon." As he had not apologised the lawyer ignored what K. said,
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and replied, "I won't let you in this late again next time." "I find
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that quite acceptable," said K. The lawyer looked at him quizzically.
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"Sit down," he said. "As you wish," said K., drawing a chair up to the
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bedside table and sitting down. "It seemed to me that you locked the
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door," said the lawyer. "Yes," said K., "it was because of Leni." He
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had no intention of letting anyone off lightly. But the lawyer asked
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him, "Was she being importunate again?" "Importunate?" asked K. "Yes,"
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said the lawyer, laughing as he did so, had a fit of coughing and then,
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once it had passed, began to laugh again. "I'm sure you must have
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noticed how importunate she can be sometimes," he said, and patted K.'s
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hand which K. had rested on the bedside table and which he now snatched
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back. "You don't attach much importance to it, then," said the lawyer
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when K. was silent, "so much the better. Otherwise I might have needed
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to apologise to you. It is a peculiarity of Leni's. I've long since
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forgiven her for it, and I wouldn't be talking of it now, if you hadn't
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locked the door just now. Anyway, perhaps I should at least explain this
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peculiarity of hers to you, but you seem rather disturbed, the way
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you're looking at me, and so that's why I'll do it, this peculiarity of
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hers consists in this: Leni finds most of the accused attractive. She
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attaches herself to each of them, loves each of them, even seems to be
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loved by each of them; then she sometimes entertains me by telling me
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about them when I allow her to. I am not so astonished by all of this as
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you seem to be. If you look at them in the right way the accused really
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can be attractive, quite often. But that is a remarkable and to some
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extent scientific phenomenon. Being indicted does not cause any clear,
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precisely definable change in a person's appearance, of course. But
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it's not like with other legal matters, most of them remain in their
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usual way of life and, if they have a good lawyer looking after them,
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the trial doesn't get in their way. But there are nonetheless those who
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have experience in these matters who can look at a crowd, however big,
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and tell you which among them is facing a charge. How can they do that,
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you will ask? My answer will not please you. It is simply that those who
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are facing a charge are the most attractive. It cannot be their guilt
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that makes them attractive as not all of them are guilty--at least
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that's what I, as a lawyer, have to say--and nor can it be the proper
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punishment that has made them attractive as not all of them are
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punished, so it can only be that the proceedings levelled against them
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take some kind of hold on them. Whatever the reason, some of these
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attractive people are indeed very attractive. But all of them are
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attractive, even Block, pitiful worm that he is." As the lawyer
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finished what he was saying, K. was fully in control of himself, he had
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even nodded conspicuously at his last few words in order to confirm to
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himself the view he had already formed: that the lawyer was trying to
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confuse him, as he always did, by making general and irrelevant
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observations, and thus distract him from the main question of what he
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was actually doing for K.'s trial. The lawyer must have noticed that K.
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was offering him more resistance than before, as he became silent,
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giving K. the chance to speak himself, and then, as K. also remained
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silent, he asked, "Did you have a particular reason for coming to see
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me today?" "Yes," said K., putting his hand up to slightly shade his
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eyes from the light of the candle so that he could see the lawyer
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better, "I wanted to tell you that I'm withdrawing my representation
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from you, with immediate effect." "Do I understand you rightly?" asked
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the lawyer as he half raised himself in his bed and supported himself
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with one hand on the pillow. "I think you do," said K., sitting stiffly
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upright as if waiting in ambush. "Well we can certainly discuss this
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plan of yours," said the lawyer after a pause. "It's not a plan any
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more," said K. "That may be," said the lawyer, "but we still mustn't
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rush anything." He used the word 'we', as if he had no intention of
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letting K. go free, and as if, even if he could no longer represent him,
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he could still at least continue as his adviser. "Nothing is being
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rushed," said K., standing slowly up and going behind his chair,
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"everything has been well thought out and probably even for too long.
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The decision is final." "Then allow me to say a few words," said the
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lawyer, throwing the bed cover to one side and sitting on the edge of
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the bed. His naked, white-haired legs shivered in the cold. He asked K.
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to pass him a blanket from the couch. K. passed him the blanket and
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said, "You are running the risk of catching cold for no reason." "The
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circumstances are important enough," said the lawyer as he wrapped the
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bed cover around the top half of his body and then the blanket around
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his legs. "Your uncle is my friend and in the course of time I've become
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fond of you as well. I admit that quite openly. There's nothing in that
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for me to be ashamed of." It was very unwelcome for K. to hear the old
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man speak in this touching way, as it forced him to explain himself more
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fully, which he would rather have avoided, and he was aware that it also
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confused him even though it could never make him reverse his decision.
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"Thank you for feeling so friendly toward me," he said, "and I also
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realise how deeply involved you've been in my case, as deeply as
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possible for yourself and to bring as much advantage as possible to me.
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Nonetheless, I have recently come to the conviction that it is not
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enough. I would naturally never attempt, considering that you are so
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much older and more experienced than I am, to convince you of my
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opinion; if I have ever unintentionally done so then I beg your
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forgiveness, but, as you have just said yourself, the circumstances are
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important enough and it is my belief that my trial needs to be
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approached with much more vigour than has so far been the case." "I
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see," said the lawyer, "you've become impatient." "I am not impatient,"
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said K., with some irritation and he stopped paying so much attention to
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his choice of words. "When I first came here with my uncle you probably
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noticed I wasn't greatly concerned about my case, and if I wasn't
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reminded of it by force, as it were, I would forget about it completely.
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But my uncle insisted I should allow you to represent me and I did so as
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a favour to him. I could have expected the case to be less of a burden
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than it had been, as the point of taking on a lawyer is that he should
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take on some of its weight. But what actually happened was the opposite.
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Before, the trial was never such a worry for me as it has been since
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you've been representing me. When I was by myself I never did anything
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about my case, I was hardly aware of it, but then, once there was
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someone representing me, everything was set for something to happen, I
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was always, without cease, waiting for you to do something, getting more
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and more tense, but you did nothing. I did get some information about
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the court from you that I probably could not have got anywhere else, but
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that can't be enough when the trial, supposedly in secret, is getting
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closer and closer to me." K. had pushed the chair away and stood erect,
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his hands in the pockets of his frock coat. "After a certain point in
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the proceedings," said the lawyer quietly and calmly, "nothing new of
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any importance ever happens. So many litigants, at the same stage in
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their trials, have stood before me just like you are now and spoken in
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the same way." "Then these other litigants," said K., "have all been
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right, just as I am. That does not show that I'm not." "I wasn't trying
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to show that you were mistaken," said the lawyer, "but I wanted to add
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that I expected better judgement from you than from the others,
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especially as I've given you more insight into the workings of the court
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and my own activities than I normally do. And now I'm forced to accept
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that, despite everything, you have too little trust in me. You don't
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make it easy for me." How the lawyer was humiliating himself to K.! He
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was showing no regard for the dignity of his position, which on this
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point, must have been at its most sensitive. And why did he do that? He
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did seem to be very busy as a lawyer as well a rich man, neither the
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loss of income nor the loss of a client could have been of much
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importance to him in themselves. He was moreover unwell and should have
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been thinking of passing work on to others. And despite all that he held
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on tightly to K. Why? Was it something personal for his uncle's sake, or
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did he really see K.'s case as one that was exceptional and hoped to be
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able to distinguish himself with it, either for K.'s sake or--and this
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possibility could never be excluded--for his friends at the court. It
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was not possible to learn anything by looking at him, even though K. was
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scrutinizing him quite brazenly. It could almost be supposed he was
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deliberately hiding his thoughts as he waited to see what effect his
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words would have. But he clearly deemed K.'s silence to be favourable
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for himself and he continued, "You will have noticed the size of my
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office, but that I don't employ any staff to help me. That used to be
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quite different, there was a time when several young lawyers were
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working for me but now I work alone. This is partly to do with changes
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in the way I do business, in that I concentrate nowadays more and more
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on matters such as your own case, and partly to do with the ever deeper
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understanding that I acquire from these legal matters. I found that I
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could never let anyone else deal with this sort of work unless I wanted
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to harm both the client and the job I had taken on. But the decision to
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do all the work myself had its obvious result: I was forced to turn
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almost everyone away who asked me to represent them and could only
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accept those I was especially interested in--well there are enough
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creatures who leap at every crumb I throw down, and they're not so very
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far away. Most importantly, I became ill from over-work. But despite
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that I don't regret my decision, quite possibly I should have turned
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more cases away than I did, but it did turn out to be entirely necessary
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for me to devote myself fully to the cases I did take on, and the
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successful results showed that it was worth it. I once read a
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description of the difference between representing someone in ordinary
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legal matters and in legal matters of this sort, and the writer
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expressed it very well. This is what he said: some lawyers lead their
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clients on a thread until judgement is passed, but there are others who
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immediately lift their clients onto their shoulders and carry them all
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the way to the judgement and beyond. That's just how it is. But it was
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quite true when I said I never regret all this work. But if, as in your
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case, they are so fully misunderstood, well, then I come very close to
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regretting it." All this talking did more to make K. impatient than to
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persuade him. From the way the lawyer was speaking, K. thought he could
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hear what he could expect if he gave in, the delays and excuses would
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begin again, reports of how the documents were progressing, how the mood
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of the court officials had improved, as well as all the enormous
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difficulties--in short all that he had heard so many times before would
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be brought out again even more fully, he would try to mislead K. with
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hopes that were never specified and to make him suffer with threats that
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were never clear. He had to put a stop to that, so he said, "What will
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you undertake on my behalf if you continue to represent me?" The lawyer
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quietly accepted even this insulting question, and answered, "I should
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continue with what I've already been doing for you." "That's just what I
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thought," said K., "and now you don't need to say another word." "I will
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make one more attempt," said the lawyer as if whatever had been making
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K. so annoyed was affecting him too. "You see, I have the impression
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that you have not only misjudged the legal assistance I have given you
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but also that that misjudgement has led you to behave in this way, you
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seem, although you are the accused, to have been treated too well or, to
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put it a better way, handled with neglect, with apparent neglect. Even
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that has its reason; it is often better to be in chains than to be free.
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But I would like to show you how other defendants are treated, perhaps
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you will succeed in learning something from it. What I will do is I will
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call Block in, unlock the door and sit down here beside the bedside
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table." "Be glad to," said K., and did as the lawyer suggested; he was
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always ready to learn something new. But to make sure of himself for any
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event he added, "but you do realise that you are no longer to be my
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lawyer, don't you?" "Yes," said the lawyer. "But you can still change
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your mind today if you want to." He lay back down in the bed, pulled the
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quilt up to his chin and turned to face the wall. Then he rang.
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Leni appeared almost the moment he had done so. She looked hurriedly at
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K. and the lawyer to try and find out what had happened; she seemed to
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be reassured by the sight of K. sitting calmly at the lawyer's bed. She
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smiled and nodded to K., K. looked blankly back at her. "Fetch Block,"
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said the lawyer. But instead of going to fetch him, Leni just went to
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the door and called out, "Block! To the lawyer!" Then, probably because
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the lawyer had turned his face to the wall and was paying no attention,
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she slipped in behind K.'s chair. From then on, she bothered him by
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leaning forward over the back of the chair or, albeit very tenderly and
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carefully, she would run her hands through his hair and over his
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cheeks. K. eventually tried to stop her by taking hold of one hand, and
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after some resistance Leni let him keep hold of it. Block came as soon
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as he was called, but he remained standing in the doorway and seemed to
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be wondering whether he should enter or not. He raised his eyebrows and
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lowered his head as if listening to find out whether the order to
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attend the lawyer would be repeated. K. could have encouraged him to
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enter, but he had decided to make a final break not only with the
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lawyer but with everything in his home, so he kept himself motionless.
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Leni was also silent. Block noticed that at least no-one was chasing
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him away, and, on tiptoe, he entered the room, his face was tense, his
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hands were clenched behind his back. He left the door open in case he
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needed to go back again. K. did not even glance at him, he looked
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instead only at the thick quilt under which the lawyer could not be seen
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as he had squeezed up very close to the wall. Then his voice was heard:
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"Block here?" he asked. Block had already crept some way into the room
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but this question seemed to give him first a shove in the breast and
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then another in the back, he seemed about to fall but remained
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standing, deeply bowed, and said, "At your service, sir." "What do you
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want?" asked the lawyer, "you've come at a bad time." "Wasn't I
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summoned?" asked Block, more to himself than the lawyer. He held his
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hands in front of himself as protection and would have been ready to run
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away any moment. "You were summoned," said the lawyer, "but you have
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still come at a bad time." Then, after a pause he added, "You always
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come at a bad time." When the lawyer started speaking Block had stopped
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looking at the bed but stared rather into one of the corners, just
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listening, as if the light from the speaker were brighter than Block
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could bear to look at. But it was also difficult for him to listen, as
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the lawyer was speaking into the wall and speaking quickly and quietly.
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"Would you like me to go away again, sir?" asked Block. "Well you're
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here now," said the lawyer. "Stay!" It was as if the lawyer had not done
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as Block had wanted but instead threatened him with a stick, as now
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Block really began to shake. "I went to see," said the lawyer, "the
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third judge yesterday, a friend of mine, and slowly brought the
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conversation round to the subject of you. Do you want to know what he
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said?" "Oh, yes please," said Block. The lawyer did not answer
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immediately, so Block repeated his request and lowered his head as if
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about to kneel down. But then K. spoke to him: "What do you think you're
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doing?" he shouted. Leni had wanted to stop him from calling out and so
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he took hold of her other hand. It was not love that made him squeeze it
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and hold on to it so tightly, she sighed frequently and tried to
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disengage her hands from him. But Block was punished for K.'s outburst,
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as the lawyer asked him, "Who is your lawyer?" "You are, sir," said
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Block. "And who besides me?" the lawyer asked. "No-one besides you,
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sir," said Block. "And let there be no-one besides me," said the lawyer.
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Block fully understood what that meant, he glowered at K., shaking his
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head violently. If these actions had been translated into words they
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would have been coarse insults. K. had been friendly and willing to
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discuss his own case with someone like this! "I won't disturb you any
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more," said K., leaning back in his chair. "You can kneel down or creep
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on all fours, whatever you like. I won't bother with you any more." But
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Block still had some sense of pride, at least where K. was concerned,
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and he went towards him waving his fists, shouting as loudly as he dared
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while the lawyer was there. "You shouldn't speak to me like that, that's
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not allowed. Why are you insulting me? Especially here in front of the
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lawyer, where both of us, you and me, we're only tolerated because of
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his charity. You're not a better person than me, you've been accused of
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something too, you're facing a charge too. If, in spite of that, you're
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still a gentleman then I'm just as much a gentleman as you are, if not
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even more so. And I want to be spoken to as a gentleman, especially by
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you. If you think being allowed to sit there and quietly listen while I
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creep on all fours as you put it makes you something better than me,
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then there's an old legal saying you ought to bear in mind: If you're
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under suspicion it's better to be moving than still, as if you're still
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you can be in the pan of the scales without knowing it and be weighed
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along with your sins." K. said nothing. He merely looked in amazement at
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this distracted being, his eyes completely still. He had gone through
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such changes in just the last few hours! Was it the trial that was
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throwing him from side to side in this way and stopped him knowing who
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was friend and who was foe? Could he not see the lawyer was deliberately
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humiliating him and had no other purpose today than to show off his
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power to K., and perhaps even thereby subjugate K.? But if Block was
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incapable of seeing that, or if he so feared the lawyer that no such
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insight would even be of any use to him, how was it that he was either
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so sly or so bold as to lie to the lawyer and conceal from him the fact
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that he had other lawyers working on his behalf? And how did he dare to
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attack K., who could betray his secret any time he liked? But he dared
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even more than this, he went to the lawyer's bed and began there to make
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complaints about K. "Dr. Huld, sir," he said, "did you hear the way this
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man spoke to me? You can count the length of his trial in hours, and he
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wants to tell me what to do when I've been involved in a legal case for
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five years. He even insults me. He doesn't know anything, but he insults
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me, when I, as far as my weak ability allows, when I've made a close
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study of how to behave with the court, what we ought to do and what the
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court practices are." "Don't let anyone bother you," said the lawyer,
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"and do what seems to you to be right." "I will," said Block, as if
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speaking to himself to give himself courage, and with a quick glance to
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the side he knelt down close beside the bed. "I'm kneeling now, Dr.
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Huld, sir," he said. But the lawyer remained silent. With one hand,
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Block carefully stroked the bed cover. In the silence while he did so,
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Leni, as she freed herself from K.'s hands, said, "You're hurting me.
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Let go of me. I'm going over to Block." She went over to him and sat on
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the edge of the bed. Block was very pleased at this and with lively,
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but silent, gestures he immediately urged her to intercede for him with
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the lawyer. It was clear that he desperately needed to be told something
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by the lawyer, although perhaps only so that he could make use of the
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information with his other lawyers. Leni probably knew very well how
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the lawyer could be brought round, pointed to his hand and pursed her
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lips as if making a kiss. Block immediately performed the hand-kiss and,
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at further urging from Leni, repeated it twice more. But the lawyer
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continued to be silent. Then Leni leant over the lawyer, as she
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stretched out, the attractive shape of her body could be seen, and,
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bent over close to his face, she stroked his long white hair. That now
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forced him to give an answer. "I'm rather wary of telling him," said
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the lawyer, and his head could be seen shaking slightly, perhaps so that
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he would feel the pressure of Leni's hand better. Block listened
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closely with his head lowered, as if by listening he were breaking an
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order. "What makes you so wary about it?" asked Leni. K. had the feeling
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he was listening to a contrived dialogue that had been repeated many
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times, that would be repeated many times more, and that for Block alone
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it would never lose its freshness. "What has his behaviour been like
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today?" asked the lawyer instead of an answer. Before Leni said
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anything she looked down at Block and watched him a short while as he
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raised his hands towards her and rubbed them together imploringly.
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Finally she gave a serious nod, turned back to the lawyer and said,
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"He's been quiet and industrious." This was an elderly businessman, a
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man whose beard was long, and he was begging a young girl to speak on
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his behalf. Even if there was some plan behind what he did, there was
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nothing that could reinstate him in the eyes of his fellow man. K. could
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not understand how the lawyer could have thought this performance would
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win him over. Even if he had done nothing earlier to make him want to
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leave then this scene would have done so. It was almost humiliating even
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for the onlooker. So these were the lawyer's methods, which K.
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fortunately had not been exposed to for long, to let the client forget
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about the whole world and leave him with nothing but the hope of
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reaching the end of his trial by this deluded means. He was no longer a
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client, he was the lawyer's dog. If the lawyer had ordered him to crawl
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under the bed as if it were a kennel and to bark out from under it, then
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he would have done so with enthusiasm. K. listened to all of this,
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testing it and thinking it over as if he had been given the task of
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closely observing everything spoken here, inform a higher office about
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it and write a report. "And what has he been doing all day?" asked the
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lawyer. "I kept him locked in the maid's room all day," said Leni, "so
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that he wouldn't stop me doing my work. That's where he usually stays.
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From time to time I looked in through the spyhole to see what he was
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doing, and each time he was kneeling on the bed and reading the papers
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you gave him, propped up on the window sill. That made a good impression
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on me; as the window only opens onto an air shaft and gives hardly any
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light. It showed how obedient he is that he was even reading in those
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conditions." "I'm pleased to hear it," said the lawyer. "But did he
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understand what he was reading?" While this conversation was going on,
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Block continually moved his lips and was clearly formulating the answers
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he hoped Leni would give. "Well I can't give you any certain answer to
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that of course," said Leni, "but I could see that he was reading
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thoroughly. He spent all day reading the same page, running his finger
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along the lines. Whenever I looked in on him he sighed as if this
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reading was a lot of work for him. I expect the papers you gave him were
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very hard to understand." "Yes," said the lawyer, "they certainly are
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that. And I really don't think he understood anything of them. But they
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should at least give him some inkling of just how hard a struggle it is
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and how much work it is for me to defend him. And who am I doing all
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this hard work for? I'm doing it--it's laughable even to say it--I'm
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doing it for Block. He ought to realise what that means, too. Did he
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study without a pause?" "Almost without a pause," answered Leni. "Just
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the once he asked me for a drink of water, so I gave him a glassful
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through the window. Then at eight o'clock I let him out and gave him
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something to eat." Block glanced sideways at K., as if he were being
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praised and had to impress K. as well. He now seemed more optimistic, he
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moved more freely and rocked back and forth on his knees. This made his
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astonishment all the more obvious when he heard the following words from
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the lawyer: "You speak well of him," said the lawyer, "but that's just
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what makes it difficult for me. You see, the judge did not speak well of
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him at all, neither about Block nor about his case." "Didn't speak well
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of him?" asked Leni. "How is that possible?" Block looked at her with
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such tension he seemed to think that although the judge's words had been
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spoken so long before she would be able to change them in his favour.
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"Not at all," said the lawyer. "In fact he became quite cross when I
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started to talk about Block to him. 'Don't talk to me about Block,' he
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said. 'He is my client,' said I. 'You're letting him abuse you,' he
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said. 'I don't think his case is lost yet,' said I. 'You're letting him
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abuse you,' he repeated. 'I don't think so,' said I. 'Block works hard
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in his case and always knows where it stands. He practically lives with
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me so that he always knows what's happening. You don't always find such
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enthusiasm as that. He's not very pleasant personally, I grant you, his
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manners are terrible and he's dirty, but as far as the trial's concerned
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he's quite immaculate.' I said immaculate, but I was deliberately
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exaggerating. Then he said, 'Block is sly, that's all. He's accumulated
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plenty of experience and knows how to delay proceedings. But there's
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more that he doesn't know than he does. What do you think he'd say if he
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learned his trial still hasn't begun, if you told him they haven't even
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rung the bell to announce the start of proceedings?' Alright Block,
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alright," said the lawyer, as at these words Block had begun to raise
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himself on his trembling knees and clearly wanted to plead for some
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explanation. It was the first time the lawyer had spoken any clear words
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directly to Block. He looked down with his tired eyes, half blankly and
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half at Block, who slowly sank back down on his knees under this gaze.
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"What the judge said has no meaning for you," said the lawyer. "You
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needn't be frightened at every word. If you do it again I won't tell you
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anything else at all. It's impossible to start a sentence without you
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looking at me as if you were receiving your final judgement. You should
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be ashamed of yourself here in front of my client! And you're destroying
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the trust he has for me. Just what is it you want? You're still alive,
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you're still under my protection. There's no point in worrying!
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Somewhere you've read that the final judgement can often come without
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warning, from anyone at any time. And, in the right circumstances,
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that's basically true, but it's also true that I dislike your anxiety
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and fear and see that you don't have the trust in me you should have.
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Now what have I just said? I repeated something said by one of the
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judges. You know that there are so many various opinions about the
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procedure that they form into a great big pile and nobody can make any
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sense of them. This judge, for instance, sees proceedings as starting at
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a different point from where I do. A difference of opinion, nothing
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more. At a certain stage in the proceedings tradition has it that a sign
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is given by ringing a bell. This judge sees that as the point at which
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proceedings begin. I can't set out all the opinions opposed to that
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view here, and you wouldn't understand it anyway, suffice it to say
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that there are many reasons to disagree with him." Embarrassed, Block
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ran his fingers through the pile of the carpet, his anxiety about what
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the judge had said had let him forget his inferior status towards the
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lawyer for a while, he thought only about himself and turned the judge's
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words round to examine them from all sides. "Block," said Leni, as if
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reprimanding him, and, taking hold of the collar of his coat, pulled him
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up slightly higher. "Leave the carpet alone and listen to what the
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lawyer is saying."
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_This chapter was left unfinished._
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Chapter Nine
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In the Cathedral
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A very important Italian business contact of the bank had come to visit
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the city for the first time and K. was given the task of showing him
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some of its cultural sights. At any other time he would have seen this
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job as an honour but now, when he was finding it hard even to maintain
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his current position in the bank, he accepted it only with reluctance.
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Every hour that he could not be in the office was a cause of concern
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for him, he was no longer able to make use of his time in the office
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anything like as well as he had previously, he spent many hours merely
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pretending to do important work, but that only increased his anxiety
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about not being in the office. Then he sometimes thought he saw the
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deputy director, who was always watching, come into K.'s office, sit at
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his desk, look through his papers, receive clients who had almost
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become old friends of K., and lure them away from him, perhaps he even
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discovered mistakes, mistakes that seemed to threaten K. from a
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thousand directions when he was at work now, and which he could no
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longer avoid. So now, if he was ever asked to leave the office on
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business or even needed to make a short business trip, however much an
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honour it seemed--and tasks of this sort happened to have increased
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substantially recently--there was always the suspicion that they wanted
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to get him out of his office for a while and check his work, or at
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least the idea that they thought he was dispensable. It would not have
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been difficult for him to turn down most of these jobs, but he did not
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dare to do so because, if his fears had the slightest foundation,
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turning the jobs down would have been an acknowledgement of them. For
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this reason, he never demurred from accepting them, and even when he
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was asked to go on a tiring business trip lasting two days he said
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nothing about having to go out in the rainy autumn weather when he had a
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severe chill, just in order to avoid the risk of not being asked to go.
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When, with a raging headache, he arrived back from this trip he learned
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that he had been chosen to accompany the Italian business contact the
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following day. The temptation for once to turn the job down was very
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great, especially as it had no direct connection with business, but
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there was no denying that social obligations towards this business
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contact were in themselves important enough, only not for K., who knew
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quite well that he needed some successes at work if he was to maintain
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his position there and that, if he failed in that, it would not help
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him even if this Italian somehow found him quite charming; he did not
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want to be removed from his workplace for even one day, as the fear of
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not being allowed back in was too great, he knew full well that the fear
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was exaggerated but it still made him anxious. However, in this case it
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was almost impossible to think of an acceptable excuse, his knowledge
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of Italian was not great but still good enough; the deciding factor was
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that K. had earlier known a little about art history and this had
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become widely known around the bank in extremely exaggerated form, and
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that K. had been a member of the Society for the Preservation of City
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Monuments, albeit only for business reasons. It was said that this
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Italian was an art lover, so the choice of K. to accompany him was a
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matter of course.
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It was a very rainy and stormy morning when K., in a foul temper at the
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thought of the day ahead of him, arrived early at seven o'clock in the
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office so that he could at least do some work before his visitor would
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prevent him. He had spent half the night studying a book of Italian
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grammar so that he would be somewhat prepared and was very tired; his
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desk was less attractive to him than the window where he had spent far
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too much time sitting of late, but he resisted the temptation and sat
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down to his work. Unfortunately, just then the servitor came in and
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reported that the director had sent him to see whether the chief clerk
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was already in his office; if he was, then would he please be so kind
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as to come to his reception room as the gentleman from Italy was
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already there. "I'll come straight away," said K. He put a small
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dictionary in his pocket, took a guide to the city's tourist sites
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under his arm that he had compiled for strangers, and went through the
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deputy director's office into that of the director. He was glad he had
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come into the office so early and was able to be of service
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immediately, nobody could seriously have expected that of him. The
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deputy director's office was, of course, still as empty as the middle
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of the night, the servitor had probably been asked to summon him too
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but without success. As K. entered the reception room two men stood up
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from the deep armchairs where they had been sitting. The director gave
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him a friendly smile, he was clearly very glad that K. was there, he
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immediately introduced him to the Italian who shook K.'s hand
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vigorously and joked that somebody was an early riser. K. did not quite
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understand whom he had in mind, it was moreover an odd expression to use
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and it took K. a little while to guess its meaning. He replied with a
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few bland phrases which the Italian received once more with a laugh,
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passing his hand nervously and repeatedly over his blue-grey, bushy
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moustache. This moustache was obviously perfumed, it was almost tempting
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to come close to it and sniff. When they had all sat down and begun a
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light preliminary conversation, K. was disconcerted to notice that he
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understood no more than fragments of what the Italian said. When he
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spoke very calmly he understood almost everything, but that was very
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infrequent, mostly the words gushed from his mouth and he seemed to be
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enjoying himself so much his head shook. When he was talking in this
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way his speech was usually wrapped up in some kind of dialect which
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seemed to K. to have nothing to do with Italian but which the director
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not only understood but also spoke, although K. ought to have foreseen
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this as the Italian came from the south of his country where the
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director had also spent several years. Whatever the cause, K. realised
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that the possibility of communicating with the Italian had been largely
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taken from him, even his French was difficult to understand, and his
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moustache concealed the movements of his lips which might have offered
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some help in understanding what he said. K. began to anticipate many
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difficulties, he gave up trying to understand what the Italian
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said--with the director there, who could understand him so easily, it
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would have been pointless effort--and for the time being did no more
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than scowl at the Italian as he relaxed sitting deep but comfortable in
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the armchair, as he frequently pulled at his short, sharply tailored
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jacket and at one time lifted his arms in the air and moved his hands
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freely to try and depict something that K. could not grasp, even though
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he was leaning forward and did not let the hands out of his sight. K.
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had nothing to occupy himself but mechanically watch the exchange
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between the two men and his tiredness finally made itself felt, to his
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alarm, although fortunately in good time, he once caught himself nearly
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getting up, turning round and leaving. Eventually the Italian looked at
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the clock and jumped up. After taking his leave from the director he
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turned to K., pressing himself so close to him that K. had to push his
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chair back just so that he could move. The director had, no doubt, seen
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the anxiety in K.'s eyes as he tried to cope with this dialect of
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Italian, he joined in with this conversation in a way that was so
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adroit and unobtrusive that he seemed to be adding no more than minor
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comments, whereas in fact he was swiftly and patiently breaking into
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what the Italian said so that K. could understand. K. learned in this
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way that the Italian first had a few business matters to settle, that
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he unfortunately had only a little time at his disposal, that he
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certainly did not intend to rush round to see every monument in the
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city, that he would much rather--at least as long as K. would agree, it
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was entirely his decision--just see the cathedral and to do so
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thoroughly. He was extremely pleased to be accompanied by someone who
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was so learned and so pleasant--by this he meant K., who was occupied
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not with listening to the Italian but the director--and asked if he
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would be so kind, if the time was suitable, to meet him in the cathedral
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in two hours' time at about ten o'clock. He hoped he would certainly be
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able to be there at that time. K. made an appropriate reply, the Italian
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shook first the director's hand and then K.'s, then the director's again
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and went to the door, half turned to the two men who followed him and
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continuing to talk without a break. K. remained together with the
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director for a short while, although the director looked especially
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unhappy today. He thought he needed to apologise to K. for something and
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told him--they were standing intimately close together--he had thought
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at first he would accompany the Italian himself, but then--he gave no
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more precise reason than this--then he decided it would be better to
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send K. with him. He should not be surprised if he could not understand
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the Italian at first, he would be able to very soon, and even if he
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really could not understand very much he said it was not so bad, as it
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was really not so important for the Italian to be understood. And
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anyway, K.'s knowledge of Italian was surprisingly good, the director
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was sure he would get by very well. And with that, it was time for K. to
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go. He spent the time still remaining to him with a dictionary, copying
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out obscure words he would need to guide the Italian round the
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cathedral. It was an extremely irksome task, servitors brought him the
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mail, bank staff came with various queries and, when they saw that K.
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was busy, stood by the door and did not go away until he had listened to
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them, the deputy director did not miss the opportunity to disturb K. and
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came in frequently, took the dictionary from his hand and flicked
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through its pages, clearly for no purpose, when the door to the
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ante-room opened even clients would appear from the half-darkness and
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bow timidly to him--they wanted to attract his attention but were not
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sure whether he had seen them--all this activity was circling around K.
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with him at its centre while he compiled the list of words he would
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need, then looked them up in the dictionary, then wrote them out, then
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practised their pronunciation and finally tried to learn them by heart.
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The good intentions he had had earlier, though, seemed to have left him
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completely, it was the Italian who had caused him all this effort and
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sometimes he became so angry with him that he buried the dictionary
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under some papers firmly intending to do no more preparation, but then
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he realised he could not walk up and down in the cathedral with the
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Italian without saying a word, so, in an even greater rage, he pulled
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the dictionary back out again.
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At exactly half past nine, just when he was about to leave, there was a
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telephone call for him, Leni wished him good morning and asked how he
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was, K. thanked her hurriedly and told her it was impossible for him to
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talk now as he had to go to the cathedral. "To the cathedral?" asked
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Leni. "Yes, to the cathedral." "What do you have to go to the cathedral
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for?" said Leni. K. tried to explain it to her briefly, but he had
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hardly begun when Leni suddenly said, "They're harassing you." One
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thing that K. could not bear was pity that he had not wanted or
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expected, he took his leave of her with two words, but as he put the
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receiver back in its place he said, half to himself and half to the
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girl on the other end of the line who could no longer hear him, "Yes,
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they're harassing me."
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By now the time was late and there was almost a danger he would not be
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on time. He took a taxi to the cathedral, at the last moment he had
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remembered the album that he had had no opportunity to give to the
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Italian earlier and so took it with him now. He held it on his knees
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and drummed impatiently on it during the whole journey. The rain had
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eased off slightly but it was still damp, chilly and dark, it would be
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difficult to see anything in the cathedral but standing about on cold
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flagstones might well make K.'s chill much worse. The square in front
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of the cathedral was quite empty, K. remembered how even as a small
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child he had noticed that nearly all the houses in this narrow square
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had the curtains at their windows closed most of the time, although
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today, with the weather like this, it was more understandable. The
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cathedral also seemed quite empty, of course no-one would think of
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going there on a day like this. K. hurried along both the side naves
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but saw no-one but an old woman who, wrapped up in a warm shawl, was
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kneeling at a picture of the Virgin Mary and staring up at it. Then, in
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the distance, he saw a church official who limped away through a
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doorway in the wall. K. had arrived on time, it had struck ten just as
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he was entering the building, but the Italian still was not there. K.
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went back to the main entrance, stood there indecisively for a while,
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and then walked round the cathedral in the rain in case the Italian was
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waiting at another entrance. He was nowhere to be found. Could the
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director have misunderstood what time they had agreed on? How could
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anyone understand someone like that properly anyway? Whatever had
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happened, K. would have to wait for him for at least half an hour. As
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he was tired he wanted to sit down, he went back inside the cathedral,
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he found something like a small carpet on one of the steps, he moved it
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with his foot to a nearby pew, wrapped himself up tighter in his coat,
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put the collar up and sat down. To pass the time he opened the album
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and flicked through the pages a little but soon had to give up as it
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became so dark that when he looked up he could hardly make out anything
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in the side nave next to him.
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In the distance there was a large triangle of candles flickering on the
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main altar, K. was not certain whether he had seen them earlier.
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Perhaps they had only just been lit. Church staff creep silently as
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part of their job, you don't notice them. When K. happened to turn
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round he also saw a tall, stout candle attached to a column not far
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behind him. It was all very pretty, but totally inadequate to illuminate
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the pictures which were usually left in the darkness of the side
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altars, and seemed to make the darkness all the deeper. It was
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discourteous of the Italian not to come but it was also sensible of him,
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there would have been nothing to see, they would have had to content
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themselves with seeking out a few pictures with K.'s electric pocket
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torch and looking at them one small part at a time. K. went over to a
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nearby side chapel to see what they could have hoped for, he went up a
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few steps to a low marble railing and leant over it to look at the altar
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picture by the light of his torch. The eternal light hung disturbingly
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in front of it. The first thing that K. partly saw and partly guessed at
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was a large knight in armour who was shown at the far edge of the
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painting. He was leaning on his sword that he had stuck into the naked
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ground in front of him where only a few blades of grass grew here and
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there. He seemed to be paying close attention to something that was
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being played out in front of him. It was astonishing to see how he stood
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there without going any closer. Perhaps it was his job to stand guard.
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It was a long time since K. had looked at any pictures and he studied
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the knight for a long time even though he had continually to blink as
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he found it difficult to bear the green light of his torch. Then when
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he moved the light to the other parts of the picture he found an
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interment of Christ shown in the usual way, it was also a comparatively
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new painting. He put his torch away and went back to his place.
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There seemed to be no point in waiting for the Italian any longer, but
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outside it was certainly raining heavily, and as it was not so cold in
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the cathedral as K. had expected he decided to stay there for the time
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being. Close by him was the great pulpit, there were two plain golden
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crosses attached to its little round roof which were lying almost flat
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and whose tips crossed over each other. The outside of the pulpit's
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balustrade was covered in green foliage which continued down to the
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column supporting it, little angels could be seen among the leaves,
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some of them lively and some of them still. K. walked up to the pulpit
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and examined it from all sides, its stonework had been sculpted with
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great care, it seemed as if the foliage had trapped a deep darkness
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between and behind its leaves and held it there prisoner, K. lay his
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hand in one of these gaps and cautiously felt the stone, until then he
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had been totally unaware of this pulpit's existence. Then K. happened
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to notice one of the church staff standing behind the next row of pews,
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he wore a loose, creased, black cassock, he held a snuff box in his
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left hand and he was watching K. Now what does he want? thought K. Do I
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seem suspicious to him? Does he want a tip? But when the man in the
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cassock saw that K. had noticed him he raised his right hand, a pinch
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of snuff still held between two fingers, and pointed in some vague
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direction. It was almost impossible to understand what this behaviour
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meant, K. waited a while longer but the man in the cassock did not stop
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gesturing with his hand and even augmented it by nodding his head. "Now
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what does he want?" asked K. quietly, he did not dare call out loud
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here; but then he drew out his purse and pushed his way through the
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nearest pews to reach the man. He, however, immediately gestured to
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turn down this offer, shrugged his shoulders and limped away. As a child
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K. had imitated riding on a horse with the same sort of movement as
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this limp. "This old man is like a child," thought K., "he doesn't have
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the sense for anything more than serving in a church. Look at the way
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he stops when I stop, and how he waits to see whether I'll continue."
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With a smile, K. followed the old man all the way up the side nave and
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almost as far as the main altar, all this time the old man continued to
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point at something but K. deliberately avoided looking round, he was
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only pointing in order to make it harder for K. to follow him.
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Eventually, K. did stop following, he did not want to worry the old man
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too much, and he also did not want to frighten him away completely in
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case the Italian turned up after all.
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When he entered the central nave to go back to where he had left the
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album, he noticed a small secondary pulpit on a column almost next to
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the stalls by the altar where the choir sat. It was very simple, made
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of plain white stone, and so small that from a distance it looked like
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an empty niche where the statue of a saint ought to have been. It
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certainly would have been impossible for the priest to take a full step
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back from the balustrade, and, although there was no decoration on it,
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the top of the pulpit curved in exceptionally low so that a man of
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average height would not be able stand upright and would have to remain
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bent forward over the balustrade. In all, it looked as if it had been
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intended to make the priest suffer, it was impossible to understand why
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this pulpit would be needed as there were also the other ones available
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which were large and so artistically decorated.
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And K. would certainly not have noticed this little pulpit if there had
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not been a lamp fastened above it, which usually meant there was a
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sermon about to be given. So was a sermon to be given now? In this
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empty church? K. looked down at the steps which, pressed close against
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the column, led up to the pulpit. They were so narrow they seemed to be
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there as decoration on the column rather than for anyone to use. But
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under the pulpit--K. grinned in astonishment--there really was a priest
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standing with his hand on the handrail ready to climb the steps and
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looking at K. Then he nodded very slightly, so that K. crossed himself
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and genuflected as he should have done earlier. With a little swing,
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the priest went up into the pulpit with short fast steps. Was there
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really a sermon about to begin? Maybe the man in the cassock had not
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been really so demented, and had meant to lead K.'s way to the
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preacher, which in this empty church would have been very necessary.
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And there was also, somewhere in front of a picture of the Virgin Mary,
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an old woman who should have come to hear the sermon. And if there was
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to be a sermon why had it not been introduced on the organ? But the
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organ remained quiet and merely looked out weakly from the darkness of
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its great height.
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K. now considered whether he should leave as quickly as possible, if he
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did not do it now there would be no chance of doing so during the
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sermon and he would have to stay there for as long as it lasted, he had
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lost so much time when he should have been in his office, there had
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long been no need for him to wait for the Italian any longer, he looked
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at his watch, it was eleven. But could there really be a sermon given?
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Could K. constitute the entire congregation? How could he when he was
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just a stranger who wanted to look at the church? That, basically, was
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all he was. The idea of a sermon, now, at eleven o'clock, on a workday,
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in hideous weather, was nonsense. The priest--there was no doubt that
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he was a priest, a young man with a smooth, dark face--was clearly
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going up there just to put the lamp out after somebody had lit it by
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mistake.
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But there had been no mistake, the priest seemed rather to check that
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the lamp was lit and turned it a little higher, then he slowly turned
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to face the front and leant down on the balustrade gripping its angular
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rail with both hands. He stood there like that for a while and, without
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turning his head, looked around. K. had moved back a long way and leant
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his elbows on the front pew. Somewhere in the church--he could not have
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said exactly where--he could make out the man in the cassock hunched
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under his bent back and at peace, as if his work were completed. In the
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cathedral it was now very quiet! But K. would have to disturb that
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silence, he had no intention of staying there; if it was the priest's
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duty to preach at a certain time regardless of the circumstances then
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he could, and he could do it without K.'s taking part, and K.'s
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presence would do nothing to augment the effect of it. So K. began
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slowly to move, felt his way on tiptoe along the pew, arrived at the
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broad aisle and went along it without being disturbed, except for the
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sound of his steps, however light, which rang out on the stone floor
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and resounded from the vaulting, quiet but continuous at a repeating,
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regular pace. K. felt slightly abandoned as, probably observed by the
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priest, he walked by himself between the empty pews, and the size of
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the cathedral seemed to be just at the limit of what a man could bear.
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When he arrived back at where he had been sitting he did not hesitate
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but simply reached out for the album he had left there and took it with
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him. He had nearly left the area covered by pews and was close to the
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empty space between himself and the exit when, for the first time, he
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heard the voice of the priest. A powerful and experienced voice. It
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pierced through the reaches of the cathedral ready waiting for it! But
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the priest was not calling out to the congregation, his cry was quite
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unambiguous and there was no escape from it, he called "Josef K.!"
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K. stood still and looked down at the floor. In theory he was still
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free, he could have carried on walking, through one of three dark
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little wooden doors not far in front of him and away from there. It
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would simply mean he had not understood, or that he had understood but
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chose not to pay attention to it. But if he once turned round he would
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be trapped, then he would have acknowledged that he had understood
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perfectly well, that he really was the Josef K. the priest had called
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to and that he was willing to follow. If the priest had called out
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again K. would certainly have carried on out the door, but everything
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was silent as K. also waited, he turned his head slightly as he wanted
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to see what the priest was doing now. He was merely standing in the
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pulpit as before, but it was obvious that he had seen K. turn his head.
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If K. did not now turn round completely it would have been like a child
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playing hide and seek. He did so, and the priest beckoned him with his
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finger. As everything could now be done openly he ran--because of
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curiosity and the wish to get it over with--with long flying leaps
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towards the pulpit. At the front pews he stopped, but to the priest he
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still seemed too far away, he reached out his hand and pointed sharply
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down with his finger to a place immediately in front of the pulpit. And
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K. did as he was told, standing in that place he had to bend his head a
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long way back just to see the priest. "You are Josef K.," said the
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priest, and raised his hand from the balustrade to make a gesture whose
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meaning was unclear. "Yes," said K., he considered how freely he had
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always given his name in the past, for some time now it had been a
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burden to him, now there were people who knew his name whom he had
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never seen before, it had been so nice first to introduce yourself and
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only then for people to know who you were. "You have been accused,"
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said the priest, especially gently. "Yes," said K., "so I have been
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informed." "Then you are the one I am looking for," said the priest. "I
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am the prison chaplain." "I see," said K. "I had you summoned here,"
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said the priest, "because I wanted to speak to you." "I knew nothing of
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that," said K. "I came here to show the cathedral to a gentleman from
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Italy." "That is beside the point," said the priest. "What are you
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holding in your hand? Is it a prayer book?" "No," answered K., "it's an
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album of the city's tourist sights." "Put it down," said the priest. K.
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threw it away with such force that it flapped open and rolled across
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the floor, tearing its pages. "Do you know your case is going badly?"
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asked the priest. "That's how it seems to me too," said K. "I've
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expended a lot of effort on it, but so far with no result. Although I do
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still have some documents to submit." "How do you imagine it will end?"
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asked the priest. "At first I thought it was bound to end well," said
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K., "but now I have my doubts about it. I don't know how it will end. Do
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you know?" "I don't," said the priest, "but I fear it will end badly.
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You are considered guilty. Your case will probably not even go beyond a
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minor court. Provisionally at least, your guilt is seen as proven."
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"But I'm not guilty," said K., "there's been a mistake. How is it even
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possible for someone to be guilty? We're all human beings here, one
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like the other." "That is true," said the priest, "but that is how the
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guilty speak." "Do you presume I'm guilty too?" asked K. "I make no
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presumptions about you," said the priest. "I thank you for that," said
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K. "but everyone else involved in these proceedings has something
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against me and presumes I'm guilty. They even influence those who
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aren't involved. My position gets harder all the time." "You don't
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understand the facts," said the priest, "the verdict does not come
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suddenly, proceedings continue until a verdict is reached gradually."
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"I see," said K., lowering his head. "What do you intend to do about
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your case next?" asked the priest. "I still need to find help," said
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K., raising his head to see what the priest thought of this. "There are
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still certain possibilities I haven't yet made use of." "You look for
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too much help from people you don't know," said the priest
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disapprovingly, "and especially from women. Can you really not see
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that's not the help you need?" "Sometimes, in fact quite often, I could
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believe you're right," said K., "but not always. Women have a lot of
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power. If I could persuade some of the women I know to work together
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with me then I would be certain to succeed. Especially in a court like
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this that seems to consist of nothing but woman-chasers. Show the
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examining judge a woman in the distance and he'll run right over the
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desk, and the accused, just to get to her as soon as he can." The
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priest lowered his head down to the balustrade, only now did the roof
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over the pulpit seem to press him down. What sort of dreadful weather
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could it be outside? It was no longer just a dull day, it was deepest
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night. None of the stained glass in the main window shed even a flicker
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of light on the darkness of the walls. And this was the moment when the
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man in the cassock chose to put out the candles on the main altar, one
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by one. "Are you cross with me?" asked K. "Maybe you don't know what
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sort of court it is you serve." He received no answer. "Well, it's just
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my own experience," said K. Above him there was still silence. "I didn't
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mean to insult you," said K. At that, the priest screamed down at K.:
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"Can you not see two steps in front of you?" He shouted in anger, but it
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was also the scream of one who sees another fall and, shocked and
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without thinking, screams against his own will.
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The two men, then, remained silent for a long time. In the darkness
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beneath him, the priest could not possibly have seen K. distinctly,
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although K. was able to see him clearly by the light of the little
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lamp. Why did the priest not come down? He had not given a sermon, he
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had only told K. a few things which, if he followed them closely, would
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probably cause him more harm than good. But the priest certainly seemed
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to mean well, it might even be possible, if he would come down and
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co-operate with him, it might even be possible for him to obtain some
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acceptable piece of advice that could make all the difference, it
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might, for instance, be able to show him not so much to influence the
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proceedings but how to break free of them, how to evade them, how to
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live away from them. K. had to admit that this was something he had had
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on his mind quite a lot of late. If the priest knew of such a
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possibility he might, if K. asked him, let him know about it, even
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though he was part of the court himself and even though, when K. had
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criticised the court, he had held down his gentle nature and actually
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shouted at K.
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"Would you not like to come down here?" asked K. "If you're not going
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to give a sermon come down here with me." "Now I can come down," said
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the priest, perhaps he regretted having shouted at K. As he took down
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the lamp from its hook he said, "to start off with I had to speak to
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you from a distance. Otherwise I'm too easily influenced and forget my
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duty."
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K. waited for him at the foot of the steps. While he was still on one
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of the higher steps as he came down them the priest reached out his
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hand for K. to shake. "Can you spare me a little of your time?" asked
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K. "As much time as you need," said the priest, and passed him the
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little lamp for him to carry. Even at close distance the priest did not
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lose a certain solemnity that seemed to be part of his character. "You
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are very friendly towards me," said K., as they walked up and down
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beside each other in the darkness of one of the side naves. "That makes
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you an exception among all those who belong to the court. I can trust
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you more than any of the others I've seen. I can speak openly with you."
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"Don't fool yourself," said the priest. "How would I be fooling myself?"
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asked K. "You fool yourself in the court," said the priest, "it talks
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about this self-deceit in the opening paragraphs to the law. In front of
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the law there is a doorkeeper. A man from the countryside comes up to
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the door and asks for entry. But the doorkeeper says he can't let him in
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to the law right now. The man thinks about this, and then he asks if
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he'll be able to go in later on. 'That's possible,' says the doorkeeper,
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'but not now.' The gateway to the law is open as it always is, and the
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doorkeeper has stepped to one side, so the man bends over to try and
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see in. When the doorkeeper notices this he laughs and says, 'If you're
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tempted give it a try, try and go in even though I say you can't.
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Careful though: I'm powerful. And I'm only the lowliest of all the
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doormen. But there's a doorkeeper for each of the rooms and each of
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them is more powerful than the last. It's more than I can stand just to
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look at the third one.' The man from the country had not expected
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difficulties like this, the law was supposed to be accessible for
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anyone at any time, he thinks, but now he looks more closely at the
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doorkeeper in his fur coat, sees his big hooked nose, his long thin
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tartar-beard, and he decides it's better to wait until he has
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permission to enter. The doorkeeper gives him a stool and lets him sit
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down to one side of the gate. He sits there for days and years. He tries
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to be allowed in time and again and tires the doorkeeper with his
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requests. The doorkeeper often questions him, asking about where he's
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from and many other things, but these are disinterested questions such
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as great men ask, and he always ends up by telling him he still can't
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let him in. The man had come well equipped for his journey, and uses
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everything, however valuable, to bribe the doorkeeper. He accepts
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everything, but as he does so he says, 'I'll only accept this so that
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you don't think there's anything you've failed to do.' Over many years,
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the man watches the doorkeeper almost without a break. He forgets about
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the other doormen, and begins to think this one is the only thing
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stopping him from gaining access to the law. Over the first few years he
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curses his unhappy condition out loud, but later, as he becomes old, he
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just grumbles to himself. He becomes senile, and as he has come to know
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even the fleas in the doorkeeper's fur collar over the years that he has
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been studying him he even asks them to help him and change the
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doorkeeper's mind. Finally his eyes grow dim, and he no longer knows
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whether it's really getting darker or just his eyes that are deceiving
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him. But he seems now to see an inextinguishable light begin to shine
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from the darkness behind the door. He doesn't have long to live now.
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Just before he dies, he brings together all his experience from all this
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time into one question which he has still never put to the doorkeeper.
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He beckons to him, as he's no longer able to raise his stiff body. The
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doorkeeper has to bend over deeply as the difference in their sizes has
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changed very much to the disadvantage of the man. 'What is it you want
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to know now?' asks the doorkeeper, 'You're insatiable.' 'Everyone wants
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access to the law,' says the man, 'how come, over all these years,
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no-one but me has asked to be let in?' The doorkeeper can see the man's
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come to his end, his hearing has faded, and so, so that he can be heard,
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he shouts to him: 'Nobody else could have got in this way, as this
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entrance was meant only for you. Now I'll go and close it.'"
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"So the doorkeeper cheated the man," said K. immediately, who had been
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captivated by the story. "Don't be too quick," said the priest, "don't
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take somebody else's opinion without checking it. I told you the story
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exactly as it was written. There's nothing in there about cheating."
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"But it's quite clear," said K., "and your first interpretation of it
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was quite correct. The doorkeeper gave him the information that would
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release him only when it could be of no more use." "He didn't ask him
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before that," said the priest, "and don't forget he was only a
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doorkeeper, and as doorkeeper he did his duty." "What makes you think
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he did his duty?" asked K., "He didn't. It might have been his duty to
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keep everyone else away, but this man is who the door was intended for
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and he ought to have let him in." "You're not paying enough attention
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to what was written and you're changing the story," said the priest.
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"According to the story, there are two important things that the
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doorkeeper explains about access to the law, one at the beginning, one
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at the end. At one place he says he can't allow him in now, and at the
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other he says this entrance was intended for him alone. If one of the
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statements contradicted the other you would be right and the doorkeeper
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would have cheated the man from the country. But there is no
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contradiction. On the contrary, the first statement even hints at the
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second. You could almost say the doorkeeper went beyond his duty in
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that he offered the man some prospect of being admitted in the future.
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Throughout the story, his duty seems to have been merely to turn the
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man away, and there are many commentators who are surprised that the
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doorkeeper offered this hint at all, as he seems to love exactitude and
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keeps strict guard over his position. He stays at his post for many
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years and doesn't close the gate until the very end, he's very
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conscious of the importance of his service, as he says, 'I'm powerful,'
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he has respect for his superiors, as he says, 'I'm only the lowliest of
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the doormen,' he's not talkative, as through all these years the only
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questions he asks are 'disinterested,' he's not corruptible, as when
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he's offered a gift he says, 'I'll only accept this so that you don't
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think there's anything you've failed to do,' as far as fulfilling his
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duty goes he can be neither ruffled nor begged, as it says about the
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man that, 'he tires the doorkeeper with his requests,' even his
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external appearance suggests a pedantic character, the big hooked nose
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and the long, thin, black tartar-beard. How could any doorkeeper be
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more faithful to his duty? But in the doorkeeper's character there are
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also other features which might be very useful for those who seek entry
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to the law, and when he hinted at some possibility in the future it
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always seemed to make it clear that he might even go beyond his duty.
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There's no denying he's a little simple-minded, and that makes him a
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little conceited. Even if all he said about his power and the power of
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the other doorkeepers and how not even he could bear the sight of
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them--I say even if all these assertions are right, the way he makes
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them shows that he's too simple and arrogant to understand properly.
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The commentators say about this that, 'correct understanding of a matter
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and a misunderstanding of the same matter are not mutually exclusive.'
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Whether they're right or not, you have to concede that his simplicity
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and arrogance, however little they show, do weaken his function of
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guarding the entrance, they are defects in the doorkeeper's character.
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You also have to consider that the doorkeeper seems to be friendly by
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nature, he isn't always just an official. He makes a joke right at the
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beginning, in that he invites the man to enter at the same time as
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maintaining the ban on his entering, and then he doesn't send him away
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but gives him, as it says in the text, a stool to sit on and lets him
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stay by the side of the door. The patience with which he puts up with
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the man's requests through all these years, the little questioning
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sessions, accepting the gifts, his politeness when he puts up with the
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man cursing his fate even though it was the doorkeeper who caused that
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fate--all these things seem to want to arouse our sympathy. Not every
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doorkeeper would have behaved in the same way. And finally, he lets the
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man beckon him and he bends deep down to him so that he can put his
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last question. There's no more than some slight impatience--the
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doorkeeper knows everything's come to its end--shown in the words,
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'You're insatiable.' There are many commentators who go even further in
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explaining it in this way and think the words, 'you're insatiable' are
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an expression of friendly admiration, albeit with some condescension.
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However you look at it the figure of the doorkeeper comes out
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differently from how you might think." "You know the story better than
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I do and you've known it for longer," said K. They were silent for a
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while. And then K. said, "So you think the man was not cheated, do
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you?" "Don't get me wrong," said the priest, "I'm just pointing out the
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different opinions about it. You shouldn't pay too much attention to
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people's opinions. The text cannot be altered, and the various opinions
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are often no more than an expression of despair over it. There's even
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one opinion which says it's the doorkeeper who's been cheated." "That
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does seem to take things too far," said K. "How can they argue the
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doorkeeper has been cheated?" "Their argument," answered the priest,
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"is based on the simplicity of the doorkeeper. They say the doorkeeper
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doesn't know the inside of the law, only the way into it where he just
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walks up and down. They see his ideas of what's inside the law as
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rather childish, and suppose he's afraid himself of what he wants to
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make the man frightened of. Yes, he's more afraid of it than the man, as
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the man wants nothing but to go inside the law, even after he's heard
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about the terrible doormen there, in contrast to the doorkeeper who
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doesn't want to go in, or at least we don't hear anything about it. On
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the other hand, there are those who say he must have already been inside
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the law as he has been taken on into its service and that could only
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have been done inside. That can be countered by supposing he could have
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been given the job of doorkeeper by somebody calling out from inside,
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and that he can't have gone very far inside as he couldn't bear the
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sight of the third doorkeeper. Nor, through all those years, does the
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story say the doorkeeper told the man anything about the inside, other
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than his comment about the other doorkeepers. He could have been
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forbidden to do so, but he hasn't said anything about that either. All
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this seems to show he doesn't know anything about what the inside looks
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like or what it means, and that that's why he's being deceived. But he's
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also being deceived by the man from the country as he's this man's
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subordinate and doesn't know it. There's a lot to indicate that he
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treats the man as his subordinate, I expect you remember, but those who
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hold this view would say it's very clear that he really is his
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subordinate. Above all, the free man is superior to the man who has to
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serve another. Now, the man really is free, he can go wherever he wants,
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the only thing forbidden to him is entry into the law and, what's more,
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there's only one man forbidding him to do so--the doorkeeper. If he
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takes the stool and sits down beside the door and stays there all his
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life he does this of his own free will, there's nothing in the story to
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say he was forced to do it. On the other hand, the doorkeeper is kept to
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his post by his employment, he's not allowed to go away from it and it
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seems he's not allowed to go inside either, not even if he wanted to.
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Also, although he's in the service of the law he's only there for this
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one entrance, therefore he's there only in the service of this one man
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who the door's intended for. This is another way in which he's his
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subordinate. We can take it that he's been performing this somewhat
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empty service for many years, through the whole of a man's life, as it
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says that a man will come, that means someone old enough to be a man.
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That means the doorkeeper will have to wait a long time before his
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function is fulfilled, he will have to wait for as long as the man
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liked, who came to the door of his own free will. Even the end of the
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doorkeeper's service is determined by when the man's life ends, so the
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doorkeeper remains his subordinate right to the end. And it's pointed
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out repeatedly that the doorkeeper seems to know nothing of any of
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this, although this is not seen as anything remarkable, as those who
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hold this view see the doorkeeper as deluded in a way that's far worse,
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a way that's to do with his service. At the end, speaking about the
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entrance he says, 'Now I'll go and close it,' although at the beginning
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of the story it says the door to the law is open as it always is, but if
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it's always open--always--that means it's open independently of the
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lifespan of the man it's intended for, and not even the doorkeeper will
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be able to close it. There are various opinions about this, some say
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the doorkeeper was only answering a question or showing his devotion to
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duty or, just when the man was in his last moments, the doorkeeper
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wanted to cause him regret and sorrow. There are many who agree that he
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wouldn't be able to close the door. They even believe, at the end at
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least, the doorkeeper is aware, deep down, that he's the man's
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subordinate, as the man sees the light that shines out of the entry to
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the law whereas the doorkeeper would probably have his back to it and
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says nothing at all to show there's been any change." "That is well
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substantiated," said K., who had been repeating some parts of the
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priest's explanation to himself in a whisper. "It is well substantiated,
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and now I too think the doorkeeper must have been deceived. Although
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that does not mean I've abandoned what I thought earlier as the two
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versions are, to some extent, not incompatible. It's not clear whether
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the doorkeeper sees clearly or is deceived. I said the man had been
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cheated. If the doorkeeper understands clearly, then there could be some
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doubt about it, but if the doorkeeper has been deceived then the man is
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bound to believe the same thing. That would mean the doorkeeper is not a
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cheat but so simple-minded that he ought to be dismissed from his job
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immediately; if the doorkeeper is mistaken it will do him no harm but
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the man will be harmed immensely." "There you've found another opinion,"
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said the priest, "as there are many who say the story doesn't give
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anyone the right to judge the doorkeeper. However he might seem to us he
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is still in the service of the law, so he belongs to the law, so he's
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beyond what man has a right to judge. In this case we can't believe the
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doorkeeper is the man's subordinate. Even if he has to stay at the
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entrance into the law his service makes him incomparably more than if he
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lived freely in the world. The man has come to the law for the first
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time and the doorkeeper is already there. He's been given his position
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by the law, to doubt his worth would be to doubt the law." "I can't say
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I'm in complete agreement with this view," said K. shaking his head, "as
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if you accept it you'll have to accept that everything said by the
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doorkeeper is true. But you've already explained very fully that that's
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not possible." "No," said the priest, "you don't need to accept
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everything as true, you only have to accept it as necessary."
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"Depressing view," said K. "The lie made into the rule of the world."
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K. said that as if it were his final word but it was not his
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conclusion. He was too tired to think about all the ramifications of
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the story, and the sort of thoughts they led him into were not familiar
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to him, unrealistic things, things better suited for officials of the
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court to discuss than for him. The simple story had lost its shape, he
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wanted to shake it off, and the priest who now felt quite compassionate
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allowed this and accepted K.'s remarks without comment, even though his
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view was certainly very different from K.'s.
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In silence, they carried on walking for some time, K. stayed close
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beside the priest without knowing where he was. The lamp in his hand
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had long since gone out. Once, just in front of him, he thought he
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could see the statue of a saint by the glitter of the silver on it,
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although it quickly disappeared back into the darkness. So that he would
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not remain entirely dependent on the priest, K. asked him, "We're now
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near the main entrance, are we?" "No," said the priest, "we're a long
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way from it. Do you already want to go?" K. had not thought of going
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until then, but he immediately said, "Yes, certainly, I have to go. I'm
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the chief clerk in a bank and there are people waiting for me, I only
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came here to show a foreign business contact round the cathedral."
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"Alright," said the priest offering him his hand, "go then." "But I
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can't find my way round in this darkness by myself," said K. "Go to your
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left as far as the wall," said the priest, "then continue alongside the
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wall without leaving it and you'll find a way out." The priest had only
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gone a few paces from him, but K. was already shouting loudly, "Please,
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wait!" "I'm waiting," said the priest. "Is there anything else you want
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from me?" asked K. "No," said the priest. "You were so friendly to me
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earlier on," said K., "and you explained everything, but now you
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abandon me as if I were nothing to you." "You have to go," said the
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priest. "Well, yes," said K., "you need to understand that." "First, you
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need to understand who I am," said the priest. "You're the prison
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chaplain," said K., and went closer to the priest, it was not so
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important for him to go straight back to the bank as he had made out, he
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could very well stay where he was. "So that means I belong to the
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court," said the priest. "So why would I want anything from you? The
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court doesn't want anything from you. It accepts you when you come and
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it lets you go when you leave."
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Chapter Ten
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End
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The evening before K.'s thirty-first birthday--it was about nine
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o'clock in the evening, the time when the streets were quiet--two men
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came to where he lived. In frock coats, pale and fat, wearing top hats
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that looked like they could not be taken off their heads. After some
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brief formalities at the door of the flat when they first arrived, the
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same formalities were repeated at greater length at K.'s door. He had
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not been notified they would be coming, but K. sat in a chair near the
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door, dressed in black as they were, and slowly put on new gloves which
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stretched tightly over his fingers and behaved as if he were expecting
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visitors. He immediately stood up and looked at the gentlemen
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inquisitively. "You've come for me then, have you?" he asked. The
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gentlemen nodded, one of them indicated the other with the top hand now
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in his hand. K. told them he had been expecting a different visitor. He
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went to the window and looked once more down at the dark street. Most
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of the windows on the other side of the street were also dark already,
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many of them had the curtains closed. In one of the windows on the same
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floor where there was a light on, two small children could be seen
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playing with each other inside a playpen, unable to move from where
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they were, reaching out for each other with their little hands. "Some
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ancient, unimportant actors--that's what they've sent for me," said K.
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to himself, and looked round once again to confirm this to himself.
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"They want to sort me out as cheaply as they can." K. suddenly turned
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round to face the two men and asked, "What theatre do you play in?"
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"Theatre?" asked one of the gentlemen, turning to the other for
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assistance and pulling in the corners of his mouth. The other made a
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gesture like someone who was dumb, as if he were struggling with some
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organism causing him trouble. "You're not properly prepared to answer
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questions," said K. and went to fetch his hat.
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As soon as they were on the stairs the gentlemen wanted to take K.'s
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arms, but K. said "Wait till we're in the street, I'm not ill." But
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they waited only until the front door before they took his arms in a
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way that K. had never experienced before. They kept their shoulders
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close behind his, did not turn their arms in but twisted them around
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the entire length of K.'s arms and took hold of his hands with a grasp
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that was formal, experienced and could not be resisted. K. was held
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stiff and upright between them, they formed now a single unit so that if
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any one of them had been knocked down all of them must have fallen.
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They formed a unit of the sort that normally can be formed only by
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matter that is lifeless.
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Whenever they passed under a lamp K. tried to see his companions more
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clearly, as far as was possible when they were pressed so close
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together, as in the dim light of his room this had been hardly
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possible. "Maybe they're tenors," he thought as he saw their big double
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chins. The cleanliness of their faces disgusted him. He could see the
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hands that cleaned them, passing over the corners of their eyes,
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rubbing at their upper lips, scratching out the creases on those chins.
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When K. noticed that, he stopped, which meant the others had to stop
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too; they were at the edge of an open square, devoid of people but
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decorated with flower beds. "Why did they send you, of all people!" he
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cried out, more a shout than a question. The two gentleman clearly knew
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no answer to give, they waited, their free arms hanging down, like
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nurses when the patient needs to rest. "I will go no further," said K.
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as if to see what would happen. The gentlemen did not need to make any
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answer, it was enough that they did not loosen their grip on K. and
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tried to move him on, but K. resisted them. "I'll soon have no need of
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much strength, I'll use all of it now," he thought. He thought of the
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flies that tear their legs off struggling to get free of the flypaper.
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"These gentleman will have some hard work to do."
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Just then, Miss Bürstner came up into the square in front of them from
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the steps leading from a small street at a lower level. It was not
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certain that it was her, although the similarity was, of course, great.
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But it did not matter to K. whether it was certainly her anyway, he
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just became suddenly aware that there was no point in his resistance.
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There would be nothing heroic about it if he resisted, if he now caused
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trouble for these gentlemen, if in defending himself he sought to enjoy
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his last glimmer of life. He started walking, which pleased the
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gentlemen and some of their pleasure conveyed itself to him. Now they
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permitted him to decide which direction they took, and he decided to
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take the direction that followed the young woman in front of them, not
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so much because he wanted to catch up with her, nor even because he
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wanted to keep her in sight for as long as possible, but only so that
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he would not forget the reproach she represented for him. "The only
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thing I can do now," he said to himself, and his thought was confirmed
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by the equal length of his own steps with the steps of the two others,
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"the only thing I can do now is keep my common sense and do what's
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needed right till the end. I always wanted to go at the world and try
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and do too much, and even to do it for something that was not too
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cheap. That was wrong of me. Should I now show them I learned nothing
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from facing trial for a year? Should I go out like someone stupid?
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Should I let anyone say, after I'm gone, that at the start of the
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proceedings I wanted to end them, and that now that they've ended I want
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to start them again? I don't want anyone to say that. I'm grateful they
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sent these unspeaking, uncomprehending men to go with me on this
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journey, and that it's been left up to me to say what's necessary."
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Meanwhile, the young woman had turned off into a side street, but K.
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could do without her now and let his companions lead him. All three of
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them now, in complete agreement, went over a bridge in the light of the
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moon, the two gentlemen were willing to yield to each little movement
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made by K. as he moved slightly towards the edge and directed the group
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in that direction as a single unit. The moonlight glittered and
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quivered in the water, which divided itself around a small island
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covered in a densely-piled mass of foliage and trees and bushes.
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Beneath them, now invisible, there were gravel paths with comfortable
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benches where K. had stretched himself out on many summer's days. "I
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didn't actually want to stop here," he said to his companions, shamed by
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their compliance with his wishes. Behind K.'s back one of them seemed
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to quietly criticise the other for the misunderstanding about stopping,
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and then they went on. They went on up through several streets where
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policemen were walking or standing here and there; some in the distance
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and then some very close. One of them with a bushy moustache, his hand
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on the grip of his sword, seemed to have some purpose in approaching
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the group, which was hardly unsuspicious. The two gentlemen stopped,
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the policeman seemed about to open his mouth, and then K. drove his
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group forcefully forward. Several times he looked back cautiously to see
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if the policeman was following; but when they had a corner between
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themselves and the policeman K. began to run, and the two gentlemen,
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despite being seriously short of breath, had to run with him.
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In this way they quickly left the built up area and found themselves in
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the fields which, in this part of town, began almost without any
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transition zone. There was a quarry, empty and abandoned, near a
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building which was still like those in the city. Here the men stopped,
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perhaps because this had always been their destination or perhaps
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because they were too exhausted to run any further. Here they released
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their hold on K., who just waited in silence, and took their top hats
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off while they looked round the quarry and wiped the sweat off their
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brows with their handkerchiefs. The moonlight lay everywhere with the
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natural peace that is granted to no other light.
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After exchanging a few courtesies about who was to carry out the next
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tasks--the gentlemen did not seem to have been allocated specific
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functions--one of them went to K. and took his coat, his waistcoat, and
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finally his shirt off him. K. made an involuntary shiver, at which the
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gentleman gave him a gentle, reassuring tap on the back. Then he
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carefully folded the things up as if they would still be needed, even
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if not in the near future. He did not want to expose K. to the chilly
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night air without moving though, so he took him under the arm and
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walked up and down with him a little way while the other gentleman
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looked round the quarry for a suitable place. When he had found it he
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made a sign and the other gentleman escorted him there. It was near the
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rockface, there was a stone lying there that had broken loose. The
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gentlemen sat K. down on the ground, leant him against the stone and
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settled his head down on the top of it. Despite all the effort they
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went to, and despite all the co-operation shown by K., his demeanour
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seemed very forced and hard to believe. So one of the gentlemen asked
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the other to grant him a short time while he put K. in position by
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himself, but even that did nothing to make it better. In the end they
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left K. in a position that was far from the best of the ones they had
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tried so far. Then one of the gentlemen opened his frock coat and from a
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sheath hanging on a belt stretched across his waistcoat he withdrew a
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long, thin, double-edged butcher's knife which he held up in the light
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to test its sharpness. The repulsive courtesies began once again, one of
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them passed the knife over K. to the other, who then passed it back over
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K. to the first. K. now knew it would be his duty to take the knife as
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it passed from hand to hand above him and thrust it into himself. But
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he did not do it, instead he twisted his neck, which was still free,
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and looked around. He was not able to show his full worth, was not able
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whoever had denied it to him. As he looked round, he saw the top floor
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the two halves of a window opened out, somebody, made weak and thin by
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stretched his arms out even further. Who was that? A friend? A good
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person? Somebody who was taking part? Somebody who wanted to help? Was
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he alone? Was it everyone? Would anyone help? Were there objections that
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had been forgotten? There must have been some. The logic cannot be
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judge he'd never seen? Where was the high court he had never reached? He
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raised both hands and spread out all his fingers.
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But the hands of one of the gentleman were laid on K.'s throat, while
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the other pushed the knife deep into his heart and twisted it there,
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twice. As his eyesight failed, K. saw the two gentlemen cheek by cheek,
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close in front of his face, watching the result. "Like a dog!" he said,
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it was as if the shame of it should outlive him.
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